Spells Of Blood And Kin Part 13

Forgetting his fear of the man outside, Nick bolted up and sat at the table again. "How'd you get all those cards, anyway?"

"I bought that n.o.ble Brigand, like, five turns ago."

"Oh yeah. Rub it in, douche bag."

Jonathan let Nick ponder the table for a minute while he got up and mixed them each a rye and c.o.ke.

"I'm going to be blunt. You're kind of f.u.c.ked," he said, coming back to the table.

"That's a bit premature. I'm going to buy a duchy right this minute-"

"Actually," said Jonathan, "I didn't mean the game. Nick, honestly. You're kind of ... I don't know."

"I don't know, either. What are you trying to say?"

"I was wondering if you might be manic-depressive."

"It's called bipolar now. And I'm not."

"Come on, Nick-take a drink, chill out, and listen to me. You've been all go-go-go lately. And now with this thing of thinking people are watching you. And all the arm wrestling..."

"I win all the arm wrestling."

"That actually makes it even weirder, honestly. I mean, you used to be pretty laid back, right? And now you're bouncing off the walls every time we go out, and you want to go out all the time. I can't keep up." Jonathan's hands lay flat on the table on each side of his sweating plastic tumbler. He looked at them instead of at Nick as he kept talking. "I looked up the signs. Increased sociability. Feeling invincible. Sleeping less, drinking more. Paranoid thoughts."

Nick took a too-large gulp of his drink and choked a little. When he recovered his voice, he said, "Wow. I thought I came over to play Dominion, not have a f.u.c.king intervention."

"It's not an intervention, for Christ's sake. I just want you to think about-"

"Come here." Nick got down on the floor again and beckoned to Jonathan to follow him.

Sighing, Jonathan did.

They crawled out to the balcony and peered through one of the cutouts in the concrete barrier.

"See him?" Nick whispered.

"The guy in the rugby shirt?"

"Exactly. Rugby shirt. And he's wearing this really strong cologne. Can't you smell it?"

"Nick. He's, like, half a block away."

"Well, he's wearing a lot of it."

"If you're trying to convince me of your sanity here, it's not quite working."

"You were the one who smoked me up, and now you're telling me I'm not sober enough to pa.s.s your little test. f.u.c.k off." Nick flicked Jonathan in the forehead with his fingers and stormed back inside.

"Ouch. Fine. We'll talk about it later."

"Jesus, everyone's so serious these days."

"Yeah," Jonathan said. "Well. Got to get serious sometime, right? We're grad students now. I have underlings and everything. I was actually thinking about asking Hannah to move in here."

Nick pressed his hands over his ears. "I can't hear you. La, la, la, la, rainbows and puppies and lucky charms. Dude-you know what will happen, right?"

"I'm pretty sure I do. I'll have to keep the place cleaner, maybe buy some matching plates, and be nice to her mom, and in exchange-"

"Jonathan. You'll never be able to smoke pot in your apartment again. Never. You'll have to come to my place."

"I hope to G.o.d you'll clean up those moldy apple cores from your windowsill before I do. What a buzzkill."

"Already gone, man. I couldn't stand the smell of them anymore."

"Anyway, I'm not smoking that much these days," Jonathan said.

"What? I'm the drinker, you're the smoker. It's the natural order of things."

"Hate to break it to you, buddy, but I haven't even bought weed in a month. I've just been smoking yours." Jonathan started laughing, so that Nick couldn't tell if he was telling the truth or just yanking Nick's chain.

It didn't change his answer, anyway. "My weed is here for you, brother," Nick said. "I am with you in your time of need."

Jonathan stopped laughing then and said, "Look, I'm with you too. Other stuff might change, but not that."

A key in the door: Nick heard it first, snapping his head around, grabbing at the game box to hide the bag of pot sitting out on the table.

Jonathan didn't flinch, though, just lazily kicked his chair back.

Hannah dropped the key on a side table and her purse on the floor and sniffed the air theatrically. "Did I interrupt a moment?" she said.

"Just taking advantage of an afternoon off," Jonathan said, rising to give her a kiss.

"Ugh, you taste all smoky," Hannah said, giggling. "I bet you've already got pizzas on the way or something, right? Don't let me harsh your buzz; I'm just picking up that laundry I left here yesterday."

"Oh my G.o.d, and you wonder why I keep calling you Mom," Nick said.

"Ignore him," Jonathan said. "Stick around. Have some, if you want. I haven't ordered pizza yet, but I will."

"Count me out. I've got to go," Nick said, finding himself on his feet already, halfway to the door. "Remembered some stuff I have to do."

"You sure?" Jonathan said.

"Sure," Nick said, making a j.e.r.k.-.o.f.f. gesture and sticking his tongue out.

"Fine, fine, get out of here, a.s.shole," Jonathan said, flinging the baggie of weed at him. "See you tomorrow."

"See you tomorrow, Nick," Hannah echoed, looking up from the pizza menu on her phone.

Right-he'd almost forgotten the three of them had plans to get together for dinner. Nick let the apartment door swing shut behind him and jogged down the stairs, all at once eager to put some distance between himself and the next day. When he saw them again, he'd open some half-decent wine and maybe wear the shirt Hannah had given him from her trip to Switzerland.

Nick didn't remember having to work this hard before, having to make a plan for how to be nice to people.

He wondered if Hannah had to work this hard to be nice to him or if it was just in her nature-and if the distinction mattered.

Because Jonathan had said the arm wrestling was weird, Nick didn't head toward the Palmerston tonight, but he still felt an itch under his skin, blunted a little by the pot smoking and the couple of drinks he'd had, but not gone-just made whimsical. He thought about dancing, maybe, but it was a Monday, the worst night for dancing.

Then it came to him, and he changed direction: he had a renovation project in the works, and tonight would be a perfect time.

MAY 17.

WAXING CRESCENT.

Maksim, as the nominal host, suggested a restaurant on Roncesvalles. He chose it because he planned to run in High Park for a few hours first, tiring himself enough to converse without either eggs or a quant.i.ty of liquor; he did not like the way Gus looked at him under either influence, a.s.sessing and overfamiliar and sad.

Accordingly, he wore jogging shoes and shorts and a Nike T-shirt. He did not mind running in whatever he happened to have on when the mood struck him, but he did mind the looks, and nowhere in Toronto could he find a place free of other runners. He hammered over the trails, breathing deep of the tree scents and the fox musk. His knee pained him, but not enough to make him stop, and after a while, the feeling left it.

Sometimes when he ran his mind would fray away into his surroundings, leaving nothing but smell and sight and rhythm, and he would reach a place hours later and have no words for how he got there.

So it was today: when he finally slowed, at the edge of the park in a place he'd already pa.s.sed at least once, he discovered he had only five minutes to reach the restaurant, and so he had to run again.

Gus waited for him on a bench outside. She wore a lumberjack shirt with the sleeves torn off, jeans spattered with bleach spots, heavy boots. Her grizzled fair hair had not been brushed.

"I hope you brought plenty of money," she said, grinning. "I have a hunger."

She ordered eggs scrambled with sausage and onions, and a plate of pierogi, which arrived piled high with crumbled bacon and more onions fried crisp. Maksim, despite his run, did not have a hunger. He spooned idly at a beet soup dotted with tiny mushroom dumplings.

Gus, elbows on the table, stuffed her mouth full of egg and said through it, "You're freaking me out."

Maksim shrugged.

"Jesus knows I didn't have a whole lot of use for you the way you've been these last few years, but this is truly unnatural. Eat your f.u.c.king lunch."

Maksim's nature had begun to rise up hard as the spell of the eggs wore off, and the struggle left him without an appet.i.te, but he filled his mouth with soup and gestured for Gus to move on.

She rolled her eyes but said, "I haven't picked up anything. A few brawls, but the ones I saw personally were not your guy, and the other ones didn't sound like him, either."

"He was in a place on the eastern edge of your neighborhood."

"It's a big neighborhood. And people come to it from all over."

"What for?" Maksim muttered.

"Vintage clothes, crack, Trinidadian food, you name it," said Gus, and she laughed. "Don't be discouraged. I remember what it was like to be newly made kin. He hasn't gone off the rails yet, Maks. When he does-"

"I would very much like to find him before that."

"Yeah, well. Society takes care of stuff like that now. When he causes a big enough problem, someone will step in."

"They will not know what to do with him."

"Of course not. But if he makes waves, it'll be easier for us to find him, if he's still worth finding. And if not, if he goes too far, at least he'll be locked up where he won't hurt anyone for a while."

Maksim pushed his fists together under the table and breathed through his nose. All his fault. He felt as an addict feels, tumbling off the wagon after years of sobriety to discover the high is as wonderful as it ever was and that he's only been half-alive without it; and, at the same time, he's now going to have to tear down again the new life he's built and devote himself only to the old, single, terrible thing.

He felt, in short, very much in need of a friend; but the friend he had was going to be no help at all.

"Welcome back," Gus said.

He looked across the table at her. Bright eyes in a face just beginning to weather, a smile showing faintly yellowed teeth, and a scar at the corner of her lip. She was not as old as Maksim was himself, but still the years had left marks. And the time did not give much in return: neither riches nor wisdom, if he and Gus were anything to go by.

Still, she was smiling, and he almost hated her for it, even as he knew exactly what she meant.

He sighed. "Would you like to drink some whiskey?"

"After you eat your soup, d.a.m.n it."

"I have never known you to be a mother hen before, Augusta."

"Don't call me that. And I'm only compensating for kicking your a.s.s the other day."

"I hope you enjoyed it, for it is unlikely to reoccur." Maksim raised a brow and curled the corner of his lip at her.

Gus made a rude noise. "You wish. Have you seen yourself lately?"

Maksim let the sneer fall away and trailed his spoon through his soup.

"Whatever it was," Gus said. "Whatever's eating you. It was years ago. Decades, Maks. Things change-even you and me."

"For the worse," Maksim said.

Gus leaned close to look at his face. "Always?"

"Yes," Maksim said, a bare whisper from the depth of his chest.

"But-"

He shook his head and pushed the soup bowl away. A flaw in the glaze sc.r.a.ped the surface of the table, and the sound made Gus twitch and shiver, pale hairs rising on her forearms.

She met Maksim's eyes again. When he would have looked away, she caught his chin roughly.