Silent On The Moor Part 10

There was a spirited discussion over the custody of Mr. Pugglesworth, but as I refused to keep the revolting animal, Portia had no choice but to tuck him under her arm as she left. She had sent Minna to ask G.o.dwin to arrange for transportation, and by the time she and Morag and Valerius were ready to leave, packed and swathed in a travelling veil, a farm cart borrowed from a neighbour was standing at the end of the drive. Valerius appeared, pale and unshaven, yawning broadly as he collected Portia's portmanteau along with his own. He raised a hand to me in farewell, and I blew him a kiss. His expression was sober, and I knew he would feel as wretched as I. Jane had been a sort of sister to him as well. Portia did not turn, but I leaned from the cas.e.m.e.nt and watched until she was out of sight.

She had left it to me to make her excuses to the rest of the household, and I did not relish the task. I met with Brisbane first. He had just emerged from his room when I descended.

"Portia is gone," I told him without preamble.

"Without sorting my linen cupboard?" he asked with a touch of asperity.

"Don't, I beg you. I am quite miserable enough."

Instantly, he moved to me, his hand heavy on my shoulder. "What is the trouble?"

"Jane has left her. She means to marry and go out to India."

Brisbane said nothing, then gave a low sigh, his hand tightening upon my shoulder. "Odd, really. I would have counted them the happiest couple of my acquaintance."

I gave a little sound, half sob and half laugh. I covered his hand with my own. "That is the difficulty. They were happy. They are so well-suited to one another, and yet Jane wanted something more. She has left Portia in order to have a family."

His gaze was hard upon mine. "Can you blame her?"

"What do you mean?"

"Only that Jane has never known a proper family of her own."

"She has known Portia!" I countered hotly. "Portia has been everything to her, has given her all that she has to give."

"And perhaps it was not enough," he said quietly. His expression was so grave, I felt my heart thump painfully in my chest.

"I wonder, Brisbane, are you talking about Jane and Portia, or do you speak of something else entirely?"

The little muscle in his jaw that twitched whenever he was impatient jumped. "I am simply endeavouring to point out that no matter how much one wishes for something, no matter how desperately one might love someone, there are no guarantees."

I stared at him, taking in the coiled tension of his stand, the shadows under his eyes. "What happened in Edinburgh?"

He dropped his hand from my shoulder. "Julia, this is not the time-"

"I think it is. You were reconciled to my presence here before you left. I think you were even happy to see me, in spite of the circ.u.mstances. But you came back changed and I would know why. What happened in Edinburgh?"

"I was shot at," he told me flatly. "A ring of counterfeiters, pa.s.sing false notes on the Bank of Scotland. Their leader was a son of a bosom friend of the Prince of Wales. I was asked to retrieve him and return him to his family so they can deal with him privately. He did not come quietly."

I felt cold, from my head to my feet, a sweeping cold that almost stilled my breath. "You are unharmed?" I could scarcely force the words through stiffened lips.

"I am. The bullet grazed my coat," he said, pointing to a tidy little scar at the collar that had been neatly mended. My eyes filled with hot tears.

"If that bullet had been a hairsbreadth to the left," I said, unable to finish the thought. The bullet had pa.s.sed within a shadow of his throat.

"I know," he told me. "Believe me, when the tailor was st.i.tching my coat, all I could think of was how lucky I had been. How many times I have been lucky," he said, his voice trailing off.

I thought of the bullet that had torn through his shoulder when he had saved the life of one dear to me in Trafalgar Square, and I shuddered.

He reached for my hands and held them fast in his own. "Julia, I have spent the better part of my life seeking adventure and having very little care if I woke the next day or not. I have lived freely and with no one to whom I must be beholden or accountable, no one to consider if I died." I thought of his devoted manservant Monk, and knew that Brisbane was wrong. Monk loved him like a son, and had anything befallen Brisbane, Monk would have mourned him like a lost child.

Brisbane continued. "I have led a selfish life, and I have enjoyed it. I cannot imagine a life without my work, and I cannot imagine a life without you, and yet I cannot reconcile the two." My heart, which had given a joyous leap in the middle of his speech, faltered now as I realised what he was trying to say.

"I never thought to ask you to give up your work," I began.

"But how can I ask you to sit idly by and wait for me to return when every time I kiss you goodbye might be the last?"

"Oh, don't!" I told him, fully enraged. "How dare you blame your cowardice upon me?"

His lips went white, as did the tiny crescent moon scar high upon his cheekbone. "I beg your pardon?"

"Cowardice," I said distinctly. "You hide behind this pretence of fine feeling because you will not declare yourself directly and this gives you a perfect excuse, does it not? Spare poor Julia the horror of being widowed a second time. Put her up on the shelf and keep her out of harm's way whilst you amuse yourself with your dashing adventures."

He opened his mouth to speak, but I stepped forward, tipping my head up to rail at him. "I am quite disappointed that you have revealed yourself to be so thoroughly conventional in your philosophy. Have I not proven myself a capable partner?" I demanded. "Have I not stood, side by side, with you, facing peril with equal courage? If you thought for a moment that I would be the meek, quiet, obedient sort of woman who would sit quietly at home mending your socks while you get to venture out into the world on your daring escapades, you have sorely mistaken me."

I turned on my heel and left him then, gaping after me like a landed carp. It was a very small consolation.

I made an effort to settle my temper and made my way to the kitchen. Lady Allenby was still at table, finishing the remains of her breakfast, when I appeared. To my surprise, Hilda was with her, absently cutting a piece of ham for her mother.

"My hands are rather worse today," Lady Allenby said by way of explanation.

I expressed my sympathy and gave her the broadest sketch of why Portia had fled without so much as a farewell, telling her only that there was a family difficulty and she was wanted and that Valerius would return after he accompanied her safely to Portsmouth.

"But if the difficulty is a family one, should you not be there as well?" Hilda asked, her tone cool. She thickly b.u.t.tered a piece of toast, oblivious to her mother's reproving frown.

"Not at all," I said smoothly. "The business concerns a cousin of her late husband, Lord Bettis...o...b..." That much was true at least.

Lady Allenby redirected the conversation quickly. "How lovely that you were able to stay behind. The moorland is quite beautiful in spring, you know. It is a shame to miss a single day of it."

"I have heard, and I am happy to be staying as well," I replied. Mrs. b.u.t.ters laid a plate before me, steaming eggs and sausages and a clever little savoury pudding full of cheese and herbs. I lifted my fork just as Hilda shot me a smiling look. Doubtless she was remembering the scene she had overlooked the previous afternoon, Brisbane embracing me, then shouting at me to go home. She would not have heard his words, but how many of his gestures would she have interpreted correctly? I returned the smile and stabbed viciously at the pudding.

The rest of breakfast was consumed in silence, the only sound the click of cutlery on the plain china plates and the gentle hiss of the pan simmering on the hob.

I rose when Lady Allenby did and left by the kitchen door, intending to take a walk on the moor. Just as I reached the gate, I heard Hilda's voice behind me.

"Is it not enough that you have designs on Brisbane? Must you drive Mr. Valerius away as well?" she demanded.

I turned on my heel to find her staring at me, her hands balled into fists at her sides, her pale complexion splotched unbecomingly with red.

"I do beg your pardon?" I said with icy calm.

She moved nearer, but I stood my ground. "You should have gone with them. No one wants you here. You should have gone with your sister and left Mr. Valerius. He is the only one of you worth speaking to."

"I a.s.sure you, Miss Hilda, the arrangements were not of my making. I am terribly sorry you have been inconvenienced."

The tips of her nostrils had gone white with anger. "Do not patronise me. I will not be talked down to, as though I were an imbecile like Jetty. My blood is quite as good as yours, my lady," she said, larding the last word with sarcasm. "My ancestors were kings in this land when yours were still wiping the boots of a b.a.s.t.a.r.d in Normandy."

I sighed and folded my arms over my chest. "Hilda, this is tiresome. You are far too old for childish insults, insults I don't even think you believe. And you are far too sensible to put any credence in that Saxon royalty nonsense."

She gaped at me, clearly torn. In the end, her sound common sense won out. "Oh, very well, it is ludicrous. I would burn that stupid tapestry if I could. No one cares about such things anymore. I've tried to tell Mama that. She won't listen, and neither will Ailith. But I had to say something," she added, giving me a defiant glare. "I've nothing else to fight you with."

"Good heavens, why should you want to fight me at all? I should think you would far rather prefer a little civil conversation."

"With you?" She made no attempt to disguise the scorn in her voice. "I can a.s.sure you we have no point of commonality."

"Nonsense. We are both ladies, gently born. We are both in this remote place. We might talk of anything, the people here, the landscape, or the books," I said, feeling a sudden surge of inspiration.

She eyed me warily, as a whipped dog will do to a hand raised to it, even in friendship. "What books?"

"The ones you had in your room. The Egyptology books. You would be quite mad for the ones in your brother's study, I'm sure. Did you know he has the entire set of the Description de l'egypte? It is in remarkably good condition."

If I had thought her angry before, it was nothing compared to her rage now. She could scarcely speak, and when she did, her voice was rough.

"You have been in Redwall's room? Going through his things?"

"Yes, I had your mother's permission, of course. If you would like to see them, I would be happy-"

"You would be happy?" She stepped forward, and for one terrible moment, I truly believed she would strike me. I balled my fist behind my skirts and set my shoulders. If she did strike me, I would not be unprepared. "You would give me permission to look at what by rights belongs to me?"

Relieved, I put out a hand to placate her. "Miss Hilda, really, there is no need-"

"There is every need," she said, biting off each word sharply. "You are a meddlesome b.i.t.c.h, and the sooner you go back to London, the better."

She turned on her heel then and left me standing in the mud.

THE ELEVENTH CHAPTER.

A great reckoning in a little room.

-William Shakespeare.

As You Like It.

After the high drama of my encounters with both Brisbane and Hilda, I lost my enthusiasm for a walk on the moor. I returned to Sir Redwall's study, determined to make some headway. I had forgot Bellmont's letter in the confusion of Portia's departure, but I retrieved it, wishing fervently that he had pledged his help. The news was not encouraging. I skimmed hastily through his lectures on my wilfulness, my stubbornness, my lack of femininity, until my eyes glazed and the words ran together on the page. It was not until the third page that he came to the point.

As to countenancing any sort of exhibition regarding Sir Redwall Allenby, I can only think that you are attempting to make a poor jest. His name is anathema in Egyptological circles, for reasons that do no credit to any scholar or gentleman. Of course, in the interests of scholarship and patrimony, the collection should be turned over at once to the British Museum, although this could well ignite a heated and insoluble round of debate regarding the provenance and current rights of ownership. The absolutely wrong thing to do would be to remove the collection in its entirety to London for appraisal and private sale before anyone can get wind of what you are about. I, naturally, would counsel against such action, particularly as any more scandal would not reflect well upon our family at this time. My eldest, Orlando, is proposing marriage to the daughter of the Duke of Driffield, and anything that could puncture his happiness is of course of the greatest concern to me.

I tossed the letter aside, vastly irritated. Bellmont had always been a pompous prig, but he usually managed to be helpful in the end. If he was busy helping Orlando court the Duke of Driffield's daughter, however, there would be no help from that quarter whatsoever. The Driffield t.i.tle was an insignificant but old one, and Monty would be positively swooning at the idea of marrying his heir to Driffield's daughter. Any escapades on the part of any of the Marches at this point would be severely frowned upon. There were political hopes as well for Orlando, and I had no doubt Bellmont was keeping an eagle eye on all his wayward siblings at present.

There was nothing for it then, I decided. I would have to arrange the evaluation and sale myself, although I was vastly pleased Bellmont had dropped that little nugget of information about Redwall Allenby's disgrace in the Egyptological community. I would have to tread carefully to dispose of his collection without alerting the circles in which he had once travelled. As to what Redwall had done that was so ungentlemanly and unscholarly, I would simply have to add that question to the others tumbling in my mind.

I had just turned my hand to noting the condition of a pretty little chest painted with ibises when the door opened. I started, nearly dropping the chest. I knew Brisbane would find out soon enough what I was about, but I had been reluctant to tell him of my scheme to help the Allenby ladies. I needn't have feared. It was not Brisbane approaching softly through the gloom. It was Ailith, her slippered feet silent on the stone floor. Her expression was serene, her hands clasped loosely in front of her.

"Lady Julia. My mother told me I might find you here."

I cleared my throat and set down the little chest with infinite care. "Yes. I am cataloguing Sir Redwall's collection. Your mother is interested in placing it for sale." It seemed the most tactful way to phrase the matter.

She said nothing for a long moment, but looked around, taking in the dusty shrouds of furniture, the painted ceiling, the little notebook on my lap. She smiled then, a sad, vacant thing.

"You have one of Redwall's notebooks. He was never without one, always jotting notes, drawing little sketches in them." I said nothing and she hurried on, almost as though the words were being forced from her. "I have the others, you know."

"The others?"

"The notebooks. The ones he kept in Egypt. They might prove useful to you when you are cataloguing. He wrote about his acquisitions sometimes. Where he found them, the name of the dealer, that sort of thing."

"That would be a tremendous help. There is no provenance for many of these articles. If he kept a diary of sorts, it would at least give me a place to start."

"Come with me then, to my room. I will give them to you."

I laid aside my pencil and notebook and followed her upstairs. I had not yet seen her room, but as soon as I crossed the threshold, I realised I would have known it for hers out of any bedchamber in the house. The walls were painted a soft greyed blue, and the colour was repeated throughout the room. She had a four-poster bed hung with the same striking shade, the silk brittle and shredding. The walls were peeling in spots where the damp had seeped in, and the furniture, save a few small painted wooden pieces, was missing. It was a room that, like the lady herself, had once been extremely elegant and feminine. But time had taken its toll. I saw the fatigue here of watching the family fortunes dwindle, of isolation and loneliness. Only one object livened the room-a doll's house, large and imposing, and I realised it was the one she had told me about. Her description had been thoroughly accurate. It was a perfectly rendered replica of Grimsgrave itself.

"How lovely," I breathed, bending to see into the little rooms. It was beautifully furnished, down to the last detail, and I saw for the first time how stately the public rooms had once been with their oaken panelling and heavy carved furniture. There was even a tiny replica of the tapestry from the hall, and I squinted to make out the st.i.tches.

"There are only flowers on the branches of the tree," Ailith explained. "The names would not fit." I noticed, though, that a crown of gold thread had been st.i.tched at the top. Even in miniature, the royal lineage must not be forgot. I traced the branch where Ailith and her sibling had been commemorated. Three blossoms hung there and I thought at once of the unpicked place in the tapestry downstairs.

"You are clever, Lady Julia," Ailith told me. "That was my sister, Wilfreda. We do not speak of her, and I beg you not to ask Mama about her."

I stepped back, embarra.s.sed to have caused her distress. "I am sorry. I did not mean to pry."

Ailith smiled her serene smile. "All families have skeletons in the cupboard. Some of them are bound to come tumbling out. I do not mind talking about her. The doll's house was hers, a gift from our father. When she left, I begged Mama for it. It is the only thing of hers that was not destroyed."

She paused and went to the writing table, opening the drawer. She extracted a few notebooks, identical to the one I had found in Redwall's study. "Here. I should like them back when you have done with them."

"Of course. I shall take excellent care of them, I promise."

She smiled again, this time indulgently, as an adult will to a precocious child. "I know you will. There is something else I should like you to see."

She reached into the drawer again and withdrew a photograph in a small leather frame, the sort of thing a traveller might carry. She put it into my hands and I stared at the photograph. It was of a man, dressed in travelling clothes, an exotic background behind him. It was Cairo, the minarets just visible through the latticed window. There were a few potted palms at his elbow, and a great stuffed crocodile at his feet. But it was not the props that had captured my attention. He was the most beautiful man I had ever seen. There was an elegance, a perfection to his features that was unrivalled. The lips, beautifully moulded, were slightly curved into a smile of invitation to the viewer. The bones, carved with a master's hand, spoke of centuries of good breeding. His was the sort of face that would have been beautiful even in extreme old age. Even in death.

I turned to Ailith and she was not looking at the photograph. She was studying my reaction to it.

"A very handsome man. Your brother, I presume?" The question was unnecessary. The resemblance was profound. They might have been twins, the similarity was so great.

"That was taken in Egypt," she told me. "He had been gone from home almost thirteen years by then. He wanted us to see how he had changed. He ought to have cut his hair." I turned back to the photograph. True, his hair was overlong, curling at his collar and temples, but I understood why he had not cut it. It would have been heresy to spoil those silky locks.

"Was his colouring the same as yours?" I ventured.

"Oh, yes. The same gold hair and blue eyes. All Allenbys are the same, save for Hilda. Her colouring is so dull. You might have seen Redwall's portrait, had Mama not burned it. An excellent likeness, although I think this one is better."

I blinked at her. "Lady Allenby burned his portrait?"