Shadows In Bronze Part 17

'Very few people can buy a good bucket. I told Larius I could rely on you.'

'Talking of him ' She dived under her stole, which she was keeping in the bucket while the evening stayed mild. 'I bought this to help you cheer him up.'

It was a miniature stag, also in bronze, small enough to sit in the palm of my hand and beautifully modelled. I made the right noises, but Helena Justina could spot insincerity at a stadium's length: 'Is something wrong-are you offended?'

'Jealous,' I confessed.

'Fool!' Laughing, she dived in again. 'Your mother asked me to look out for these for you.' Next she gave me a parcel about six inches long, heavy, and wrapped in cloth.

It was a set of spoons. Ten. Bronze. I tried the balance: beautiful. They had pleasing egg-shaped bowls, slightly elongated in the length. The hexagonal handles were straight, then turned down and curved into a rat-tail fixture on the bowl; they had moulded knops by the elbow joints, picked up by a complementary finial...

'Well, my cold gruel should taste a lot better out of these!'

'Wipe them with a cloth when you wash them, so they won't mark - do you like them?'

They were superb. I told her that. Whatever they cost must be more than my mother could possibly afford; I was reaching for my funds again, with a sharp pain in the purse area, when she muttered, 'Those are from me.' It was just like her. No one in the Didius family had ever possessed a full set of matching spoons. I was overcome.

'Helena-'

'Just enjoy your gruel.'

She was playing with a finger bowl. I lifted her free hand - the left - kissed her palm, then gave back the hand. A bracelet of spindle-shaped blue firence beads shivered on her wrist. Nothing else. No silver ring.

So that was it.

I held my ten spoons tenderly, though I felt like a n.o.blewoman's plaything who had been bought off. I made no attempt to control my face. I should have done. Because as I sat in resentful silence the Senator's daughter turned to look at me. And she immediately realized what I thought about the reason for her gift.

I had made a mistake.

One of those moments. Two seconds, to destroy an entire relationship.

One stupid, wrong expression that shatters your life.

XLI.

In the following few minutes I watched more doors close against me than I had ever even noticed were ajar.

'I have two pieces of information, Falco.' Her flat tone confirmed that a.s.sisting me had withered to a distasteful public duty. 'First, my father-in-law went to Nola because Aufidius Crispus had invited him as his personal guest at the Nola Games.' She looked as if she had just wasted an hour on a manicure for an important dinner party, then broken a nail against the doorlatch on her way out. 'Crispus was the host all round; he paid for the Games.

'A good show?' I asked carefully. It was not the first time I had insulted a friend - or a woman - but I normally liked to minimize the damage this did to myself.

'Athletes, chariot races, thirty pairs of gladiators, a bullfight-'

'So can I expect to find Crispus at Nola?

'No; it was a one-day spectacle.'

'Ah! Is he very public spirited - or standing as a magistrate?'

'Neither.'

'But he was courting support?

Teasing information from Helena had never been harder. Luckily the chance of putting me in my place made her slightly more talkative: 'It's obvious, Falco. Campania, at the height of the holiday season. What better opportunity for an ambitious man to approach influential Romans - quite privately? Half the Senate will be here at some time this summer-'

'So Crispus can entertain, coerce, manipulate- all without attracting suspicion! In Rome if he gave public entertainments half the Forum would be taking bets on what he wanted-'

'Exactly.'

'Yet here he only looks like a great-hearted, gregarious type enjoying his holiday!' This time she merely nodded. 'Well! That explains why Crispus won't ingratiate himself with the new Emperor, the man is planning regal moves himself. Vespasian may not be the only voter in Rome who does not go along with it-'

'Oh, I wish I believed that -' Overcoming her reticence, Helena Justina beat one hand on the table. 'Why must people have so little faith in the Flavians?'

'Vespasian and t.i.tus are a credit to Rome. There's no scandal; and that's no fun.'

'Don't be so fatuous!' She rounded on me bitterly. 'The only decent Emperor in our lifetime! But Vespasian will be pushed out of office won't he? Before he has started, before anyone even gives him a chance to show what he can do-'

'Don't despair yet.' By nature Helena was a fighter and an optimist; I dropped my hand over the one she had smacked down. 'This is not like you!'

She broke away restlessly. 'Aufidius Crispus is wickedly powerful. He has far too many well-placed friends. Falco, you must stop him!'

'Helena, I can't even find him!'

'Because you're not trying.'

'Thanks for the flattery!'

'I don't need to boost your confidence; you have a high enough opinion of yourself!'

'Thanks again!'

'What have you achieved chasing Crispus? You're pottering in the sunshine on this lead-selling lark - you aft, pretending to be an entrepreneur! I suppose you've been showing off to all the women who run wayside wineshops -'

'A man needs some pleasure!'

'Oh shut up, Falco! You must find out what Crispus intends and prevent it-'

'I' I said briefly, but she went storming on.

'If you won't do it for the Emperor, at least think of your own career-'

'That stinks! I'll do it for you.'

Too late I saw her flinch. 'I'm not your tribune's girlfriend making herself available to the new intake of recruits; Falco, spare me the cheap dialogue!'

'Cool down. I'm doing my best. What you call 'pottering' is a methodical search-'

'Well have you found anything?'

'Aufidius Crispus goes nowhere and sees no one - according to them. There's a conspiracy of silence among the well-heeled seekers of sea air -' I watched her anxiously; women of her rank were well taken care of, yet her eyes had a heaviness which even discreet cosmetic had failed to disguise. Paint can be a cruel friend. I risked seizing her hand again. 'What's bothering you, treasure?' She escaped from me angrily. 'Helena - what's de matter?'

'Nothing.'

'Oh, cobnuts! Well, what was the other thing you had to say?'

'Never mind.'

'Nice girls don't quarrel with men who buy them langoustines!'

'There was no need for that!' Her face set, hating me for what she saw as false concern. 'You and your friends had shrimps; I don't expect special treatment-'

'If you did, you wouldn't get to eat with my friends-' 'I like shrimps-'

'That's why you like me... Lady, I thought we were talking about the peace of the Empire - tell me your story!'

She took a deep breath and abandoned our spat. 'When Aufidius Crispus left the villa Rustica after seeing Marcellus, I happened to walk through the room where they had been, before it was cleared. The flagon was empty. And on the tray were three wine cups.'

'All used?'

'All used.'

I considered it. 'Maybe Crispus brought someone with him; his litter was closed-'

'I was on our roof garden when he left; he was alone.'

Sweet thought: a senator's daughter spying over bal.u.s.trades and discreetly counting cups! 'Could this mean Barnabas?'

'I doubt it, Falco. My father-in-law never allowed Barnabas the run of his house. While I was married, staying with Marcellus was the only time I enjoyed normal family life; he excluded the freedman and allowed me my proper place - in fact he still does. He might grant Barnabas shelter, but he would never include him at a private meeting with a senator.'

'Don't discount the possibility,' I warned. 'Could Marcellus be entertaining some secretive house guest?'

She shook her head. 'Helena Justina, I need access to explore the villa Rustica-'

'First find Aufidius Crispus!' she interrupted fiercely. 'Find Crispus - do what Vespasian is paying you for!'

Scowling, I paid up; then we left the restaurant. '

We walked slowly on the road by the sh.o.r.e while we waited for her bearers to reappear. The hard note remained in her voice: 'Do you want me to introduce you to Aemilius Rufus in Herculaneum?'

'No thanks.'

'So you won't go!'

'I'll go if I find I need to.' She exclaimed with annoyance as I tried to rally her. 'Look, let's not fight... Here are your chair men. Come on, fruit-'

'Fruit? That got her, bursting into her rare, sweet, unexpected laugh.

'Did Pertinax have a pet name for you?'

'No.' Her laughter subsided instantly. No comment seemed necessary. Then she turned to me with a deliberate look. 'Will you tell me something? Was it when you were working at my ex-husband's house that you changed your mind about us?'

My face must have answered her.

I remembered the comfortable stylishness of that house on the Quirinal, which I knew had been a wedding gift from Marcellus to Helena and Pertinax. Only the G.o.ds could say what other sumptuous luxuries had been showered on the young couple by their relations and friends. Geminus and I must have catalogued some of it. Tortoisesh.e.l.l bedheads. Mosaic gla.s.s serving bowls. Gold filigree plates. Exotic embroidered coverlets Queen Dido might have slept under. Polished maple table tops. Ivory chairs. Lampstands and candelabra. Camphorwood chests... and innumerable perfect sets of spoons.

'Marcus, surely even you could understand that if a house was all I wanted, I would never have arranged my own divorce from Pertinax?'

Just being realistic!'

Helena slipped from my side and into her chair before I could even consider how to say goodbye. She closed the half-door herself. The bearers were stooping to the carrying poles; I grasped at the door, wanting to hold her back. 'Don't!' she commanded.

'Wait - shall I see you again?'

'No; there's no point.'

'There is!' There had to be.

I gestured the bearers to stop but they would only take orders from her. As the chair lurched when they raised it, I glimpsed her expression. She was comparing me with Pertinax. Rejection by a husband who was too cra.s.s to know what he was doing had been bad enough; though since no senator's daughter has much say in the choice of her husband, Pertinax was simply a false entry in life's ledger that could be cursed and written off. To go straight from him to a cynical lover who left her after the most casual kind of usage was entirely her own mistake.

Of course, I could have told her it happens every day. Women who know they know better frequently cast themselves at treacherous men whose sense of commitment only lasts as long as the rascally smile that gets them into bed...

Unlike Helena Justina, most women forgive themselves.

Just when I was prepared to be totally honest in order to keep her, she dragged the window curtain right across and shut me out. I had no need to consult the Sybil at c.u.mae to realize my exclusion from Helena's life was intended to be permanent.

I stood there, still with my mouth open to tell her that I loved her, while the bearers sneered at me churlishly and carried their lady away.

Part Four

HARPING IN HERCULANEUM.

THE BAY OF NEAPOLIS.

July

Perhaps you may be expect* a trot* of dancers, Gov girls, with their wanton songs and routines JUVENAL, Satire XI