Ruthless In A Suit: Book Three Part 6

"Why?" I ask, honestly. "Why does it have to be like this? Why can't you just be good and donate the money? I would have been happy with the ten thousand. That's an amazingly generous offer that would do so much good. Don't you want to do good?"

"Oh, I do good, Ms. Brown," he says. "In more ways than one."

"I mean with the charity," I say, as my cheeks flush.

"I told you, I don't care about the charity."

I can't even believe someone would say that, could feel that. I'm glad he said it, because it shows me once again how truly slimy he is.

"I won't do it," I say, and now I finally mean it.

Leaning toward me so close that I can feel his cool breath on my cheek, Jackson says, "Think of the children. Because I won't."

"You're cruel," I say.

"You have no idea. Now, this is your last chance to consider my offer, and because you've been so hard-headed about it, I'm putting you on a time limit." He looks at his watch, which is large and flashy and totally obnoxious. "You have one minute to decide. Is dinner with me so horrible a thought that you'd give up all that money that, as you say, could do so much good? Time starts now."

I want to explode. He's an a.s.shole, but there's just something about him that's got me, emotionally and physically. I hate him; I want to crawl all over him. He's watching me closely. My eyes drift to his lips, which are parted slightly.

"Tick tock, tick tock," he says softly, teasingly.

This is what I want to tell him: I'll go to dinner with you. For free. I don't need some sleazy proposal to do it.

I'd like to see him on more neutral ground, not this office where his presence hovers as high as the top floor his office sits on. Maybe in a restaurant he's less of a p.r.i.c.k. I picture him checking his heart at the lobby downstairs each morning before he comes to work. Maybe he gets it back at the end of each day.

He crosses his arms over his chest. The smirk is still there, playing on those lips. Yeah, this guy is definitely used to getting what he wants-in business and from women.

"No," I say, finally. "I'm sorry you don't feel your money is good enough for us. But I won't be bought."

He almost laughs. "You're not serious."

But I am serious, and I prove it to both of us by moving as quickly as I can-before I do what I really want to do and give him everything he wants and more.

On shaking legs and in heels that are cutting my feet, I finally leave Jackson Croft's office.

I get on the T at the State Street Station in a bit of a fog. What did I just do? I just turned down one hundred thousand dollars...so much money for the Children's Education Fund.

Money we desperately need.

Not only is that stupid, bad business, and irresponsible, it might also get me fired from the job I was hoping to move into full-time once I graduate next year.

Plus, all that money could have changed so many kids' lives, and isn't that my mission in life? Why I'm busting my b.u.t.t in the graduate program at Boston University to get my master's in educational leadership? I want to make a difference, add some good in the world.

And now what-I have too much integrity to have dinner with a gorgeous billionaire? Am I clinically insane?

But I know that the game he was playing was dangerous. If I'd agreed to that dinner, if something G.o.d forbid had happened between us-then I'd basically have been no different than a prost.i.tute.

And I didn't get into this to sell myself to rich men.

Not even s.e.xy, gorgeous ones like Jackson Croft? I ask myself.

My chest aches, knowing that a bigger part of me than I'd like to admit, actually wanted to give into him. Was dying to give in to his demands. The reality of the situation is that I was lucky to make it out of his office by the skin of my teeth...and if he'd said one more thing, perhaps touched my arm...it all would have been over and I'd have crumbled before him.

I transfer to the green line on autopilot, headed back to my place in Allston. I have cla.s.s later this afternoon. No way will I be able to concentrate. What am I going to tell everyone at work, anyway? I have to tell them the truth-that he offered, and I said no.

To calm myself, I imagine telling this story to my mom and dad. They're the ones who raised me to live a life of service to others. We may not have had a ton of money, but we always give what we can to helping others. It's how I was raised, and it's the only way I know how to be.

Which makes Jackson Croft that much more confusing.

The thought of someone-especially someone so privileged-having zero interest in helping others, even so much as to write a freaking check, is totally foreign to me. I just don't get it.

I get off the T at the Allston stop. There are hints of fall in the air, and I relish the crisp air on my cheeks-much better than the suffocating heat I was feeling in Jackson's office.

As I head into my studio apartment in the back of a blue house on Greylock Road, I get the story straight in my head. I had a bold plan to ask a huge corporate boss-guy for a donation and he turned me down. That's one part of the story, the one I'll tell to my co-workers. The other part of the story is that I met one of the s.e.xiest, most ridiculously attractive men I have ever seen in my life.

The way he acted repulsed me. The way he looked drove me insane in a completely different way.

I sigh with relief as I kick off my shoes. Stupid blister. As I hunt for Band-Aids, my phone buzzes. It's Jules from work, no doubt wanting every detail of the meeting. I had gone in with total pipe dreams of securing a donation and gradually getting Jackson-and his money-more involved in CEF, but it backfired in a humiliating way.

"Hey, Jules," I answer. I take a deep breath, preparing myself for blowing it so badly. If things had at least gone differently-like, if Jackson Croft had said he'd think about donating to such a worthwhile cause but needed to see more research, I could have brought in Jules to close the deal.

But now the deal is dead before anyone else had a chance at it. That's my big mistake-going for such a big prospect with no backup.

"So?" Jules asks. "You're on speaker. Talk."

"Tell us!" voices say in the background, and there's laughter. My stomach churns. It's a small office but it sounds like most of the staff is there. Did they really think I was going to pull it off? Get Jackson Croft of Croft International to give money to our little charity?

"There's not much to say," I offer lamely.

"We need to know all about it," she says.

"I'm just," I begin, not knowing how to tell them all, where to begin. My mind has gone suddenly blank. "I don't know what happened."

"You'll have to do better than that," Jules says. "Because whatever you did needs to be standard operating procedure from now on. You'll have to train the interns on how to ask for donations."

"And get the big ones!" someone calls in the background.

I pause, confused. "Wait..." My mind is racing.

"So tell us how you did it," Jules says. Why does her voice sound upbeat instead of p.i.s.sed off to the point of terminating me?

Cautiously I say, "Did what?"

"You tease," Jules laughs, and I hear a chorus of whoops in the background. "How did you get Jackson Croft to give the single biggest donation in CEF's history? Emily, you're amazing!"

"Way to go, Em!" someone else cheers.

I slowly lower myself to my threadbare couch. "Wait a minute. He actually did it? Jackson Croft donated?"

"One hundred thousand dollars," Jules says to more cheers. "We have to know-how did you convince him?"

I feel light headed. How did I do it? That's a great question that I can't answer.

"So?" Jules prompts.

She needs something from me, and I'm certainly not going to tell her or anyone else about Jackson's little proposal, even if I did turn it down. Now that he's donated the money, the last thing I need is for people to think that anything untoward happened between us.

It's in everyone's interest-donor and recipient-to present a clean, professional and united front.

"I just," I begin, thinking. "You know, I gave the stats like you said. I mean, who can say no to kids, right?"

My brow is sweaty and I gulp anxiously. I feel hot, suddenly.

"I'm sure there was more to than that," Jules says, "but whatever you did, it's amazing. Truly, Emily. We're so proud of you."

"And excited about the money!" someone else cheers.

"Thanks, guys," I say. "I'll see you in the office."

As we get off the phone, I hear more shouted congratulations and then I'm alone with just my racing thoughts.

Why did he do it?

I think back to our conversation and wonder if it was something specific that I said that made him change his mind. Or maybe he just regretted cornering me, had a change of heart.

Whatever it was that caused him to donate, the right thing to do is to call him and thank him. I can just leave a message with Sandra. I don't want to speak to him directly, just hearing his voice makes my stomach flutter.

What is it with this guy and the spell he puts on me?

I quickly pick up my phone and call the number I have in my phone.

"Jackson Croft's office."

"Hi, um, Sandra? It's Emily Brown, from earlier," I begin, nervous already, even though it's only a phone call. "Could you leave a message for Mr. Croft for me?" I continue, my throat raspy with emotion. "Tell him I called to say thank you for the very generous donation he gave to the Children's Education Fund? Tell him it's really going to do a lot of good for a lot of kids, and we really appreciate it." A bit of a shaky voice but I got it out, thank G.o.d.

"One moment, please," Sandra says. I guess I should have paused long enough for her to write it all down. I wait quietly while she jots down the message.

I hear a click on the line, and before I can wonder if I've been disconnected, that smooth deep voice that's already doing on number on my stomach says, "Emily Brown. h.e.l.lo, again."

"Mr. Croft," I stumble. That sneaky Sandra! She could have given me a heads up. "I'm sorry to disturb you, I just..."

"If you were disturbing me, I wouldn't have picked up," Jackson informs me.

"Right, okay. Um, I just, I left a message with Sandra."

"I'm here now. Tell me," he says.

I take a breath. I'm not letting this guy get to me because that's totally ridiculous. He's just a man. A totally gorgeous man who makes me forget my name, but still. Get it together. "Thank you," I say. "That's what I was calling to say. Thank you-from the Children's Education Fund-for the donation. It's really...it's huge. It's really big and we're so grateful at such a large gift..."

Jackson chuckles. He actually chuckles, and I bet I know why. I'm cringing. Could I possibly find another form of the word huge? Jesus, I'm using them all.

"Anyway," I say. "Thank you. We really appreciate it."

"And what about you? Do you appreciate it, or are you only speaking on behalf of the fund?"

"No, I appreciate it too," I say. "Very much. Mr. Croft, I really believe in this organization, and judging by the size of your donation, I think you do too."

"Getting a call from you is enough for me," he says. "Although, I have to be honest. I'd still like to take you to dinner. I know I made you uncomfortable earlier, so I'd like to take you somewhere to show there are no hard feelings. No strings, no quid pro quo. Just dinner. What do you say?"

That catches me off guard. The money is already with the fund so I know he can't corner me again with that ludicrous proposal. But Jackson Croft is basically everything I despise in a human. He's selfish, money-centric, arrogant, and overall not a nice person. Aside from the hundred grand he donated, that is. I'm sure he has an angle to that, anyway.

Still, it is just dinner. Right? What harm could there possibly be in eating food with this guy in a restaurant full of other people?

"Don't overthink it," Jackson says. "Just say yes."

So I hear myself say that one little word.

I say yes.

Even though I know I'll live to regret it.

Jackson

I knew she'd say yes. I get people to say yes to deals worth millions everyday, so I had no doubt little Miss Emily Brown would say yes to dinner with me.

Still, it gives me a thrill deep inside knowing I'll have her for the evening. She's unlike any woman I've ever known-and that's a problem. She may have said yes to dinner, but Emily has proven that she's not the kind of person who will just cave in to pressure so easily.

She presents a unique challenge. And I do enjoy a challenge.

As I get in the car and turn the ignition, preparing to go and pick Emily Brown up for our impromptu date, I find myself wondering just what makes her so different from me.

Maybe that's what attracts me to her, but it's also why I can't even bother thinking about her as anything more than a tonight-only thing. I can't get more involved than this. Not since everything I learned with the phone call from my father's lawyers.

Ironically, Emily is the exact opposite of what I need right now.

I'll have this one amazing night, one night to get her out of my system because she is not a distraction that I can afford to keep around. Dinner will simply be the scratch to the itch I've had for her since she first walked-no, barged through my office doors.

Once I've had my time with her, I'll no doubt be ready and willing to move onto the next thing. I've got more than enough options and she's not my type, in any case...

But right now I do need a short distraction from the family bulls.h.i.t.