Olive Part 54

"My dear la.s.sie, welcome! Have you been sleeping after your weary walk this morning?"

"This morning!" echoed poor Olive. She had half forgotten what had happened then, there had come such a death-like cloud between.

"Ye were both away at the Hermitage, Harold said. Ah! poor Harold!"

Olive stood waiting to hear some horrible tidings. All misfortunes seemed to come so naturally now; she felt as though she would scarcely have wondered had they told her Harold was dead.

"My dear Harold is gone away."

"Gone away," repeated Olive, slowly, as her cold hands fell heavily on her lap. She gave no other sign.

"Ah," continued the unconscious old lady, "something has gone ill with the lad. He came in here, troubled like, and said he must just depart at once."

"He was here, then?"

"Only for a wee while. I would have sent for ye, my dearie, but Jean said you were sleeping, and Harold said we had best not waken you, for you had seemed wearied. He could not wait longer, so he bade me bid you farewell, La.s.sie--la.s.sie, stay!" But Olive had already crept out of the room.

He was gone then. That last clasp of his hand was indeed the last. O miserable parting! Not as between two who love, and loving can murmur the farewell, heart to heart, until its sweetness lingers there long after its sound has ceased; but a parting that has no voice--no hope--wherein one soul follows the other in a wild despair, crying, "Give me back my life that is gone after thee;" and from the void silence there comes no answer, until the whole earth grows blank and dark like an universal grave.

For many days after _that_ day, Olive scarcely lifted her head. There came to her some friendly physical ailment, cold or fever, so that she had an excuse to comply with Mrs. Flora's affectionate orders, and take refuge in the quietness of a sick-chamber. There, such showers of love poured down upon her, that she rose refreshed and calmed. After a few weeks, her spirit came to her again like a little child's, and she was once more the quiet Olive Rothesay, rich in all social affections, and even content, save for the one never ceasing pain.

After a season of rest, she began earnestly to consider her future, especially with respect to her Art. She longed to go back to it, and drink again at its wells of peace. For dearly, dearly she loved it still. Half-smiling, she began to call her pictures her children, and to think of the time when they, a goodly race, would live, and tell no tale of their creator's woe. This Art-life--all the life she had, and all she would leave behind--must not be sacrificed by any miserable contest with an utterly hopeless human love. Therefore she determined to quit Harbury, and at once, before she began to paint her next picture. Her first plan had been to go and live in London, but this was overruled by Mrs. Flora Rothesay.

"Bide here with me, my dear niece. Come and dwell among your ain folk, your father's kin."

And so it was at last fixed to be. But first Olive must go back to Farnwood, to wind up the affairs of her little household, and to arrange about Christal. She had lately thought a good deal of this young girl; chiefly, perhaps, because she was now so eagerly clinging to every interest that could occupy her future life. She remembered, with a little compunction, how her heart had sprung to Christal on her first coming, and how that sympathy had slowly died away, possibly from its being so lightly reciprocated. Though nominally one of the household at the Dell, Miss Manners had gradually seceded from it; so that by degrees the interest with which Olive had once regarded her melted down into the mere liking of duty. Whether this should be continued, became now a matter of question. Olive felt almost indifferent on the subject, but determined that Christal herself should decide. She never would give up the girl, not even to go and live in the dear quiet household of Aunt Flora. Having thus far made up her mind, Miss Rothesay fixed the day for her return to Farnwood--a return looked forward to with a mixture of fear and yearning. But the trial must be borne. It could not be for long.

Ever since his departure Olive had never heard the sound of Harold's name. Mrs. Flora did not talk of him at all. This, her niece thought, sprang from the natural forgetfulness of old age, which, even when least selfish, seems unconsciously to narrow its interest to the small circle of its own daily life. But perhaps the old lady was more quick-sighted than Olive dreamed; for such a true and tried heart could hardly be quite frozen, even with the apathy of eighty years.

A few days before Olive's journey Mrs. Flora called her into her own room.

"I have something to say to ye, la.s.sie. Ye'll listen to the auld wife?"

"Aunt Flora!" said Olive, in affectionate reproach, and, sitting down at her feet, she took the withered hand, and laid it on her neck.

"My sweet wee la.s.sie--my bonnie, bonnie birdie!" said the tender-hearted old lady, who often treated her grand-niece as if she were a child. "If I had known sooner that poor Angus had left a daughter! My dearie, come back soon."

"In a month, Auntie Flora."

"A month seems long. At eighty years one should not boast of the morrow.

That is why I will tell ye now what rests on my mind."

"Well, dear aunt, let me hear it."

"'Tis anent the worldly gear that I will leave behind me. I have been aye careful of the good things Heaven lent me."

--She paused; but Olive, not quite knowing what to say, said nothing at all Mrs. Flora continued:

"G.o.d has given me great length of days--I have seen the young grow auld, and the auld perish. Some I would fain have chosen to come after me, have gone away before me; some have enough, and need no more. Of all my kith and kin there is none to whom the bit siller can do good, but my niece Olive, and Harold Gwynne. Does that grieve ye, la.s.sie? Nay, his right is no like yours. But he comes of blood that was sib to ours.

Alison Balfour was a Gordon by the mother's side."

As Mrs. Flora uttered the name, Olive felt a movement in the left hand that lay on her neck; the aged fingers were fluttering to and fro over the diamond ring. She looked up, but there was perfect serenity on the face. And, turning back, she prayed that the like peace might come to _her_ in time.

"Before ye came," continued Mrs. Flora, "I thought to make Harold my heir, and that he should take the name of Gordon--for dearly I loved that name in auld lang syne. Ah, la.s.sie! even in this world G.o.d can wipe away all tears from our eyes, so that we may look clearly forth unto the eternal land."

"Amen, amen!" murmured Olive Rothesay--ay, though while she uttered the prayer, her own tears blindingly rose. But her aunt's soft cold hand glided silently on her drooped head, pressing its throbbings into peace.

"I am wae to think," continued the old lady, "that ye are the last of the Rothesay line. The _name_ must end, even should Olive marry."

"I shall never marry, Aunt Flora! I shall live as you have done--G.o.d make my life equally worthy!"

"Is it so? I thought it was different. Then, Olive, my child! may G.o.d comfort thee with his peace."

Mrs. Flora kissed her on the forehead, and asked no more. Shortly afterwards, she again began to speak about her will. She wished to be just, she said, and to leave her property where it would be most required. Her heart inclined chiefly to her niece, as being a woman, struggling alone through the world; whereas Harold, firmly settled in his curacy, would not need additional fortune.

"Oh, but he does need it; you little know how sorely!" cried Olive.

"Eh, my dear? He, a minister!"

Olive drew back, afraid lest she had betrayed too much of the-secret so painfully shared between her and Harold Gwynne. She trembled and blushed beneath the old lady's keen eyes. At last she said, beseechingly,

"Aunt Flora, do not question me--I cannot, ought not, to tell you any more than this--that there may come a time when this money might save him from great misery."

"Misery aye follows sin," said Mrs. Flora, almost sternly, "Am I deceived in him, my dear Harold--poor Alison's son?"

"No, no, no! He is n.o.ble, just, and true. There is no one like him in the whole world," cried Olive; and then stopped, covered with blushes.

But soon the weakness pa.s.sed. "Listen to me, Aunt Flora, for this once.

Harold Gwynne,"--she faltered not over the name,--"Harold Gwynne is, and will be always, my dear friend and brother. I know more of his affairs than any one else; and I know, too, that he may be in great poverty one day. For me, I have only myself to work for, and work I must, since it is the comfort of my life. As to this fortune, I need it not--how should I? I entreat you, leave all to him."

Mrs. Flora wrapped her arms round her niece without speaking--nor did she again refer to the subject.

But the night before Olive left Edinburgh, she bade her farewell with a solemn blessing--the more solemn, as it was given in words taken out of the Holy Book which she had just closed--words never used lightly by the aged Presbyterian.

"The Lord bless thee and keep thee!

The Lord cause His face to shine upon thee!

_The Lord give thee thy heart's desire, and fulfil all thy mind_."

Olive rose with an indescribable sense of hope and peace. As she left the room she looked once more at her aunt.

Mrs. Flora sat in her crimson chair, her hands laid on her knee, her face grave, but serene, and half-lifted, like one who hearkens to some unseen call A secret consciousness struck Olive that in this world she should never more hear the voice, or see the face, of one who had been truly a saint on earth.

It was indeed so.

CHAPTER XLI.