My Soul To Take Part 6

"Kaylee?" His voice was thick with concern, but I couldn't look away from the green-and-white crowd. Couldn't concentrate on him while panic thundered through my head and guilt clawed at my heart. Someone was going to die. I could feel it, but I couldn't tell who yet. The jackets blended into one another, like a herd of Technicolor zebras, individuals hiding among the mingling mult.i.tude.

But social camouflage wouldn't work. Death would find the one it wanted, and I couldn't warn the victim if I couldn't find him. Or her.

And it was a her. I could feel that much.

"She's doing it again."

I heard Emma as if she were speaking from far away, though I knew dimly that she'd moved to sit next to me. I couldn't look at her. I had eyes only for the crowd hiding the soon-to-be-dead girl. I needed to see who she was. I had to see....

Then the crowd parted and the applause began. Music played; someone had brought out a small stereo. Girls were tossing their jackets onto a pile on the ground. They lined up in the gra.s.s, forming a zigzag formation I recognized from the compet.i.tions my aunt and uncle had dragged me to. The dance team was doing a demonstration. Showing off the routine that had captured the regional trophy.

And then I saw her. Second from the left, three down from Sophie. A tall, slender girl with honey-brown hair and heavily lashed eyes.

Meredith Cole. The team captain. Shrouded in a shadow so thick I could barely make out her features.

As soon as my eyes found her, my throat began to burn, like I'd inhaled bleach fumes. Devastation drenched me, threatening to pull me beneath the surface of despair. And that familiar dark knowledge left me shivering where I sat. Meredith Cole would die very, very soon.

"Kaylee, come on." Nash stood, tugging on my arm, trying to pull me up. "Let's go."

My throat tightened, and my breaths grew short. My head swam with the bitter chaos building inside me, and my heart felt swollen and heavy with grief. But I couldn't go. I had to tell her. I'd let Heidi die, but I could save Meredith. I could warn her, and everything would be okay.

My mouth fell open, but the words didn't come. Instead, a scream clawed at my throat, announcing its arrival with the usual burst of panic, and this time there was nothing I could do to stop it. I couldn't speak; I could only scream. But that wouldn't be enough. I needed words to warn Meredith, not in-articulate shrieking. What good was my "gift" if I couldn't use it? If all I could do was scream uselessly?

The keening began deep in my throat, so low it felt like my lungs were on fire. Yet the sound was soft at first. Like a whisper I felt more than heard. I clamped my jaws shut in horror as Nash's eyes widened, his irises seeming to churn again in the bright sunlight.

My vision darkened and went dull, as if that same foggy gray filter had been draped over the entire world. The day was dimmer now, the shadows thicker, the air hazy. My own hands looked fuzzy, as if I couldn't quite bring them into focus. Tables, students, and the school building itself were suddenly leached of their vibrancy, like someone had opened a drain at the base of a rainbow and let all the color out.

I stood and clamped a hand over my mouth, begging an oddly faded-looking Nash with my eyes for help. The keening sound rolled up my throat now and stuck there, like a growl, offering no release.

Nash wrapped one arm around my waist and nodded for Emma to take my other side. "Calm down, Kaylee," he whispered into my ear, his breath warm against my neck, stirring the fine hairs there. "Just relax and listen to-"

My legs collapsed, even as my gaze was drawn back to Meredith, now dancing between Sophie and a pet.i.te blonde I knew only by sight.

Nash scooped me into his arms and held me tight to his chest, still whispering something in my ear. Something familiar. Something that rhymed. His words fell on me with an almost physical presence, soothing me everywhere they touched me, like a balm I could hear.

Yet still the scream raged inside me, demanding a way out, and apparently willing to forge an exit itself, if I offered no alternative.

Emma walked ahead of us to the end of the English hall and around the corner, out of sight of the quad. No one else noticed; they were all watching the dance squad.

Nash put me down against the short wall at the end of the building, next to a door that only worked as an exit. He sat beside me again, and this time he wrapped his arms around me while Emma knelt next to us. Nash was warm at my back, and the only sounds I could hear were his whispers and my own soft keening, persisting in spite of my struggle to suppress it.

I stared over his shoulder and past Emma's concerned face, at the weirdly gray field house in the distance, concentrating on my efforts to speak without screaming. Something rushed across the left edge of my vision, and my gaze homed in on it automatically, trying to bring it into focus. But it moved too fast, leaving me with only a vague impression of a human silhouette, out of proportion in no way I could explain with so short a glimpse. The figure was misshapen, somehow. Odd-looking. And when I blinked, I could no longer be sure of where I'd seen it.

A teacher, probably, rendered unrecognizable by the weird gray fog that had overlaid my vision. I squeezed my eyes shut to avoid any future distractions.

Then, as swiftly as it had struck, the panic faded. Tension drained from my body like air from a beach ball, leaving me limp with relief and fatigue. I opened my eyes to see that color and clarity had returned to the world. My hands relaxed, and the scream died in my throat. But an instant later it tore through the air, and it actually took me a second to realize that the shriek hadn't come from me.

It had come from the quad.

I knew what had happened without even looking. Meredith had collapsed. My urge to scream died the moment she did.

Again, I'd known someone was going to die. And again, I'd let it happen.

My eyes closed as a fresh wave of shock and grief rolled over me, followed immediately by guilt so heavy I could hardly lift my head. My fault. I should have been able to save her.

More shouts came from the quad, and someone yelled for someone else to call an ambulance. Doors squealed open, then crashed into the side of the brick building. Sneakers pounded on concrete steps.

Tears of shame and frustration poured down my face. I buried my head in Nash's shoulder, heedless as my tears soaked into his shirt. I might as well have killed her myself, for all the good my warning had done.

Around the corner, the buzz of chaos rose, each terrified voice blending into the next. Someone was crying. Someone else was running. And above it all, Mrs. Tucker, the girls' softball coach, blew her whistle, trying ineffectively to calm everyone down.

"Who is it?" Emma asked, still kneeling beside us, eyes wide in shock and understanding as she brushed back a strand of my hair so she could see my face.

"Meredith Cole," I whispered, wiping tears on my sleeve.

Nash squeezed me tighter, wrapping his arms around mine, where they clutched at my stomach.

Emma stood slowly, her expression a mixture of disbelief and dread. She backed away from us, legs wobbling. Then she turned carefully and peeked around the corner. "I can't see anything. There're too many people."

"Doesn't matter," I said, mildly surprised by the dazed quality of my own voice. "She's already dead."

"How do you know?" Her hand gripped the corner of the building, nails digging into the rough mortar outlining the brown bricks. "Are you sure it's Meredith?"

"Yes." I sighed, then rose and pulled Nash up, wiping more tears from my cheeks. He stood to my left, Emma to my right. Together, we turned the corner and entered the chaos.

CHAPTER 6.

Emma was right-there were people everywhere. Several cla.s.sroom doors had opened into the quad, and students were pouring out in spite of protests from their teachers. And since there were still ten minutes left in second lunch, the cafeteria was now emptying its usual crowd onto the gra.s.s too.

I saw at least twenty students on cell phones, and the s.n.a.t.c.hes of conversation I caught sounded like 911 calls, though most of the callers didn't actually know what had happened, or who was involved. They only knew someone was hurt, and there had been no gunfire.

Coach Tucker loomed on the edge of the green-and-white central throng, her sneakers spread wide for balance, pulling kids out of the way one at a time even as she shouted into a clunky, school-issue, handheld radio. Finally the crowd parted for her, revealing a motionless female form lying on the brown gra.s.s, one arm thrown out at her side. I couldn't see her face because one of the football players-number fourteen-was performing CPR.

But I knew it was Meredith Cole. And I could have told number fourteen that his efforts were wasted; he couldn't help her.

Coach Tucker pulled the football player away from the dead girl and dropped to her knees beside the body, shouting for everyone to move back. To go back into the building. Then she bent with her face close to Meredith's to see if she was breathing. A moment later, Coach Tucker tilted the dancer's head back and resumed CPR where number fourteen had left off.

Seconds later, the dance team's faculty sponsor-Mrs. Foley, one of the algebra teachers-raced across the quad from an open cla.s.sroom, stunned speechless for several seconds by the chaos. After a quick word with a couple of students, she gathered her remaining dancers into a teary huddle several feet from Meredith and the softball coach. The other students stared at them all in astonishment, some crying, some whispering and others standing in silent shock.

As we watched from the fringes of the mayhem, three more adults jogged down the cafeteria steps: the princ.i.p.al, who looked too prim in her narrow skirt and heels to even make a dent in the pandemonium; her a.s.sistant, a small balding man who clutched a clipboard to his narrow chest like a life raft; and Coach Rundell, the head football coach.

The princ.i.p.al stood on her toes and whispered something into Coach Rundell's ear, and he nodded curtly. Coach wore a whistle and carried a megaphone.

He needed neither, but he used them both.

The shriek of the whistle pierced my eardrums like a railroad spike, and everyone around us froze. Coach Rundell lifted the megaphone to his mouth and began issuing orders with a speed and clarity that would have made any drill sergeant proud.

"We are now on lockdown! If you do not have second lunch, return to your cla.s.sroom. If you do have second lunch, take a seat in the cafeteria."

At some signal from the princ.i.p.al, her a.s.sistant scuttled off to make the necessary lockdown announcements and arrangements. Teachers started herding their students inside in earnest now, and one by one, the doors closed and a tense quiet descended on the quad. Mrs. Foley, looking overwhelmed and on the verge of tears herself, gathered her sobbing dancers and led them into the building through a side entrance. The princ.i.p.al began ushering the lunch crowd back into the cafeteria, and when her a.s.sistant showed up again, he helped.

Nash, Emma and I fell into the stream of students right behind the huddle of green-and-white football jackets, and as we pa.s.sed the last picnic table, I looked to the right, where Coach Rundell had now taken over CPR from Coach Tucker. Even sick with guilt and numb with shock, I had to see for myself. Had to prove to my head what my heart knew all along.

And there Meredith lay, long brown hair fanned out across the dead gra.s.s, her face visible only when the coach sat up for a round of chest compressions.

My eyes watered and I sniffed back more tears, and Nash stepped up on my right, blocking my view as we climbed the broad concrete steps into the building. Inside, the lights were all off because of the lockdown. But the cafeteria windows-a virtual wall of gla.s.s-had no shades and were too big to cover, so daylight streamed in, casting deep shadows and lighting the long room in a washed-out palette of colors, in contrast to the bright light usually cast from the fluorescent fixtures overhead.

At the far end of the room, the jocks had gathered in a silent, solemn huddle around one of the round tables. Several sat with their elbows propped on wide-set knees, heads either hanging or cradled in both hands. Number fourteen-who'd tried valiantly to save Meredith-held his girlfriend on his lap, her face streaked with tears and mascara, his arm around her waist, his chin resting on her shoulder.

Other students sat grouped around the rest of the tables. A few whispered questions no one had answers for, a few more cried softly, and everyone looked stunned to the point of incomprehension. There had been no warning, no violence, and no obvious cause. This lockdown didn't fit with the drills we practiced twice a semester, and everyone knew it.

The tables were all occupied, and several small groups of students sat on the floor against the long wall, holding backpacks, purses, and short stacks of textbooks. Emma looked shaken and pale as we made our way toward an empty corner, and I could feel my legs wobbling, left almost totally numb by the accuracy of my second prediction in three days. Only Nash seemed relatively steady, his bruising grip on my hand the sole indication that he might not be as calm as he looked.

We sat in a row on the floor, Em on my left, Nash still clutching my right hand, each too stunned to speak. My thoughts were chaotic, a never-ending furor of guilt, shock, and utter incredulity. A private cacophony in absolute contrast to the hushed, somber room around me. And I couldn't make it stop. Could not slow the torrent long enough to wallow in any single emotion, or puzzle out any one question.

I could only sit, and stare, and wait.

Minutes later, sirens blared to life down the street, warbling softly at first, but growing in volume with each pa.s.sing second. The ambulance came to an earsplitting halt at the front of the school, but by the time it rolled carefully around the building and past the cafeteria windows, the electronic screeching had gone silent, though it still echoed in my head, a fitting sound track to the mayhem within.

The ambulance stopped out of sight of the windows, but its lights flashed an angry red against the dull brown brick, declaring an optimistic urgency I knew to be unnecessary.

Meredith Cole was dead, and no matter how long they worked on her, she wasn't coming back. That bitter certainty ate at me, consuming me from the inside out until I felt hollow enough to echo with each aching thump of my heart.

While the medics worked outside, teachers came and went from the cafeteria, occasionally answering questions from anyone brave enough to speak up, and at some point, the senior guidance counselor pulled up a chair at the jocks' table and began speaking softly to those who'd been close enough to actually see Meredith fall.

Eventually, the vice princ.i.p.al came over the intercom and declared that the school day had been officially suspended, and that we would all be dismissed individually, once our legal guardians had been contacted. By that time, the red lights had stopped flashing, and though no one had yet made the announcement, it echoed around us like all-important truths, unvoiced, and unwanted, and unavoidable.

After that, the first group of students was called to the office and Emma leaned against me while I leaned against Nash, letting his scent and his warmth soothe me as I settled in for the wait. But minutes later, Coach Tucker stopped in the cafeteria doorway and scanned the faces until her gaze landed on me. I sat up as she navigated the maze of tables, heading right for us, and stood when she reached out a hand to pull me up, barely sparing a glance for Nash and Emma when they rose. "The dancers are understandably upset, and we're calling their parents first. Sophie's not taking it well. Her sponsor spoke to your mother, and they'd like you to go ahead and take your sister home."

I sighed, grateful when Nash's hand slid into mine again. "She's my cousin."

Coach Tucker frowned, as if details like that shouldn't matter under the circ.u.mstances. She was right, but I couldn't bring myself to apologize.

"Don't worry about your books." She eyed me sternly now. "Just get her home."

I nodded, and the coach headed back through the cafeteria, motioning for me to follow. "I'll talk to you guys later," I said, glancing from Emma to Nash as I squeezed his hand. She smiled weakly, and he nodded, digging his phone from his pocket.

I'd just stepped into the hall, heading toward the office, when my own phone buzzed. A glance at the screen showed a blinking text message icon. It was from Nash.

Don't tell anyone. Will explain soon.

A moment later, a follow-up message arrived. It was one word: Please.

I didn't reply, because I didn't know what to say. No one would believe me if I tried to explain what had happened. But the premonitions were real, and they were accurate. Silence no longer seemed like an option, especially if there was any chance I could stop the next one from coming true.

If I could at least give the next victim a warning-and maybe a fighting chance-wasn't I morally obligated to do just that?

Besides, hadn't Nash suggested I tell my aunt and uncle the day before?

"Kaitlin! Over here." I glanced up to find Mrs. Foley waving me forward from the atrium outside the front office. Sophie sat on the floor behind her, beneath the foliage of a huge potted plant, surrounded by half a dozen other red, mascara-smeared faces.

"It's Kaylee," I muttered, coming to a stop in front of the stunned dancers.

"Of course." But the sponsor didn't look like she cared what my name was. "I've spoken to your mother-" but I didn't bother to tell her that would be impossible without a Ouija board "-and she wants you to take Sophie straight home. She's going to meet you there."

I nodded, and ignored the sympathetic hand the dance-team sponsor placed momentarily on my shoulder, as if to thank me for sharing some venerable burden. "You ready?" I asked in my cousin's general direction, and to my surprise, she bobbed her head in a.s.sent, stood with her purse in hand, and followed me across the quad without betraying a single syllable of malicious intent.

She must have been in shock.

In the parking lot, I unlocked the pa.s.senger's side door, then went around to let myself in. Sophie slid into her seat and pulled the door closed, then turned to face me slowly, her normally arrogant expression giving way to what could only be described as abject grief.

"Did you see it?" she asked, full lower lip quivering, and for once absent of lip gloss. She must have wiped it all off, along with the tears and most of her makeup. She looked almost...normal. And I couldn't help the pang of sympathy her misery drew from me, in spite of the b.i.t.c.h-itude she radiated every other day of my life. For now, she was just scared, confused, and hurting, looking for a compa.s.sionate ear.

Just like me.

And it kind of stung that I couldn't totally let my guard down with her, because I had no doubt that once her grief had pa.s.sed, Sophie would go all Mean Girls on me again, and use against me whatever I'd shown her. "See what?" I sighed, adjusting the rearview mirror so I could watch her indirectly.

My cousin rolled her eyes, and for a moment her usual intolerance peeked through the fresh layer of raw sorrow. "Meredith. Did you see what happened?"

I turned the key in the ignition, and my little Sunfire hummed to life, the steering wheel vibrating beneath my hands. "No." I felt no great loss over having missed the show; the preview was quite enough to deal with.

"It was horrible." She stared straight out the windshield as I buckled my seat belt and pulled the car from the parking lot, but she obviously saw nothing. "We were dancing, just showing off for Scott and the guys. We'd made it through all the hard parts, including that step where Laura usually skips a beat in practice...."

I had no idea what step she was talking about, but I let her ramble on, because it seemed to make her feel better without putting me on the figurative chopping block.

"...and were nearly done. Then Meredith just...collapsed. She crumpled up like a doll and fell flat on the ground."

My hands clenched the steering wheel, and I had to force them loose to flick on my blinker. I turned right at the stop-light, exhaling only once the school-and thus the source of my latest premonition-was out of sight. And still Sophie prattled on, airing her grief in the name of therapy, completely oblivious to my discomfort.

"I thought she'd pa.s.sed out. She doesn't eat enough to keep a hamster alive, you know."

I hadn't known, of course. I didn't typically concern myself with the eating habits of the varsity dance squad. But if Meredith's appet.i.te was anything like my cousin's-or my aunt's, for that matter-Sophie's a.s.sumption was perfectly plausible.

"But then we realized she wasn't moving. She wasn't even breathing." Sophie paused for a moment, and I treasured the silence like that first gulp of air after a deep dive. I didn't want to hear any more about the death I'd been unable to prevent. I felt guilty enough already. But she wasn't done. "Peyton thinks she had a heart attack. Mrs. Rushing told us in health last year that if you work your body too hard and don't fuel it up right, your heart will eventually stop working. Just like that." She snapped her fingers, and the glitter in her nail polish flashed in the bright sunlight. "Do you think that's what happened?"

It took me a moment to realize her question wasn't rhetorical. She was actually asking my opinion about something, and there was no sarcasm involved.

"I don't know." I glanced in the rearview mirror as I turned onto our street, and wasn't surprised to see Aunt Val's car on the road behind us. "Maybe." But that was an outright lie. Meredith Cole was the third teenage girl to drop dead with no warning in the past three days, and while I wasn't about to voice my suspicions out loud-at least not yet-I could no longer tell myself the deaths weren't connected.

Nash's coincidence theory had hit an iceberg and was sinking fast.