Marry! My Black Horse Chapter 45

His kiss like a burning heat, it let her cold foot and hands gradually warmed. His kiss was very tender and gentle, it was like a feather on his lips. This time he was like he was kissing a treasure, a porcelain, he was very careful and cautious.

After not long time, he released her. His big palm patted her head, and as deep as before he said: "You don't allow to think about it anymore."

"Fei Jun." Guan Xin Mu's eyes were teary. She didn't expect her words that she said without throughly consideration and her rash actions, unexpectedly would let him immediately pushed out his work pressure, and rushed directly here. It was a lie if she said she didn't feel moved. Looking at his dark eyes, smelt his sole faint scent of peppermint, in a flash, she felt soft. All her worries, mood, fears, and grievance were gone.

"Em?"

"I am not able to not think about it, I don't have confidence, do you understand? I don't know what should I do. Perhaps this lifetime I couldn't have a get a blessing from your mother. I couldn't help you with anything. I am really too ordinary. I never had a high hope and target, I also never have ideal and goals. My cooking skills are terrible, I often messed up room, I even couldn't give you a kid!" Guan Xin Mu said it while frowning, "Do you really certain that I am suitable for you? If we be together, will you not get tired? To speak realistically, what can I give to you?"

Almost everyone could have a moment when their mood is on the lowest point, even to the extent they will felt they were in a plight without any way out, their confidence and perseverance was turned zero that they started to question themselves. Guan Xin mU also not be an exception, this moment she looked at Fei Jun. She was a bit wanted to expose out her thinking out completely to him, "Even if I am that kind of person, I couldn't change it, do you still want me?"

"What can you do for me?" Fei Jun held her hands, and looked at her earnestly, said slowly: "If I tell you that you can do and bring a lot for me, do you believe it? If I say after having you on my side, I get a sense of security and satisfaction, do you think it is an important thing?"

Guan Xin Mu looked at Fei Jun blankly.

"Feeling is not about business transaction, there are some other important things although it is unable to directly to be hold on our hands and let others to see and understand it clearly, yet just we could sense it. We are living our own life for our sake, don't we? What's the point of other's opinion? We are the only one know and we should have confidence in it." Fei Jun said it firmly.

"You said you are unable to help me with anything?" He continued, "I could tell you. You can, as long as you stay at home obediently to wait for me, I have the confidence to face the problems outside."

….. Guan Xin Mu felt her heart was beating erratically, Fei Jun's every words were really clear, his voice was firm and deep, it immediately penetrated to the bottom of her heart.

"I don't need you to do any house ch.o.r.es, don't need you to cook a delicious food. Those are not really important."

"Then what is the most important?" She asked.

"You stay by my side, that is the most important."

…… the warm feeling came pouring in her heart, she was unable to ask again: "Are you certain, you want to be with me forever?"

"I'm certain."

"Even if I will change to be very bad?"

"With me, you will not change in the bad way." Fei Jun said with one hundred percents confidence level.

"Even if you mama cannot accept me?"

"Whether she accepts you or not, what is the relation with our business?"

Guan Xin Mu's heart was melting like an melting ice cream. She asked: "Even if she is your mama?"

"We are we, the others are the third-party." Fei Jun raised his eyebrows: "Do you understand it?"

"Fei Jun, are you falling for me?"

…..

Fei Jun paused, his expression was undulated. He looked so tired even there was a faint beard on his chin. Because of his obsession with cleanliness and life habit, he never appeared this way. He was tired because of the lack of sleep for handling the Fei Company's responsibilities. Yet even no matter how tired he was, he still rushed here. Hearing her question, he said faintly: "Regarding this matter, what answer are you hoping?"

"What answer could you give to me Fei Jun? Now it is me asking the question, how could you answer my question with another question?" Guan Xin Mu's breath a little bit urgent, reminded him to answer this question, and couldn't avoid it.

Fei Jun hugged Guan Xin Mu, placed her head on his chest, and said gently: "You asked him by yourself."

Fei Jun didn't wear a thick clothes, yet Guan Xin Mu could hear his powerful heartbeat. She never knew that Fei Jun is emotionally affected toward her. His heartbeat was like a tide, attacking ceaselessly. She really wanted to stayed on his chest, forever; hearing his heartbeat, forever, not separated. She wanted to cling to him, possess him, monopolize him. She wants him, she never felt these intense and vigorous feeling.

When she married him, she just had faint of like and involuntary trust, but now she already understand that he already became a part of life that couldn't be replaced. So actually what she feared is not Chen Wan, also not her ruthless incisive speaking style, but she fears to be separated with him,

"Fei Jun." Guan Xin Mu's both hands hugged his waist, "I don't have any desire to leave you. Before on the phone, I really didn't know how could I say something like that, it isn't true. I don't know why I've become very sensitive, very unreasonable. My feeling was tensed. I said those false words. The reality is I want to be together with you forever."

He tightened his embrace, and said: "I know what you said before is false. But this false words, later on you should not say it again. You just need to remember. We will be together forever, never separated."

Guan Xin Mu nodded, she snuggled up inside his embrace. Her strained mental state was throughly loosen, and changed into some exhaustion. If she was not in the airport, she would just sleep in his embrace.

"Moreover, you need to know that you able give me a lot that I've never have before, as well as what I always wanted. You don't need to be feel any pressure because you are the one that I really need, you are the most suitable for me, and one that I really like." He said, and his long finger caressed her ears, and ma.s.sage it, "do you hear it?"

Guan Xin Mu nodded, suddenly she remembered something, she raised her head up from his wide chest, with glowing eyes, she said: "Fei Jun, you love me right."

"I…."

He hadn't said the second words, Pei Jin's voice was heard behind her. Her voice was somewhat hurried: "Xin Mu, you are here! What happened to your phone, suddenly hung up. Let me look for you for a long time!" She came toward her, released a breath. When she saw Guan Xin Mu was with a tall man hugged together, she just realized it should be her husband.

Guan Xin Mu immediately struggled free of Fei Jun's embrace, she smiled and greeted Pei Jin. She introduced Fei Jun to Pei Jin, Pei Jin immediately complimented Fei Jun. Fei Jun smiled lightly, and said thank you. Guan Xin Mu inclined her head to see him, he already returned to his normal self which his eyes were full of coldness and disaffection, and somewhat arrogant.

Pei Jin gave the form to Guan Xin Mu, instructed her to study it carefully, and focused on the detail in training. Guan Xin Mu nodded.

After forty minutes, the flight was back to normal. Before she got in to the airport lounge again. She stood in her tiptoe and kissed Fei Jun's face. Fei Jun's face looked serious, he used his hand to pinch her face, and seriously said: "Wait until you go home, I will give you a throughly deep teaching, to warn you to not saying those words, even thinking of it you wouldn't dare."

"Throughly, deep teaching?" Guan Xin Mu's face was blushing, in a flash she didn't want to go to that training anymore.

On the plan, Guan Xin Mu used the eye-patch and wrapped her body with blanket. She wanted to get some sleep from these past few days depressed mood.

The training went smoothly, they gave a leisure time. Guan Xin Mu strolled around business and went inside a shopping center. She bought a wool shawl for her mother and sister, and bought a grey necktie and cufflink for him. Before she bought it, she took a photo of it and sent it to Fei Jun, asked whether he like it or not, he replied: "It's not too bad."

Saying "not too bad" meant he was pleased with it, she understands it very well, so she let the shop a.s.sistant to wrap it up.

The fourth day, when Guan Xin Mu's mood was getting better, yet Chen Wan's mood fell into the lowest point. Fei Jun found some time to visit her one time, he clearly stated his thinking to her that he will never separated with Guan Xin Mu. His only woman in his life will only be her, no matter Chen Wan accepted her or not.

"I know you don't like her, she is also unable to attain your requirement." Fei Jun smiled lightly, and used his hand to ma.s.sage his temple, "I will not force you to accept her, yet don't you also force me to follow your request to divorce and remarry again."

"Jun Jun." Chen Wan frowned, "What Ma's doing is all for you, the love between man and woman is a temporarily thing, life is a long time. You need a wife that could a.s.sist your business, follow precisely to your steps, and shared the burden with you. Ma already gave time and chance but reality proved that she can't do it. She didn't match at all for you."

"If I want to look for what-so-called matched woman for me. Af first, I will not choose her. Ma, you should understand me, I will not do any reckless decision. When I made one decision, I certainly would do a deep thinking and consideration." Fei Jun intertwined his fingers, and leaned back his back on the sofa, with sincerity, he looked at Chen Wan: "There's no one could change my choice, so don't you waste your thoughts. This life time I will only get married once, and my wife is her. Whether you accept or not, our both life will not change."

"Jun Jun, how could say something like this to me?" Chen Wan's eyes were red, "What do you want to do now? For your wife, you want to break our relation?"

"You are my mother, a forever will be, this will not be changed." Fei Jun said seriously, "I will be happy if you could accept her, she also will be happy. We will showed our filial respect and honor you. But if you don't accept her, we will also will not force you. You will not meet her again. My point is this."

"You mean you want to close the door and just live the world of two of you?" Chen Wan was in intense heartache, she laughed coldly: "For you, you can give up everything?"

"She and what I desire is not contradicting." Fei Jun said: "Ma, do you know what do I truly want?"

Chen Wan was speechless. Since little age, Fei Jun always taught by her to a word of "must", he must do this, must do that. She never asked what he wanted. He is outstanding, intelligent, every his steps are reaching her standard, down to the extend she never asked and chatted with him what his favorite, and desire.

"Fei Company, for me very important, but it is not the most important." Fei Jun lowered his head, and said calmly: "Losing Fei company, I will feel that I'm failing, will be feel unlucky. But if I lose her, I will feel broken-hearted, do you understand?"

Chen Wan was quiet, she just looked at him blankly. In a flash, she thought she really didn't understand him.

"If I have a kid, I will respect his choice. I will not let him follow my life pattern. I will not place my hope and standards on his back because he is an individual, he has an equal rank as me and not a thing that I need to master and control." Fei Jun said, "Ma, there is something that you always wrong. I already a grown-up man, whether you want to admit or not, I have my own life, I need to be responsible to my life, I don't need anyone to bear that responsibilities for me."

…….

"There is something that you really longing, always looks it as the most important, but for me, perhaps it is worthless."