Lincoln Part 7

Acknowledging "his share of the responsibility devolving upon us in the present crisis," Lincoln looked for alternative ways to finance the building of roads and ca.n.a.ls. For a time he placed much hope in a plan, similar to one he had advanced earlier, for Illinois to purchase from the federal government all publicly owned lands in the state for $5 million. Profits from the sale of these lands to actual settlers would more than pay the cost of internal improvements, he argued. The legislature agreed to make the offer to Washington, but nothing came of it. Reluctantly he turned to taxation and favored a graduated levy on land, which had hitherto been taxed at a flat rate. Believing the change to be "equitable within itself," he reminded legislators that the increased levy would fall on the "wealthy few," who, "it is still to be remembered,... are not sufficiently numerous to carry the elections." As the economy continued to deteriorate, Lincoln sought to retrieve something "from the general wreck" of the internal improvements scheme by continuing to fund "at least one work calculated to yield something towards defraying its expense," but, as he antic.i.p.ated, his colleagues allowed the internal improvements system to be "put down in a lump."

Lincoln's pertinacity in defending the internal improvements system was equaled only by the vigor of his support for the State Bank of Illinois. Like most Whigs, he preferred a strong national bank. After Andrew Jackson destroyed the power of the Bank of the United States, Lincoln gave his allegiance to the State Bank, and particularly to its central branch in Springfield, which had been created during his first term in the legislature. Again and again, he voted to defeat Democratic proposals for investigating the bank, and in 1839, when the Democratic majority succeeded in authorizing a committee to look into the bank's affairs, Lincoln made sure that he was one of the members. He attended the meetings of the committee with fair regularity, despite the heavy calls on his time for other legislative business, and he saw to it that the long report of the investigation attributed the bank's suspension of specie payments "not... to any organic defects of the inst.i.tutions themselves but to the irresistable law of trade and exchange which cannot be controaled by country banks."

The fate of the bank remained in doubt, as Democrats, opposed to all banks on principle and especially hostile to this Whiggish bank in Springfield, mounted campaign after campaign for its destruction. At times even Lincoln gave up on saving it, lamenting that the legislature was allowing the bank to forfeit its charter and that there was "but verry little disposition to resuscitate it."

Nevertheless, he persisted, and in December 1840 he demonstrated the extent of his devotion to the bank in an episode that became celebrated as what he called "that jumping sc.r.a.pe." The bank had been authorized to continue its suspension of specie payments only until the end of the legislative session, which was scheduled for the first week in December. Knowing that the bank would immediately be bankrupt if forced to pay out specie, Lincoln and his fellow Whigs hoped to prevent the adjournment of the legislature, now holding its first session in the newly completed capitol at Springfield. Of course, Democrats, who wanted to kill the bank, favored adjournment. The only way the Whigs could keep the legislature in session was by absenting themselves, so that there was no quorum. They left Lincoln, together with one or two of his trusted lieutenants, to watch the proceedings and to demand roll calls when the Democrats tried to adjourn. The session dragged on into the evening, and candles had to be brought in. Several Democrats rose from their sickbeds to help form a quorum. Rattled, Lincoln and his aides lost their heads and voted on the next roll call. Then, still hoping to block adjournment, they unsuccessfully tried to get out of the locked door. When the sergeant at arms rebuffed them, they jumped out the first-story window. Their effort was in vain, because the speaker recorded them as present and voting, and, with the quorum a.s.sured, the house adjourned and the bank was killed. The whole affair became the subject of much amus.e.m.e.nt among the Democrats, who ridiculed "Mr. Lincoln and his flying brethren" and noted that his celebrated leap caused him no harm because "his legs reached nearly from the window to the ground!"

Disliking to appear ridiculous, Lincoln allowed his affection for the bank to cool, and when the subject was introduced again the next year, he was noticeably less active in its defense. After one particularly sharp debate with John A. McClernand and other Democrats, who were, he said, trying to "crush the Bank" while he was trying to save "both it and the state," he wearily announced that he was "tired of this business." "If there was to be this continual warfare against the Inst.i.tutions of the State," he went on, "the sooner it was brought to an end the better."

V

In addition to serving as the leader of the Whigs in the state legislature, Lincoln labored indefatigably to organize his party, and he became one of the best-known Whig leaders not merely in Springfield but in central Illinois. In 1838, combining politics with his legal business at all the county courthouses where he practiced, he solicited votes for Stuart, who was running for a seat in the U.S. House of Representatives. Lincoln exhibited special enthusiasm in his partner's behalf because the Democratic opponent was Stephen A. Douglas, whom he had already begun to consider his main political rival. Repeatedly Lincoln urged his friends to be vigilant: "If we do our duty we shall succeed in the congressional election, but if we relax an iota, we shall be beaten." Elected by a plurality of only thirty-six votes, Stuart faced a likely challenge to his credentials from Douglas, but Lincoln, along with other Springfield Whigs, mounted a counteroffensive designed to show that Douglas had received votes from unnaturalized foreigners, minors, and persons who had not resided in the state for the required six months. Shortly afterward Lincoln was able to report to Stuart with some glee that the Democrats would probably drop the challenge, though, he added," You know that if we had heard Dougla.s.s say that he had abandoned the contest, it would not be verry authentic."

Eager for victory, Lincoln readily acquiesced when the Whigs deserted Henry Clay, one of the founders of the party, and nominated William Henry Harrison, the hero of the battle of Tippecanoe, to run against Martin Van Buren in 1840. Thinking "the chance of carrying the state, verry good," he began systematically organizing the Whigs of central Illinois. When a Democratic editor sneeringly referred to Harrison as a simple old man who wanted nothing better than to live in a log cabin and drink hard cider, Whigs capitalized on his blunder. His charge proved their candidate, in contrast to the aristocratic Van Buren, was a man of the people. Lincoln was afraid his party's rollicking populist campaign might not translate into votes. By this time his earlier aversion to nominating conventions and the other machinery of party organization, which he shared with most Whigs, had disappeared. He explained that the Democrats, by recruiting "their double-drilled-army" of supporters, had "set us the example of organization; and we, in self defence, are driven into it." He now drew up a semimilitary plan for getting out the Whig votes. In order to bring about "the overthrow of the corrupt powers that now control our beloved country," he urged the appointment of county, precinct, and section captains to make sure "that every Whig can be brought to the polls in the coming presidential contest."

Lincoln also did his part in bringing the issues before the people. An a.s.siduous reader of the newspapers and a careful student of the Congressional Globe, which published in full the interminable debates in the national legislature, he was thoroughly prepared to defend Whig economic policies. In the almost nightly meetings around the fireplace at the back of Speed's store, where he and other young Springfield politicians argued these questions, he had sharpened his debating skills. His opportunity to use them came when the discussion became heated one night and Douglas, now chairman of the Democratic state committee, challenged his Whig opponents to a full-scale public discussion of the issues in the campaign. Lincoln willingly accepted.

The first round of debate, on November 19, 1839, attracted much attention. Douglas, John Calhoun, the county surveyor who had once employed Lincoln, and two other Democrats opposed four leading Whigs: Edward D. Baker (the attorney who had made a name for himself in his oration at the laying of the cornerstone of the new capitol), Logan, Browning, and Lincoln. Most observers thought the contest a draw, but Lincoln felt he had not come up to the expectations of his friends. "He was conscious of his failure," Joseph Gillespie reported, "and I never saw any man so much distressed." He begged for another chance and challenged the Democrats to a return engagement in December. By the time Lincoln had his turn, on the day after Christmas, attendance was so embarra.s.singly small as to cast a damp upon his spirits. Nevertheless, he proceeded to deliver a carefully written address that, Gillespie recalled, "transcended our highest expectations."

His basic theme was the merits of a national bank as contrasted to the Independent Treasury system of federal depositories, independent both of state banks and private business, which the Democrats favored. Inevitably it contained a certain amount of rodomontade, such as a jeer at Douglas's "stupid" belief that his "groundless and audacious a.s.sertions" could go unchallenged, and a sneer that hundreds of Democratic officeholders were "scampering away with the public money to Texas, to Europe, and to every spot of the earth where a villain may hope to find refuge from justice." But for the most part it was a sober, reasoned defense of the economic stability provided by a national bank and a prediction of the adverse effects of the Democrats' subtreasury plan. Lincoln took pains to keep his arguments down to earth. Not content with generalizing that the Independent Treasury would bring about "distress, ruin, bankruptcy and beggary," he brought the issue home by showing that if it was established the man who "now raises money sufficient to purchase 80 acres, will then raise but sufficient to purchase 40, or perhaps not that much."

This address, published in full in the Sangamo Journal and also as a pamphlet, contained little that was new, but it showed that Lincoln had now mastered the standard Whig arguments on economic issues. It served as his basic text throughout the 1840 presidential campaign. Wherever his law practice took him or wherever he was invited, he made political speeches-at Jacksonville, Carlinville, Alton, Belleville, Tremont, Waterloo, Mount Vernon, Carmi, Shawneetown, and Equality. Sometimes he made solo appearances, but as often he engaged in debates with Democratic leaders, especially Douglas.

In these speeches Lincoln at times indulged in the usual political rhetoric, demagogically attacking Van Buren for supporting the right of free blacks in New York to vote and offering what Whig papers called "a successful vindication of the civil and military reputation of the Hero of Tippecanoe." Remarkably, though, at a time when many Whigs were carefully avoiding all discussion of issues in favor of a mindless log-cabin-and-hard-cider campaign, Lincoln spent most of his time on the stump soberly discussing Whig economic policies.

VI

That course should have come as no surprise to those who had carefully followed Lincoln's career since his arrival in Springfield. As early as January 1838, in an address to the Young Men's Lyceum ent.i.tled "The Perpetuation of Our Political Inst.i.tutions," he had attacked hyperemotionalism in politics, warning that the nation's "proud fabric of freedom" was endangered by the pa.s.sions of the people-"the jealousy, envy, and avarice, incident to our nature."

His central theme was the threat posed by social disorder. His topic was a conventional one for these lyceum meetings, where aspiring young men of the town tested their rhetorical skill and improved their elocution before their peers, but Lincoln developed it in a highly personal way. Like many of his contemporaries, Lincoln was troubled by what he perceived as the rapid rate of change in American life. Ca.n.a.ls and railroads were bringing about a transportation revolution; the population was swiftly spreading across the continent; immigration was beginning to seem a threat to American social cohesion; sectionalism was becoming ever more divisive as the controversy over slavery mounted; the political battles of the Jackson era had destroyed the national political consensus.

Most disturbing of all were the outbreaks of mob violence, which "pervaded the country, from New England to Louisiana." Two particular incidents Lincoln called to the attention of his audience: a vigilante outbreak in Mississippi, which began with the execution of gamblers but continued until "dead men were seen literally dangling from the boughs of trees upon every road side; and in numbers almost sufficient, to rival the native Spanish moss"; and the burning to death in St. Louis of a mulatto man named Mclntosh, accused of murdering a prominent citizen. If "persons and property, are held by no better tenure than the caprice of a mob," "if the laws be continually despised and disregarded," Lincoln warned, citizens' affection for their government must inevitably be alienated.

As a remedy, Lincoln urged what he called a simple solution: "Let every American, every lover of liberty, every well wisher to his posterity, swear by the blood of the Revolution, never to violate in the least particular, the laws of the country; and never to tolerate their violation by others Let reverence for the laws, be breathed by every American mother, to the lisping babe, that prattles on her lap-let it be taught in schools, in seminaries, and in colleges;-let it be written in Primmers, spelling books, and in Almanacs;-let it be preached from the pulpit, proclaimed in legislative halls, and enforced in courts of justice." "In short," he urged, "let it become the political religion of the nation."

This was, for the most part, standard Whig rhetoric, of a piece with Lincoln's speech in the legislature the previous year defending the State Bank against the "lawless and mobocratic spirit... abroad in the land." But at this point in the lyceum lecture, when most listeners must have thought he had nearly finished, Lincoln, in effect, began again, asking why the danger to American political inst.i.tutions was so much greater now than it had been for the past fifty years. In the first half of the lecture he had offered essentially a sociological interpretation of the danger; now he offered a psychological explanation.

In previous generations, he suggested, when the outcome of the American venture in self-government was still in doubt, "all that sought celebrity and fame, and distinction, expected to find them in the success of that experiment." Even now there were "many great and good men" who aspired "to nothing beyond a seat in Congress, a gubernatorial or a presidential chair." But, he added, in a rare moment of self-revelation, "such belong not to the family of the lion, or the tribe of the eagle." Such honors were not enough for "men of ambition and talents." These routine offices would not satisfy "an Alexander, a Caesar, or a Napoleon," from whom the greatest danger to popular government must be expected. "Towering genius disdains a beaten path," Lincoln reminded his audience. "It seeks regions. .h.i.therto unexplored.... It thirsts and burns for distinction; and, if possible, it will have it, whether at the expense of emanc.i.p.ating slaves, or enslaving freemen."

Probably most of Lincoln's listeners thought this nothing more than another rhetorical flourish at the end of a long speech. Few could have realized that he was unconsciously describing himself. His ambition was no secret. As Herndon said, it was "a little engine that knew no rest." But only Speed understood how avid was his thirst for distinction. To this one intimate friend Lincoln confessed his ambition "to link his name with something that would redound to the interest of his fellow man," and in his darker moods he lamented "that he had done nothing to make any human being remember that he had lived."

It was to guard against "men of ambition and talents"-like himself-that Lincoln urged a second, and fundamentally different, way to preserve American political inst.i.tutions. In the first half of his speech he had used conventional conservative rhetoric to favor the slow, organic growth of national feeling. Now he proposed erecting a new "temple of liberty," not resting on emotion and custom but carved "from the solid quarry of sober reason."

That invocation of reason accounted for one otherwise inexplicable omission from his lyceum address: his failure to mention the one instance of mob violence closest to Springfield and most familiar to his listeners. In November 1837 a mob at Alton, Illinois, had killed Elijah P. Lovejoy, editor of the abolitionist paper the Observer. The Maine-born minister, who dedicated his paper to a war on slavery, intemperance, and "popery," had been driven out of Missouri by the proslavery elements and the enraged Catholics of St. Louis, and he renewed his campaign from Alton, twenty-five miles up the Mississippi River, on the Illinois side. Breaking his repeated pledges to edit his paper in the interests of the Presbyterian Church alone, Lovejoy became increasingly strident in his abolitionism. Irate residents of Alton, tied by kinship and trade to the South, twice threw his printing presses into the river. When he and sixty young armed abolitionists from towns nearby vowed to defend a third press, the mob burned the warehouse where the press was stored and shot Lovejoy. This brutal infringement of the freedom of the press sent a shock wave through the North and provoked protest meetings in all the major cities. But when Lincoln spoke out against mob violence, he did not mention Lovejoy or Alton by name and offered only a pa.s.sing condemnation of persons who-among other outrages-"throw printing presses into rivers, [and] shoot editors." Though Lincoln deplored the Alton riot, he also implicitly censured Lovejoy's abolitionist agitation; both resulted from unbridled pa.s.sions, which could lead to the overthrow of popular government.

Lincoln's reservations about abolitionism extended to other humanitarian reform movements. For instance, he never joined the prohibition movement, even though he himself did not use liquor and often spoke at temperance rallies. But he disliked the emotionalism of the prohibitionists, who, he said, addressed drunkards and dramshop-keepers "in thundering tones of anathema and denunciation," blaming them for "all the vice and misery and crime in the land" and condemning them as persons to be "shunned by all the good and virtuous, as moral pestilences." To the outrage of local clergymen and do-gooders, he announced in an 1842 lecture that "if we take habitual drunkards as a cla.s.s, their heads and their hearts will bear an advantageous comparison with those of any other cla.s.s." Consequently he refused to coerce them into temperance, but he enthusiastically backed the Washingtonian Society's program of converting alcoholics by "persuasion, kind, una.s.suming persuasion."

In all such matters what he feared was uncontrolled emotion. Pa.s.sion, he remarked in the conclusion of his lyceum lecture, "will in future be our enemy." In its stead the nation must rely on "reason, cold, calculating, unimpa.s.sioned reason." Only then, he told the Washingtonians, would come the "happy day, when, all appet.i.tes controled, all pa.s.sions subdued,... mind, all conquering mind, shall live and move the monarch of the world. Glorious consummation! Hail fall of Fury! Reign of Reason, all hail!"

VII

The earnestness of Lincoln's efforts to impose rationality on public life reflected his intense internal struggle to bring coherence to his own, still unshaped personality. He was not yet sure who he was or how he wished to be perceived. He liked to a.s.sociate with the "aristocratic" element of Springfield, who gathered around the wealthy and sn.o.bbish Ninian W. Edwardses, but he also wanted, as he said, to be "one of the boys," the young and active workingmen and clerks who time after time supported his election to the state legislature. In his role of courteous gentleman he could write a gallant letter to Mrs. Browning, urging her to accompany her husband to the meeting of the legislature in Springfield, where he promised to "render unto your Honoress due attention and faithful obedience"; but he knew that many in the house of representatives joined Ewing in thinking him a "coa.r.s.e and vulgar fellow." He wanted to be regarded as a generous opponent, unwilling to hurt the feelings of a colleague; yet, with his high temper still not under control, he was capable of flaring up in debate and truculently announcing that if his opponents wanted to settle a dispute "at another tribunal" he "was always ready, and never shrunk from responsibility." He thought of himself as a speaker who advanced strong, logical arguments, yet he learned from the Democratic Illinois State Register that many deplored his habit in his public appearances of putting on "a sort of a.s.sumed clownishness in his manner which does not become him, and which does not truly belong to him."

Even Lincoln's style betrayed his inner uncertainty. In most of his public speeches and legal papers, he kept to simple, pithy statements, notably devoid of ornamentation or rhetorical flourish. But on occasion, as in the lyceum address, he adopted the florid style so common in nineteenth-century oratory. America need have no fear of foreign invasion, he boasted: "All the armies of Europe, Asia and Africa combined, with all the treasure of the earth... in their military chest; with a Buonaparte for a commander, could not by force, take a drink from the Ohio, or make a track on the Blue Ridge, in a trial of a thousand years." Or, in the unlikely context of defending the national bank, he announced: "If ever I feel the soul within me elevate and expand to those dimensions not wholly unworthy of its Almighty Architect, it is when I contemplate the cause of my country, deserted by all the world beside, and I standing up boldly and lone and hurling defiance at her victorious oppressors. Here, without contemplating consequences, before High Heaven, and in the face of the world, I swear eternal fidelity to the just cause ... of the land of my life, my liberty and my love."

Similarly conflicted and contradictory were his att.i.tudes toward women. Lincoln liked women and he wanted to know them. A month after he moved to Springfield in 1837, he lamented, "I have been spoken to by but one woman since I've been here, and should not have been by her, if she could have avoided it." But he was awkward and uncomfortable when he was around them. He did not know how to behave. Sometimes he turned up for evening affairs wearing his rough Conestoga boots, and he once disrupted a party by commenting, "Oh boys, how clean these girls look."

He met eligible young women primarily at the Sunday soirees that Ninian and Elizabeth Edwards held at their luxurious mansion. Edwards was a sn.o.b who found Lincoln "a mighty rough man," but this ambitious son of a former Illinois governor thought the young lawyer might be politically useful. Elizabeth Todd Edwards's ambitions were matrimonial; she seemed always to have as a guest an unmarried friend or relative who was looking for a husband. She had just married off one sister, Frances, to a local physician, William Wallace, and was ready to welcome others from her Kentucky home.

Around the Edwardses gathered the brightest and best of Springfield society. The handsome and soldierly John J. Hardin, a relative of Mrs. Edwards and likely candidate for Congress, attended most of their parties. So did Edward D. Baker, the enormously popular young Whig orator, who might one day have aspired to the presidency but for his British birth. O. H. Browning represented the conservative, better-educated element of the Whig party. Though the Edwardses were staunch Whigs, their soirees were nonpartisan, and they welcomed Stephen A. Douglas, now the leading Democrat in the state, already known as the "Little Giant" because his power belied his size. Democrat James Shields, the handsome Irish-born state auditor, was often a guest.

The Edwards entourage included the most attractive young women in Springfield. From time to time, Ninian Edwards welcomed a relative, such as his niece, the beautiful and pious Matilda Edwards. Julia Jayne, daughter of a Springfield doctor, nearly always attended the Edwards parties, as did Mercy Ann Levering when she was visiting from Baltimore. But n.o.body in the Edwards circle attracted more interest than Mrs. Edwards's younger sister, Mary Todd.

The daughter of Robert S. Todd, a prosperous merchant and banker of Lexington, Kentucky, Mary had grown up in luxury, attended by family slaves and educated in the best private schools. Unable to get along with her stepmother, she decided, after a preliminary jaunt in 1837, to pay her sister an extended visit in 1839. Immediately this small, pretty young woman of twenty-two years, with beautiful fair skin, light chestnut hair, and remarkably vivid blue eyes, enchanted the other members of the group. Even Herndon, who came to hate her, described Mary as "young, dashing, handsome-witty... cultured-graceful and dignified," though he also noted that she could be "sarcastic-haughty-aristocratic." "She was an excellent conversationalist," Herndon continued, "and she soon became the belle of the town, leading the young men of the town a merry dance."

Abraham Lincoln was one of those who danced in attendance-literally so, since he first met Mary Todd at one of the Edwards' parties and told her he wanted to dance with her "in the worst way." And, Mary laughed, he did. Lincoln was enchanted by this vivacious, intelligent young woman, and soon he was one of her regular attendants at parties, on horseback rides, on jaunts to neighboring towns. Mary was entirely different from anyone he had ever known. He did not even feel awkward when talking to her, for she made up for his deficiencies as a conversationalist. Mrs. Edwards recalled that when they were together "Mary led the conversation-Lincoln would listen and gaze on her as if drawn by some superior power, irresistably [sic] so; he listened-never scarcely said a word." Lincoln, she added, "could not hold a lengthy conversation with a lady-was not sufficiently educated and intelligent in the female line to do so. He was charmed with Mary's wit and fascinated with her quick sagacity-her will-her nature-and culture."

In receiving Lincoln's attentions, Mary had to think of him, as she did of the other young men who gathered around her, as a potential husband. Marriage was now very much on her mind. She was just short of becoming an old maid, and, except for schoolteaching, no other career was open to women of her cla.s.s. There were not many eligible bachelors. She very much liked Douglas, with whom she flirted outrageously, to their mutual amus.e.m.e.nt, but both quickly recognized that his mind was on his career and he was not seriously interested in matrimony. She found Speed handsome and charming, but he seemed attracted to the devout Matilda Edwards. The widower Edwin B. Webb, another Springfield attorney, was an earnest suitor, but he suffered from the disadvantages of being considerably older than Mary and of having what she called "two sweet little objections," the children of his first marriage. She was realistic enough to recognize that, despite all the attentions she received, "my beaux have always been hard bargains."

By comparison, Lincoln looked increasingly attractive. He lacked social graces, but his honesty, his courtesy, and his considerateness compensated for the deficiency. They shared many interests. Both were Kentuckians. Both loved poetry and had memorized many of the same poems, especially those by Robert Burns. Like him, she was a Whig. At a time when women were not supposed to profess an interest in politics, she openly supported Harrison for President in 1840, though, like Lincoln, she would have preferred Henry Clay, a friend of her family and a neighbor in Lexington. She was pleased by Lincoln's ambition; in Kentucky she had often said jokingly that she intended to marry a man who would some day become President of the United States.

By the fall of 1840 she and Lincoln were edging toward a closer relationship, and that prospect may have contributed to his sometimes boisterous conduct toward his fellow legislators and even to his much publicized leap from the statehouse window. The Edwardses favored the match. Ninian Edwards said he desired it "for policy." He did not explain his meaning, but doubtless he had in mind linking to his already influential family a promising young lawyer and politician. Mrs. Edwards also encouraged it, recognizing that Lincoln was "a rising man." Sometime around Christmas, Abraham and Mary became engaged.

Once Lincoln had made a commitment, he began to have second thoughts-much as he had done in his engagement to Mary Owens. It was as if he was reluctant to marry anyone who was willing to accept him. He began to suspect that the Edwardses had planned the match and had maneuvered him into proposing. Belatedly, though with some reason, he worried about his ability to support a wife. He had now an income of more than $1,000 a year from his legal practice, plus his salary as a state legislator, but neither source was certain. His law partnership was about to be dissolved. Stuart, who had been in Washington for most of the past two years, had contributed little to the practice, and, now that his reelection to a second term in the House of Representatives was virtually conceded, it made no sense to continue his empty partnership with Lincoln. Lincoln was not even a.s.sured of his income from the state legislature. With the collapse of the internal improvements system and the resulting bankruptcy of the state, he and his a.s.sociates had come under increasingly bitter, and sometimes personal, attack. His political popularity was declining; in the 1840 election he was no longer the candidate who received the most votes, and in the rural precincts there was a movement to reject him and the other members of what was termed "the Springfield junto." He resolved not to stand for reelection when his present term in the legislature expired. Thus in 1840 he was a man without reliable income, who had no savings and owned no house but probably still owed something on his "National Debt" from his New Salem days. He knew he could not give Mary the life of wealth and luxury to which she was accustomed.

These anxieties covered his deeper uncertainties about marriage. Like Speed, with whom he shared his most intimate thoughts, he was probably still s.e.xually inexperienced. Both young men had grown up in a rough frontier society where, except in family arrangements, men and women kept largely to themselves and where, in all-male gatherings, there was much big talk and rough humor about s.e.x-and usually much less experience. Both young men had highly romantic notions about women and marriage; as Lincoln wrote his friend later, "It is the peculiar misfortune of both you and me, to dream dreams of Elysium far exceeding all that any thing earthly can realize." At the same time, they shared "forebodings" about marriage, which evoked fears of "something indescribably horrible and alarming." Probably they were anxious about their own, as yet untested, s.e.xual adequacy; in addition, they must have worried about how to go about transforming the adored object of chaste pa.s.sion into a bed partner. Both Lincoln and Speed rationalized their fears as apprehension that they did not love their fiancees as they should.

In Lincoln's case all these anxieties were heightened by Speed's decision to sell his interest in his store on January 1, in preparation for a return to Kentucky in the spring. Lincoln had to move out of the upstairs room they shared and find lodgings with William Butler. A very private person, Lincoln was about to lose his best and closest friend, at just the moment when he was being rushed into a new, potentially very dangerous kind of intimacy with Mary. The man who wanted to live in a universe governed by cold reason found himself awash on a sea of turbulent emotions.

His nerve snapped. He decided he had to break the engagement, and he wrote Mary a letter saying that he did not love her. Speed tried to persuade him to burn it. "If you think you have will and manhood enough to go and see her and speak to her what you say in that letter," he told him, "you may do that. Words are forgotten ... but once put your words in writing and they stand as a living and eternal monument against you."

Reluctantly Lincoln accepted his friend's advice and went to the Edwards mansion. When he told Mary he did not love her, she burst into tears. At first she blamed herself; remembering a young man in Kentucky whose attentions she had deliberately encouraged only to spurn him, she exclaimed, "The deciever shall be decieved wo is me." Deeply moved, Lincoln "drew her down on his knee kissed her-and parted."