Bloody Memories 34 Trying To Understand

Tristan and I were outside. He is watering the flowers that grew in front of the house. I have never seen those kinds of flower before. It's as if they never existed in this world. He told me that it was him who planted those and it is because I've liked them before. He was probably talking about Victoria. Hence, I know that I'm not Victoria. I will never be her.

"You seem too occupied." Said the man who put down the sprinkle at the table which was beside me.

"I'm just trying to mesmerize the view." I simply said. He snickered a laugh.

"What? Did I say something wrong?" I asked. He smiled in return.

"I'm just not yet used upon seeing you once again." He said.

"I told you. I'm not her!" I said getting irritated and stood up from the chair.

I immediately went inside the house even though I can still hear him saying things. I didn't bother to listen. The only thing that's on my mind right now is to get out of this place. I want to see him. I went inside my room and changed my clothes.

"Where are you going?" That man suddenly appeared right in front of me.

"You know where." I stated and walked away.

"You can't go there." He said.

"Why can't I?" I asked getting p.i.s.sed. It's been days and yet he still doesn't want me to get out of this wretched place!

"You'll be in danger." He only said.

"I was already in danger." I simply answered and finally went out of the house and head on to the pick up truck.

Tristan doesn't drive it. It's just here outside that's why it's all rusted. I hope that this still run. I started the engine and thank goodness it still works. Although the roaring sound of the car exhaust makes my ears hurt.

I took a glimpse at the house once more and Tristan was just standing at the door way. Staring at me and waiting for me to go away. He isn't stopping me anymore. I don't know where I'm going but I need to leave this place. I need to see him. I drove away and it took an hour after I finally found the main road. It was too far from the city. I feel like I've been hidden in mountains and it sucks!

I kept on driving long until the night have finally arrived. It's getting darker and I don't like it. I drove faster but the sound that keeps on roaring just attracts many attention. Hence, I decided to stop to a 7 eleven and asked for directions.

"Excuse me. May I know the direction for the Mastavo Academy?" I asked politely to the man in front of the cashier.

"Mastavo Academy?" He asked confused.

"Oh! Your near Miss. Just a 15 minute drive from here." The man said.

"Is that so. Thank you!" I said and went out. This is the cause of me not caring for my surroundings. I didn't even notice this town. But that's odd! Tristan didn't took me too far from him. Why is that?

I went inside my car and drive. After taking that 15 minute trip. My hand got numb while holding on to the steering wheel. The Mastavo Academy were burned down. What happened? The twins died. It's my fault but I never remembered that I killed the Gustavo family. I never even remembered doing this to the Academy. If this isn't my fault, then whose?

I drove faster. I'm sweating hard and my heart is beating fast. I don't like what I'm thinking. I feel suffocating. I hope that he isn't hurt. I hope that he's okay! Long after that, I finally arrived at the mansion. I was shaking so badly as I step out of the pick up truck. I feel like falling down but I still manage to maintain my balance.

"W-What happened here?" I asked trembling. The mansion was also burned down to the ground. Where is he? Tears started to fall down from my eyes. What the h.e.l.l is happening?

"You should have never leave." I heard a man said behind me. I know who it was so I didn't bother to look.

"I want to see him." I said crying helplessly.

"He is no longer here." Tristan said as he tried to drag me away. Hence, I noticed him stop.

"Tristan." I heard another man called his name. I looked at that man immediately. I can't forget that voice.

"Damian!" I called. His cold eyes shifted to mine. I was taken aback. Why is he staring at me like that? What did I do?

"Vivian!" Someone shouted. I saw Livia running towards me. But she stopped and started to float on the air.

"TRISTAN!" Damian and I shouted in unison. I saw Livia went down. I shove Tristan's hand that were holding on to my wrist and went towards her.

"Are you alright?" I asked worried.

"Yes. I'm alright. But you! Are you hurt? I never saw you after he took you away." Livia started to cry.

"Mom. S-she died." She added.

"Mom? She's your mom?" I asked confused.

"Isn't she talking to me?" I asked once again.

"You've been hearing her? But you are Vivian right?" She asked surprised. Tears fell towards her cheeks.

"Of course." I said rea.s.suring her.

"She isn't your real mother but she became a mother to you. We've been protecting you all these years. I thought that we lost you." She said crying.

"That's enough. Let's go back Victoria." Tristan said.

"I am not Victoria!" I shouted at him angrily. Hence, my eyes captured Damian's gaze. He was sadly looking at me. Why is he looking at me like that? Don't tell me he was thinking that I am Victoria! If he is thinking that then he probably knows that Tristan is the b.l.o.o.d.y queen's mate.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" I asked. I feel my mouth drying up as those words came out.

"I wish that you aren't her." He said.

"Why?" I asked. I don't know but I started to cry. I feel like my heart was tearing into pieces. I'm not her but why am I hurt when he told me that he wished I wasn't her.

"You'll regret it." He answered coldly. I saw Livia stood up and went to him.

"Do you want to remember?" Tristan suddenly asked. I looked behind me and I saw him grinning devilishly.

"You won't dare!" Livia shouted. She seems to know what's happening around us yet here am I, confused and lost.

"Let's make you remember. You can kill me if you can prove that you are not Victoria after seeing the past." Tristan suggested.

"No one's killing anyone." I said getting p.i.s.sed.

"But how can I remember my past?" I asked.

"All you have to do is close your eyes." Tristan said. I can hear Damian and Livia shouting. Screaming and pleading not to close my eyes. Actually, I can hear them running towards me but they were moving slow.

I decided to close my eyes. I want to know who I really am. I need to know the truth so that I'll be able to find something. Something that will make me understand why am I still living in this world.

"But remember. From your past, you are b.l.o.o.d.y deadly." I heard Tristan whispered through my ears and after that I felt something cold pierced into my chest, right into my heart.

"Blood." I whispered as I feel my body fell.

I feel dying.