Johnny Ludlow Second Series Part 6

Looking at him as he sat there, the firelight playing upon his worn face with its subdued spirit, you might have seen it was true--that his life had been a continuous trouble. Was he born to it? or did it only come upon him through marrying Susannah Bates? On the surface of things, lots seemed very unequally dealt out in this world. What had been the lot of Thomas Rymer? The poor son of a poor curate, he had known little but privation in his earlier years; then came the long drudgery of his apprenticeship, then his marriage, and the longer drudgery of his after-life. An uncongenial and unsuitable marriage--and he had felt it to the backbone. From twenty to thirty years had Rymer toiled in a shop late and early; never taking a day's rest or a day's holiday, for some one must always be on duty, and he had no help or subst.i.tute. Even on Sundays he must be at hand, lest his neighbours should be taken ill and want drugs. If he went to church, there was no certainty that his servant-maid--generally a stout young woman in her teens, with a black face and rough hair--would not astonish the congregation by flying up to his pew-door to call him out. Indeed the vision was not so very uncommon. Where, then, could have been Rymer's pleasure in life? He had none; it was all work. And upon the work came the trouble.

Just as the daughter, Margaret, was like her father, so the son, Benjamin, resembled his mother. But for the difference of years, and that his red hair was short and hers long, he might have put on a lace cap, and sat for her portrait. He was the eldest of the children; Margaret the youngest, those between had died. Seven years between children makes a difference, and Margaret with her gentleness had always been afraid of rough Benjamin.

But whether a child is ugly or handsome, it's all the same to the parents, and for some years the only white spot in Thomas Rymer's life had been the love of his little Benjamin. For the matter of that, as a child, Ben was rather pretty. He grew up and turned out wild; and it was just as great a blow as could have fallen upon Rymer. But when that horrible thing was brought home to him--taking the bank-note out of the letter, and subst.i.tuting the stolen one for it--then Rymer's heart gave in. Ever since that time it had been as good as breaking.

Well, that was Thomas Rymer's lot in life. Some people seem, on the contrary, to have nothing but sunshine. Do you know what Mrs. Todhetley says?--that the greater the cloud here, the brighter will be the recompense hereafter. Looking at Thomas Rymer's face as the fire played on it--its goodness of expression, almost that of a martyr; remembering his prolonged battle with the world's cares, and his aching heart; knowing how inoffensive he had been towards his fellow-creatures, ever doing them a good turn when it lay in his power, and never an ill one--one could only hope that his recompense would be of the largest.

"Had many people in this afternoon, Margaret?"

"Pretty well, papa."

Mr. Rymer sighed. "When I get stronger----"

"Margaret! Shop."

The loud coa.r.s.e summons was Mrs. Rymer's. Margaret's spirit recoiled from it the least in the world. In spite of her having been brought up to the "shop," there had always been something in her innate refinement that rebelled against it and against having to serve in it.

"A haperth o' liquorish" was the extensive order from a small child, whose head did not come much above the counter. Margaret served it at once: the liquorice, being often in demand, was kept done up in readiness. The child laid down the halfpenny and went out with a bang.

"I may as well run over with the letter," thought Margaret--alluding to an order she had written to London for some drug they were out of. "And there's my mother's. Mother," she added, going to the parlour-door, "do you want your letter posted?"

"I'll post it myself when I do," replied Mrs. Rymer. "Ain't it almost time you had the gas lighted? That shop must be in darkness."

It was so, nearly. But the gas was never lighted until really needed, in the interests of economy. Margaret ran across the road, put her letter into the post in Salmon's window, and ran back again. She stood for a moment at the door, looking at a huge lumbering caravan that was pa.s.sing--a menage on wheels, as seen by the light within its small windows. "It must be on its way to Worcester fair," she thought.

"Is it you, Margaret? How d'ye do?"

Some great rough man had come up, and was attempting to kiss her.

Margaret started back with a cry. She would have closed the door against him; but he was the stronger and got in.

"Why, what possesses the child! Don't you know me?"

Every pulse in Margaret Rymer's body tingled to pain as she recognized him. It was her brother Benjamin. Better, than this, that it had been what she fancied--some rude stranger, who in another moment would have pa.s.sed on and been gone for ever. Benjamin's coming was always the signal for discomfort at home, and Margaret felt half-paralyzed with dismay.

"How are the old folk, Maggie?"

"Papa is very ill," she answered, her voice slightly trembling. "My mother is well as usual. I think she was writing to you this afternoon."

"Governor ill! So I've heard. Upstairs a good deal, is he not?"

"Quite half his time, I think."

"Who attends here?"

"I do."

"You!--you little mite! Brought your knowledge of rhubarb to good use, eh? What's the matter with papa?"

"He has not been well for a long while. I don't know what it is. Mr.

Darbyshire says"--she dropped her voice a little--"that he is sure there's something on his mind."

"Poor old dad!--just like him! If a woman came in with a broken arm, he'd take it to heart."

"Benjamin, I think it is _you_ that he has most at heart," the girl took courage to say.

Mr. Benjamin laughed. "Me! He needn't trouble about me. I am as steady as old Time, Maggie. I've come home to stay; and I'll prove to him that I am."

"Come home to stay!" faltered Margaret.

"I can take care of things here. I am better able to do it than you."

"My father will not put me out of my place here," said Margaret, steadily. "He has confidence in me; he knows I do things just as he does."

"And for that reason he makes you his subst.i.tute! Don't a.s.sume, Miss Maggie; you'd be more in your place st.i.tching wristbands in the parlour than as the presiding genius in a drug-shop. How d'ye do, mother?"

The sound of his voice had reached Mrs. Rymer. She did not believe her own ears, and came stealing forth to look, afraid of what she might see.

To give Madam Rymer her due, she was quite as honest-natured as her husband; and the matter of the bank-note, the wrong use made of the keys she was foolish enough to lend surrept.i.tiously to Mr. Benjamin, had brought her no light shock at the time. Ill-conduct in the shape of billiards, and beer, and idleness, she had found plenty of excuse for in her son; but when it came to felony, it was another thing altogether.

"It _is_ him!" she muttered, as he saw her, and turned. "Where on earth have you sprung from?" demanded Mrs. Rymer.

"Not from the skies, mother. Hearing the governor was on the sick list, I thought I ought to come over and see him."

"None of your lies, Ben," said Mrs. Rymer. "_That_ has not brought you here. You are in some disgraceful mess again."

"It _has_ brought me here--and nothing else," said Ben: and he spoke truth. "Ashton of Timberdale----"

A faint groan--a crash as of breaking gla.s.s. When they turned to look, there was Rymer, fallen against the counter in his shock of surprise and weakness. His arm had thrown down an empty syrup-bottle.

And that's how Benjamin Rymer came home. His father and mother had never seen him since before the discovery of the trouble; for as soon as he had changed the bank-note in the letter, he was off. The affair had frightened him a little--that is, the stir made over it, of which he had contrived to get notice; since then he had been pa.s.sably steady, making a living for himself in Birmingham as a.s.sistant to a surgeon and druggist. He had met Robert Ashton a short time ago (this was the account he now gave), heard from that gentleman rather a bad account of his father, and so thought it his duty to give up what he was about, and come home. His duty! Ben Rymer's duty!!

Ben was a tall, bony fellow, with a pa.s.sably liberal education. He might not have been unsteady but for bad companions. Ben did not aid in robbing the butcher's till--he had not quite come to that--neither was he privy to it; but he did get persuaded into trying to dispose of one of the stolen notes. It had been the one desperate act of his life, and it had sobered him. Time, however, effaces impressions; from two to three years had gone on since then; nothing had transpired, never so much as a suspicion had fallen on Mr. Benjamin, and he grew bold and came home.

Timberdale rubbed its eyes with astonishment that next autumn day, when it woke up to see Benjamin Rymer in his father's shop, a white ap.r.o.n on, and serving the customers who went in, as naturally as though he had never left it. Where had he been all that while? they asked. Improving himself in his profession, coolly avowed Ben with unruffled face.

And so the one chance--rest of mind--for the father's return to health and life, went out. The prolonged time, pa.s.sing without discovery, giving a greater chance day by day that it might never happen, could but have a beneficial effect on Mr. Rymer. But when Ben made his appearance, put his head, so to say, into the very stronghold of danger, all his sickness and his fear came back again.

Ben did not know why his father kept so poorly and looked so ill. Never a word, in his sensitiveness, had Mr. Rymer spoken to his son of that past night's work. Ben might suspect, but he did not know. Mr. Rymer would come down when he was not fit to do so, and take up his place in the shop on a stool. Ben made fun of it: in sport more than ill-feeling: telling the customers to look at the old ghost there. Ben made himself perfectly at home; would sometimes hold a levee in the shop if his father was out of it, when he and his friends, young men of Timberdale, would talk and laugh the roof off.

People talk of the troubles of the world, and say their name is legion: poverty, sickness, disappointment, disgrace, debt, difficulty; but there is no trouble the human heart can know like that brought by rebellious children. To old Rymer, with his capacity for taking things to heart, it had been as a long crucifixion. And yet--the instinctive love of a parent cannot die out: recollect David's grief for wicked Absalom: "Would G.o.d I had died for thee, O Absalom, my son, my son!"

Still, compared with what he used to be, Ben Rymer was steady. As the winter approached, there set in another phase of the reformation; for he pulled up even from the talking and laughing, and became as good as gold. You might have thought he had taken his dead grandfather, the clergyman, for a model, and was striving to walk in his steps. He went to church, read his medical works, was pleasant at home, gentle with Margaret, and altogether the best son in the world.

"Will it last, Benjamin?" his father asked him sorrowfully.

"It shall last, father; I promise it," was the earnestly-spoken answer.

"Forget the past, and I will never, I hope, try you again."

Ben kept his promise throughout the winter, and seemed likely to keep it always. Mr. Rymer grew stronger, and was in business regularly, which gave Ben more leisure for his books. It was thought that a good time had set in for the Rymers; but, as Mrs. Todhetley says, you cannot control Fate.