Instant Messiah Chapter 17

That child, I know that he’s approaching .

How did this come to be, it must be because of me .

I wished for that child’s happiness . That much was not a lie .

It can’t be helped that he’d come to resent everything, but even then, I couldn’t throw away my love for them .

Because of my arrogance, my indecisiveness, I should’ve known that child would be thrown to the pits of h.e.l.l, and yet .

I love that child, and it’s because of that, I will surely fall to h.e.l.l together with that child .

Nine . My adorable Nine .

Unable to escape from the hunger for maternal love, even now you couldn’t become an adult, Nine .

If you knew the truth, then you would likely not forgive me .

That frightening me, and in the end, I was unable to tell you the truth until now .

…… Aah, I won’t ask for forgiveness anymore .

That’s why, I will at least accomplish my promise with you .

That is all I can do .

……Whether I’m looking forward to it, or if I don’t want him to come .

I myself do not know .

…… However, Nine . At that time, I must tell you those things .

Even if you don’t want to know about it, I must teach you it .

…… Even though I don’t have the qualification to resent that child .

The point where fate divides, you have certainly crossed it–

That child, I know that he’s approaching . How did this come to be, it must be because of me . I wished for that child’s happiness . That much was not a lie . It can’t be helped that he’d come to resent everything, but even then, I couldn’t throw away my love for them . . . Because of my arrogance, my indecisiveness, I should’ve known that child would be thrown to the pits of h.e.l.l, and yet . I love that child, and it’s because of that, I will surely fall to h.e.l.l together with that child . Nine . My adorable Nine . Unable to escape from the hunger for maternal love, even now you couldn’t become an adult, Nine . . . . If you knew the truth, then you would likely not forgive me . That frightening me, and in the end, I was unable to tell you the truth until now . …… Aah, I won’t ask for forgiveness anymore . That’s why, I will at least accomplish my promise with you . That is all I can do . ……Whether I’m looking forward to it, or if I don’t want him to come . I myself do not know . …… However, Nine . At that time, I must tell you those things . Even if you don’t want to know about it, I must teach you it . …… Even though I don’t have the qualification to resent that child The point where fate divides, you have certainly crossed it–.