CronoOver 31 Emotions

-After realizing that she saw him, Rin decided to approach her while trying to think of an excuse to tell her. The whole time while he was trying to think of something he felt his chest tightening more and more, all the while taking rough breaths of air!

"auntie! what a surprise seeing you here, I just... I just... I was invited to a costume party by some friends so I... You know It would be bad if I refused them..."

-While he was telling her his excuse for the way he was dressed and why he was out at this time of an hour, she just kept quiet and silently approached him!

"Slap!"

-With no hesitation at all, in the middle of the street, while being surrounded and watched by the people who were pa.s.sing by, she slapped him with all her strength leaving her handprint on his cheek, all the while tears dropping from her eyes, which were still filled with rage.

"Enough with your excuses!"

-Taking hold of his face, For some reason, Rin felt more pain from that slap then he did from all the injuries he got while fighting in the tournament. Even so, He still tried to tell her some excuses to get himself out of this mess.

"I-I... don't know what you're talking about, as I said... I was with some friends... and..."

"You don't have any friend, you spent every day in the hotel studying and training!"

"I-I found them online... while... I wasn't... studying!"

-When she heard his continuous excuses she clenched her hand as tightly as she coud, so tight blood started dropping out from it. All the while letting out even more tears then she did before!

"Am I that untrustworthy to you, do you just see me as nothing more than just some "Thing" you can be around. If you haven't noticed there is still blood on your bandages!"

"B-blood? this isn't blood it's... catchup, yes..."

"...I see... so that's how it is... I am nothing to you!"

-While he was hearing her words and watching her actions, Rin's heart couldn't stop squeezing him. The pain he felt got only wors by the lie he said and by the words she replied him with, to the point where that last one broke him completely.

"I HAD TO DO IT, I HAD TO!"

"You didn't have to do anything!"-She replied to Rin's comment as fast as he said it!

"THEN WHAT WAS I SUPPOSE TO DO? JUST SIT THERE AND DO NOTHING!"

"No one said you should go out and do this to your self, I meen look at yourself!

"THEN WHAT, WHAT, WHAT, JUST WHAT?"

-While Rin started throwing a tantrum and asking himself what, Serah came towards him and once again slapped him, but this time on the other cheek, leaving a mark just as well!

"For G.o.d's sake, you're still only a child... it's ok to cry when you want to cry!"

-For some reason, those words. .h.i.t him deep, deeper than any injury ever received, and the pain he felt inside his chest disappeared when he let his true emotions show for the first time after getting out from the OverWorld. He stood there while tears started falling from his eyes. Not even wanting to wipe them off, he just let them flow, as much as he coud!

-Serah took hold of him and hugged him while placing his head on her sholder.

"You're not alone, I'm here, so let your emotions show as much as possible, let them all out!"

-Sarah's word felt warm, it gave him comfort, a filing he hadn't felt for a long time now. He felt as if he coud, for the first time, let out all of his emotion and everything that was on his mind up until now.

"AAAAAAAAAA! I'm confused and scared, I don't know what to do... I don't know how to feel... All I want to do is... Cry..."

"Then cry your eyes out, until there is no more water left, cry as much as you want becouse... I will always be there to offer you a sholder to cry on!"

"AAAAAAAAAA! I want to see him again, I want to laugh with him again, I want to just sit and do nothing with him again, I don't want to accept this reality, I don't... I don't want him to be gone... I want to say sorry to him one last time..."

-Serah stood there and took all of his emotions. And as the people on the streets and around them turned towards them and started talking and gossiping among themselves, these two couldn't even notice them, they were cut off from this reality in a moment where only them two exited and nothing else. A feeling of pure relief, she was the first person except for Alexander who he expressed himself like this towards!"

"I may not know a lot about him, and will never be or do I want to be a replacement, but I will always be here for you!"

"Thank you...Mom!"

-Those three simple words brought both tears and happiness to Serah as he said them. That was the first time Rin had called her like that, and it meant that he had finally acknowledged her as a person who cared about him and would even shed tears for him, a parent, his mother.

"Always...son!"
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-Until this moment Rin didn't know how he should act about everything that happened in his life, it was all too much for him. Before he Met Alexander he would act like he wanted and didn't give much thought to the world, and that was all because his parents did a bad job at razing him.

It was like the world gave me another chance at life, and send Alexander to me. I was happy to have someone who I coud open up to. someone who would listen to my problems and help me solve them, I was truly happy for everything he thought me and did for me. So I couldn't accept that there coud be other people who cared about me as much as he did. I was narrow-minded and stupid and I did the same mistakes as before, I did everything I promised him I wouldn't, and before I knew it I ended up hurting her!

My selfish and stupid actions ended up hurting the people who care about me, every time, every time I hurt someone close to me... and it hurts me.

-He finally realized what was the pain he felt squeezing away at his heart was, it was the pain of hurting those he cared about. Hurting them and fearing they themself would leave him, he didn't want that so he tried to do everything he coud for that not to happen even going against Alexanders final promise and being willing to die in order of bringing him back!

-That is why the words "I will always be here for you!" meant so much to him, It meant that even after all he's done, al the pain and sadness he caused to her, she was still willing to forgive him and offered her shoder for him to cry on.

I don't want to hurt them anymore...

"Hey... can you... teach me... how to make that cheesecake... you baked me before?"

"Of course!"

-That night Rin never cried as much as he did then, and on their way back home he ended up telling her everything that happened. From the moment of his childhood all throughout the events of the OverWorld and Alexanders death.

-While listening to him she didn't say a word in response, she just sat there in the car, drove home and listened to his story with full attention, not missing a single word.

"...I think I understand what you went through a little more now... I think that is all the more reason you should take care not to get injured. If you die you won't be able to see him again, so please don't do things like this again!"

-They were in Serah's car, driving toward's their hotel and Rin's eyes were red like someone painted them with a brush and some red paint. He cried for the past half an hour and exerted all of the tears in his body, so his eyes took that foul shape.

"Yes, I won't."

-He had finally realized just how precious his life really was, that there was someone who would cry if he got hurt or died. And it made him happy, Rin still had the goal of bringing Alexander back to life, becouse no matter how hard he tried he still wants him to be in his life again, but he will be careful not to go beyond what he couldn't do and injure himself.

"Thank you, now let's get home finally!"

"..."

-After he told her everything the pain in his chest finally stopped, but there was still something left on his mind, a burning question he wanted to ask her, but somehow was a little afraid of doing so.

Now after everything, he decided to just ask, becouse otherwise, it would bother him too much!

"...How come you took me in?"

"Are you asking me why?"

"Yes, why did you took in a kid you don't even know anything about?"

"Becouse I always wanted to be a mother, I think they are the best people on the planet!"

"...But wouldn't you be happier having your own child?"

"I'm Infertile... which means I can't get pregnant."

"I see..." -Said Rin with a low tone of vice and a sad expression.

"You know, I was engaged for a whole year, but it all ended soon enough."

"..."

"We started as friends from college, and after we met again after a few years a lot of things happened and we started dating. We both enjoyed the presence of each other a lot, So after those seven years of being together, he decided we should take our relationship to a higher level, and he proposed to me. Of course, I said yes Imidetly. He was the love of my life, we spend months planning our wedding and future together, I can't even remember the countless sleepless night we had. Those were probably the happiest days of my life."

"But one faithfull day changed all of that into nothing but a bunch of memories I would rather forget. It was an accident at work, I fell down the stairs from overworking and was send to the hospital to do all sorts of fiscal exams and health checks. In which they found out about my condition. From all the worry, he rushed to the hospital I was placed, in order to be by my side."

"I was happy just having him sit near me, It was a serious head injury and the doctors were worried about my future, but by some miracle, It all went without a problem and I was Scheduled for and operation."

"And as you can see It went without a problem, after that my doctor decided it would be for the best to do one last health check before releasing me. That was when he told us about it, about me being infertile, and ended my entire future that I was looking forward to."

"Neither he or I, for that mather knew about it, and it hit us both like a storm. Just like me, he wanted to have a family and was looking forward to being a father, but now he couldn't be one becouse of me and so he decided... he decided... it would be for the best that we broke up."

"I was devastated, I lost both the love of my life as well as the ability to be a mother in one day, that is until you showed up in my life."

"...I'm sorry mom, I'm really sorry for everything I've done, I didn't want to hurt you..."

"What are you apologizing for? Yes, you made me mad as well as sad, but those are the joys of being a mother!"

"...why do you want to be a mom so much?"

"Hahaha, I guess becouse I want to be like my mom was to me. I was blessed and was born into a good and kindhearted family so I want to be like her."

"...I guess I know how you feel..."

Just like I wanted to be like him, mom wants to be like her mother, how ironic

"Well that's all in the past now, I have you now so I don't need no husband I'm a working woman and a mom, what else coud I want, hahaha!"

"I'm glad you're back to your old self."

There are people out there who live happy and cheerfull lives just as there are people who live sad and horrible ones. It doesn't matter which one it is, both of these people have one thing in common, they all have dreams and wishes they want to fulfill, ambitions and hopes. Ony now Do I realize the reason you approached me back then, the reason you took me under your wing and taught me everything I needed to know... It was so I coud be like them, like everyone else, so I coud survive and live a life I wanted.

...You Idiot, I wanted you in that life as well, so until I can find a way in which both, I bring you back and I can live a life that I want. A life I won't regret later on, wait for me... Alexander!