Girl Called Fearless: A Girl Undone Part 22

Nothing in this house came without a motive or strategy. Every gift had a price, and I knew I'd end up paying somehow.

Minutes later morning fog pressed against the windows, and erased the rest of the world except for the sound of the waves roaring against the rocks below. I pulled the duvet over my shoulders, wondering when Hawkins would demand to see me, and hoping that a campaign speech in San Jose or a crisis in Singapore had called him away.

When someone knocked on the door, I hesitated before I cracked it open. Deeps leaned on the door frame. "Mr. Hawkins has something planned for you. He'd like you to dress in the clothes you arrived in."

If Hawkins insisted I wear those jeans and boots and parka, it could only mean one thing. "Why? Did he change his mind? Is he turning me in?"

"No." Deeps pushed off the frame. "Nothing like that."

"What then?"

"It's good. You'll see."

The fog was lifting when we got into Hawkins' helicopter. Deeps was piloting and Ho was riding shotgun. We flew over the Malibu mountains, and were a few miles inland when the sky cleared. Sun poured through the windshield, and I unzipped my parka and pushed it down around my waist.

We headed east through the valley. The wide open s.p.a.ces of Wyoming and Colorado were erased from my mind as we flew over traffic-choked highways, dusty houses, and shopping malls. Where were we headed and why was I wearing this?

Ho and Deeps made small talk up front, acting like I wasn't there. We'd flown about twenty minutes when I realized Deeps was heading north and east. He was taking me home.

The charges against me must have been dropped! I was going to have a fresh start!

"You're taking me home!"

"That's right, Hummingbird."

Maybe Hawkins decided he was tired of dealing with me, that he'd had enough of drama and complications, and was ready to sell me back to Dad.

The hills that hugged my town came into view, covered with oak trees that spread over the winding streets, shading them. I picked out Dayla's house and her swimming pool, and two streets over, the house where Yates grew up.

We buzzed over the public library, my elementary school, and the grocery store. I tugged on my seat belt, ready to leap out.

My house appeared from between the sycamores, and we hovered above the back lawn. The helicopter sent waves across the koi pond and swimming pool, and shot dry leaves off the trees. It felt like I'd been gone for months, but everything looked the same. I was home!

Dad came out onto the terrace. "Dad! Dad!" I waved, crazy excited. Right behind him stood Gerard, our domestic manager, holding Dusty in his arms. She squirmed as if she wanted to s.n.a.t.c.h the helicopter out of the sky like a giant Frisbee.

Deeps touched down, and I tore off my seat belt and grabbed my parka. I poised at the door, ready to throw it open as soon as the blades stopped.

Ho crawled up behind me. "You don't need your coat."

"Yeah, I know, it's so warm out here."

He peeled it out of my hands. "You're not staying."

"What?" I felt my heart begin to shred.

"Jessop has approved a ninety-minute visit with your father."

I held on to the door latch. Ninety minutes, and then they'd return me to Hawkins to serve out the rest of my sentence.

Deeps caught my eye and winked, and I realized he'd gone to bat for me. "Thank you," I said, forcing my lips into a smile.

"It's safe to open the hatch," he said.

Dad ran toward me, and I leaped into his arms.

"Oh, Avie. Thank G.o.d, you're safe." Dad crushed me to him and I held on tight.

"Dad, I missed you so much."

"The news, those pictures of the shootout. I thought I'd never see you again."

"I know. It was awful."

He stroked my hair. "My girl, my precious girl. I'm so sorry."

I was done being angry with him. Hawkins had screwed us both over, and Dad had tried to get me free, but n.o.body controls Hawkins.

"I'm sorry, too," I said. "Everything turned into such a disaster, and I wanted to let you know I was alive, but I couldn't."

We held each other for another minute while Dusty bounced around our feet. When Dad released me, it seemed as if he couldn't bear to pull away. I lifted Dusty into my arms and rubbed my face against her fur. Dad ruffled my hair.

"You and Dusty are wearing the same haircut."

His eyes were pinched, and I knew he was forcing himself not to ask why. "It'll grow out."

Gerard waited on the terrace, wearing a dress shirt as if I was a special guest. Gerard, who'd guessed I would run, who'd covered for me with my bodyguard, and who'd sneaked me money.

I walked up so we were just an arm's length apart. I could sense Gerard wanting to reach for me, but touching me was forbidden in his employment contract. Then Dad took Dusty from my arms. "It's okay, Gerard. I would never fire you over a hug."

Gerard leaned down and wrapped me awkwardly in his arms. I hugged him back, conscious of how stiffly he held me against his tall, slender body. There was so much we couldn't say aloud, because it would tip Dad off to how he'd helped me, so we just mumbled how glad we were to see each other.

I tried to push back the shakiness, to keep the tears gathering inside me from spilling out. But when Gerard said, "How about some cinnamon toast?" it hit me that home is about small things that the people who love you remember. "Yeah," I said, my lip starting to tremble, "that would be really nice."

Ho shooed us toward the French doors. "We should get inside. We don't want your neighbor to be tempted to send photos of you to the tabloids."

Gerard set up a tray for Dad and me in the library. As he shut the door, I heard him invite Ho and Deeps to help themselves to coffee in the kitchen.

Dusty curled beside me on the couch, her head on my leg. Dad pulled his chair close. His skin was pale, almost ashen, the way he got from spending too much time in the lab. He looked so old. "I tried using my contacts in Washington to find out what's happening in your investigation," he said, "but I've been frozen out."

"It's okay. Hawkins is getting the charges dropped."

"That's great! What a relief!"

"Yeah. It's a big relief."

"But how did he accomplish that? It couldn't have been easy."

I couldn't look Dad in the eyes, couldn't tell him what I'd done. "He pulled some strings."

"Well, he must have some powerful allies. I'm glad to know Jessop's looking after your interests."

"Dad, this is Jessop we're talking about. He's looking after his interests."

Dad hung his head. "I swear I tried to break your Contract, Avie. I even tried to force him out."

"I know," I said quietly.

Dad looked up. His sagging shoulders made my heart ache.

"Yates told me how you tried to buy out my Contract. How you tried to bring in other investors and even offered to leave Biocure. The fact you did that meant a lot to me."

"Is Jessop treating you decently?"

I knew the truth would break Dad's heart. He'd blame himself for failing to get me free. "So far," I lied.

We sat, not speaking for a moment. I got the feeling Dad wanted to believe me, but didn't, and yet he didn't want to force me to tell him what was really going on.

"How's Dayla?" I said. "I saw you in that interview."

"She's fine. Excited about the baby."

"That's good." Dayla'd been through so much, being locked up in Fetal Fed, and losing the guy she really loved. She deserved some happiness.

"Her new husband came with her."

A feeling of sadness washed over me. "What's he like?"

"He seems like a decent young man, hardworking-"

"But I thought-"

"Yes, originally she was Contracted to the father, but for some reason that changed."

"So how's Dayla doing in Montana? I mean, I can't imagine her living on a ranch."

Dad reached for my hand. "Avie, can you tell me what happened in Las Vegas with Sparrow? And who was that woman, Margaret Stanton, you got mixed up with?"

I wanted to tell Dad the truth. I was tired of lying, and Dad would understand why I'd done what I did. And I wanted to share with him what I'd learned-about myself, and the bizarre things going on in the country.

"Dad, I can't tell you everything; I wish I could, so please don't ask me a lot of questions."

He held my hand while I told him about Maggie, and how she was an ex-lawyer, gathering evidence against the Paternalists. I connected the dots the media had publicized, but I didn't fill in the blanks that could put Dad in danger as I revealed the true story of Sparrow's suicide, me broadcasting her suicide video, and the federal agents chasing Maggie and me to Idaho. I'd just started to describe Yates finding me when Dad said, "Yates told me about what happened in Salvation."

"You talked to him?" Dad hadn't had a conversation with Yates in years. "When?"

"A few days ago. I drove up to At.w.a.ter Penitentiary to see him. I hoped he could give me a clue as to where you were."

"How is he?"

"He's healing. He told me about the trek up the mountain, and how you pulled him out of that tree. You saved his life-and many others, it sounds like."

Dad wanted to make me into a hero, but I didn't feel like one, not after what I'd just done to save my own life. "Yates saved me as much as I saved him. He's a good person, Dad. I just wish you could see that. I'd never have made it up the mountain if it wasn't for him."

"Hey, calm down. It's okay. I know you think I don't like him and that was why I kept you two apart, but that wasn't it."

"Then why did you keep us apart?"

"When his father Contracted Becca, I finally learned the truth about his gambling problem. I had to put distance between our families. I couldn't be friends with my business partner, if there was a chance he'd do something that could harm the company. Then when Roik warned me that Yates was attracted to you, I felt I had to put a stop to it."

I stroked Dusty's ear, trying to take in what Dad had told me.

"Yates has more than proven himself to me, Avie. I understand what you see in him."

I love him, Dad, I wanted to say, but what good would that do? "Do you think they'll let him go? Since they dropped the charges against me, won't they drop them against Yates, too?"

"I don't know, honey. I suspect Jessop Hawkins likes having Yates right where he is, but I offered to help Yates if I could."

"Thank you."

"Don't thank me yet. I haven't done anything."

Dad tried to get me to tell him where I'd been and who I'd been with since I left Yates. "It's better if I don't," I said.

"Ah, someone you'd like to protect."

I nodded. "Yeah."

The hour and a half went too quickly. Gerard came in before I was ready. "Mr. Ho would like to know if there's anything you'd like to take with you?"

"How about my freedom?"

"Not so loud," Dad murmured.

"Sorry."

"What about Dusty? Do you think Jessop would agree to you having her?"

Hawkins wouldn't tolerate fur on his pristine floor, and he'd freak over her barking. "She couldn't go outside, Dad. She could get bitten by a snake." I got up from the couch. "I'm going to check my room."

"Honey." The tone of Dad's voice stopped me. "They went through your bedroom while you were gone."

"You mean Hawkins' Retrievers?"

"No, the FBI."

I flew up the stairs. Dad wasn't kidding when he said they went through my room. It looked like a psycho had had an episode there.

I walked carefully over the ripped carpet. The agents had torn out sections of wallboard, leaving the wiring and dirty pink insulation exposed.