Full Spectrum 3 Part 3

You could hear the dogs yapping and yelping. A hundred seemed a modest estimate.

"We should've brought our skis," said my father.

That would have been far easier than walking in, which took us twice as long. I'd seen the outside of the dogstar man's house in summer but not in winter, and I'd never seen the inside.

In the dog yard, seven hounds sat on the roofs of their houses and barked at us, and the hair on my neck p.r.i.c.kled in a primitive response to danger.

"They're tied," said my father.

Only when I saw that they could not spring far from the stakes to which they were leashed did I begin to savor the adventure of doing something entirely new. I thought of our yard, so small and neat that when my mother bought two metal lawn chairs and a patio umbrella, my father complained of the clutter. The dogstar man's yard was a sprawl of empty cable spools, old oil drums, ropes, ski poles, harnesses and the dogsled itself, which hung from a row of pegs on the cabin wall. The gra.s.s on the sod roof was blond.

The dogstar man, hearing the racket, opened the door. He knew my father as a man who ordered firewood from him; he was surprised to see both of us on his doorstep. His face remained perfectly impa.s.sive as my father explained our errand while I stared at Olaf Starr with the greatest interest, as if I were examining a hawk or an otter, some wild creature always seen in motion and from a distance.

A brief silence marked the end of my father's speech, and when the dogstar man was quite certain it was the end, he nodded and motioned us into his house. It was not so much a house as a lair, a den, that an animal might make and stock with all that instinct told him would carry him through the winter. Firewood was stacked solid against one wall. Against the opposite wall stood five fifty-gallon drums of water, a shelf of dishes and crocks and large cooking pots, a treadle sewing machine, and a dozen huge bags of dog food.

From under the four burners on the surface of the wood stove shone a thin rim of fire. The flame in the oil lamp on the table danced in its gla.s.s chimney with such shifting brilliance that the air in the cabin seemed to be alive and breathing, steadily and quietly.

My father and I drew two stools up to the table.

The dogstar man took down a large crock and set it on the table between us.

"The secret of cheese is patience," he said. "Cheese has taught me everything I know about life."

He set three spoons and three bra.s.s bowls of different sizes on the table.

"I traded a year's supply of firewood to a professor at the university for these. And when I got them home, I made a discovery. Listen."

He brushed his hand over the rim of the largest and a deep hum filled the room. He brushed the smallest and a higher hum, a fifth above the first, spun out of it. He brushed the last bowl, and it sent forth a note that completed the triad. But if I say the bowls hummed, I do not tell you how they hummed. Not like a cat or a spinning wheel, but like a planet whirling down the dark aisles of the galaxy.

"The best way to make cheese is, put it in singing bowls," said the dogstar man. "This is also the best way to eat it."

He dipped a spoon into the crock and began to ladle cottage cheese from the crock into the bowls.

"Also," he said, "the voice of the bowls quiets the dogs."

My father, astonished into silence by all these marvels, found his voice.

"But these are singing bowls from Tibet," he exclaimed. "I'm sure they're worth a good deal of money. If you ever want to sell them, come to me with a price."

"But I won't sell them," said the dogstar man. "I'll trade them for something I need."

"What do you need?" asked my father.

"Nothing now," he said, "but next week, dog food. I buy dog food by the ton. Ground barley is good," he mused, "and fish meal."

He spooned cottage cheese from the crock into the bowls.

"When I was at the university, I didn't study at all."

"You went to the university?" exclaimed my father.

"For one year, in 1927. And when my father asked me what I was majoring in I told him I wanted to major in philosophy. Philosophy! He didn't understand about philosophy. I told him that philosophers consider problems of time and what is the true good. I told him it was like majoring in cheese; something solid emerges from what is thin and without definition."

The whole of our visit, he talked and talked-and not one word about how to make cheese. The next day my mother took me to the public library where the Encyclopaedia Britannica revealed to me the secret of making cheese. In my report, I mentioned rennet and casein. I did not mention singing bowls, and I did not write a story. I got my report back with praise from Mrs. Hanson written across the top: Good work, Sam! You put in a lot of information and you stuck to your subject.

The next afternoon the dogstar man appeared in my father's music store. He admired the guitars, the accordions, the new shipment of tambourines, and asked him if he could make a whistle that the dogs could hear from a great distance.

"How great a distance?" asked my father.

The dogstar man opened his pack, drew out a map of the United States, and spread it out on the counter.

"Here," he said. "I'm planning to visit my sister, and I want my dogs to know I'm thinking of them."

And he put his thumb down on the whole state of Florida.

In three days, my father finished the whistle, and the dogstar man drew from his pack the largest singing bowl and gave it to him. It was as if an honored guest had moved in with us. My father made a little house for the bowl to sit in, a replica of a Tibetan spirit house, he said. This he put on top of the china cabinet. Once a day the bowl was played. Sometimes my mother played it, sometimes I played it, and sometimes he played it himself. Often I dreamed of whales singing, a music I did not yet know existed.

A week later the dogstar man returned and said he wanted to exchange the whistle that called dogs for one that called birds. So many of the birds he loved had gone south. He wanted to let them know he'd welcome them back any time, if the warm countries weren't to their liking.

"Why did you tell me to make a whistle that calls dogs if you wanted one that calls birds?" asked my father.

The dogstar man was interested in more practical questions.

"Can you fix it so it will call both?"

My father said he would try. He added a section of wingwood with a dovetail joint that was nearly invisible, and the dogstar man was very pleased and said it was exactly what he wanted. He reached into his knapsack and pulled out the medium-sized singing bowl. My father closed the shop and carried it home at once and nested it in the other bowl, in the little spirit house.

The bowls were not beautiful but they were immensely present, and when we ate in the dining room we were always aware of them, and we did not complain about the cold weather or who should have taken out the garbage the night before. No, we were pleasant to one another, in the way that people are pleasant before a guest or stranger to whom they wish to show their best side.

A postcard arrived from Paradise, Florida, showing the roseate spoonbill in glorious flight. The dogstar man's message was brief: "It works!"

Three days before Christmas, the dogstar man appeared again, holding the whistle.

"This whistle," he said. "I wonder if you could fix it."

"In what way is it broken?" asked my father.

"It's not broken," the dogstar man a.s.sured him. "I just wonder if you could improve it."

"Improve it?"

"I was wondering," said the dogstar man, "if you could fix it so it would call stars."

"Stars!"

"I thought I'd get me in some ice fishing. The fish do like clear nights best."

My father took the whistle back. The section he added this time was purely ornamental. He cut it from coral, which has no resonating properties, and he vowed to go the dogstar man one better. He added a link of hornbeam, on which young stags love to rub their budding antlers; and a link of alder, which beavers prefer above all other trees for building dams; and a link of mulberry, whose small dark fruit the wood mouse loves. He did not cut these links into simple rings but joined them in interlocking shapes, pieced with bits of sh.e.l.l and horn, bone and silver.

On a Sat.u.r.day morning, when I was helping my father put new price stickers on the sheet music, the dogstar man arrived, and my father gave him the improved whistle and waited for some sign of praise, a whistle of admiration, perhaps.

But the dogstar man said nothing about my father's exquisite workmanship. He tucked the whistle into his breast pocket and reached into his knapsack and took out the smallest singing bowl and set it on the counter.

Then he looked at me and said, "Do you like books?"

"Sure," I said. I never say no to a book.

Out of his knapsack he pulled a volume bound in leather softer than the chamois my father used to polish the violins. When he put it into my hands, I felt he had just given me a small animal seldom seen and beautiful to the blind who see with their fingers.

I opened it to the t.i.tle page: Palmer c.o.x's Juvenile Budget, Containing Queer People with Paws, Claws, Wings, Stings, and Others Without Either, "This book was mine when I was your age," he said. "Merry Christmas."

I flipped through the book and thought, What a G.o.d-awful present. The stories, all of them in poetry and small print, were crammed on the yellowing pages, and the ill.u.s.trations, done in scratchy pen and ink, crowded into the text as best they could. Still, I was the kind of kid who would read anything, and I knew I would have a go at the Juvenile Budget. But I could not say it gladdened my heart.

"Thank you," I said.

My father had the habit of carrying the spirit house, with its nested singing bowls, from room to room, to keep them near him. On Christmas Eve he put them on the mantel to watch over the tree. Of course I did not believe in Santa Claus, but I played the game and so did my mother and father. Growing up is watching faith descend to the level of a beloved ritual.

At nine o'clock I put my two presents under the tree: a Sheaffer pen, which I bought at the drugstore, and a pillow with the name Jerry Garcia embroidered on it, which I made in school after the princ.i.p.al went to a conference on new trends in education and became convinced that boys should take home ec for one semester while the girls took shop. I was not convinced. I would never make one of those sleek, useful projects the teacher recommended. I would not even make a pattern. The pillow turned out to be the size of an overgrown pincushion, nothing you'd choose to sit on, unless you had hemorrhoids. I knew Mother would love it because it looked handmade.

The card said, "For Mother and Father," as the pen and pillow were suitable for both.

At ten o'clock, when I announced I was going up to bed, so as not to displease Santa, my mother looked relieved. She had all the presents to wrap yet. I hung my stocking under the singing bowls and was halfway up the stairs when the doorbell rang and the door, which was unlocked, burst open.

The dogstar man filled the front hall with his enthusiasm. He'd spent the day ice fishing on Waubesa Lake. He'd pulled from the still, chill bottom of the lake three ba.s.s, two trout, a sunfish, and a pike, and he was the first person in the county to catch a two-point buck with a fishhook. He'd brought in enough meat to feed himself the rest of the winter.

He pulled out a bottle of schnapps and presented it to my father and lingered, waiting for him to open it.

I could not possibly go to bed now. I might miss something.

My father and the dogstar man sat down at the dining room table and drank. That is to say, the dogstar man drank a lot and my father nursed a single shot gla.s.s, which was nevertheless enough to skew his judgment. He did not even remember to bring his singing bowls with him.

"All I own of value in this world is my sled and my dogs," said the dogstar man, "and when I am gone, no man is worthier to have them than yourself. Give me pen and paper, and I will write my will."

Every shred of sc.r.a.p paper, which usually cluttered around the telephone, had vanished from sight, and my father could find nothing better than a circular for a grand sale at Happy Jack's-"Everything must go, to the bare walls." The dogstar man turned it over, and on the blank side wrote his will, making my father heir to seven dogs. He ended by writing out the names of the dogs, along with their rank in harness.

Swing dogs: Eleanor Roosevelt and John Kennedy Team dogs: Lou Gehrig and Babe Ruth Wheel dogs: Finn McCool and Melville Lead dog: Hermes Then he turned to me and my mother.

"I've left s.p.a.ce for you to sign. Two witnesses."

To humor him, my mother signed. I signed because I'd never been asked to witness anything before and I did not want to pa.s.s up this opportunity. Without reading it over, the dogstar man pocketed his will, shook hands with each of us and took his unsteady leave, and my father and mother thought no more on the matter.

At midnight on Christmas Eve, the snow started falling, and it did not stop until the next afternoon. And then, quite unexpectedly, it turned warm.

The day before New Year's Eve, the dogstar man disappeared. A skier, hearing the howling and baying of seven ravenous huskies, called the police. Because the snow around the dog yard was deep and undisturbed by human tracks, the police broke into the dogstar man's cabin. The presence of the will on the kitchen table suggested suicide, but the circ.u.mstances of his death convinced them otherwise. At the lake they found the dogstar man's pickup truck. On the ice they found the shelter he'd built. The current ran strong under the thin ice where the sh.o.r.e curved toward the jagged hole in the ice, through which they concluded he had fallen. They did not find the man himself. It is hard to grieve for a man who has disappeared and who might return someday. I think my father and mother expected to receive another postcard from him. We did not really believe he was dead until the sheriff stopped by our house and asked my father to come and fetch his dogs.

Seven dogs at a stroke! Neither my father nor my mother knew the first thing about caring for dogs. Days of lawn chairs and umbrellas, farewell! My father bought a book called Your Sled Dogs and How to Care for Them and hired a man to put in seven tethering stakes and help him move the sled and bags of dog food and the doghouses into the backyard. Then he phoned a veterinarian, Dr. James Herrgott, and told him what had befallen us.

Dr. Herrgott made a house call and examined the dogs. From the kitchen window, we watched him, a tall lean figure in a wool cap and down jacket and boots and Levi's with holes in the knees. One by one, he knelt before each dog, examined its fur, its eyes, the lining of its mouth.

Wrapped in an aura of cold air, he sat down at our kitchen table and told us what we owned. Finn McCool and John Kennedy and Melville and Eleanor Roosevelt and Babe Ruth and Lou Gehrig were young dogs, between two and three years old, all mixed-breed huskies. Hermes was at least five years old and part Siberian husky.

"One of the big old-style freighting dogs," he observed. "Most mushers nowadays like the smaller breeds."

My father looked terrified. For the first time, I perceived a weakness in him and a superior strength in myself, and I took on the job of feeding the dogs in the morning. This meant rising at six instead of seven; ten minutes' snoozing and I'd miss the school bus. The front door slamming shut in the milky light before dawn would wake them, and by the time I'd hauled the big canister of dog food into the yard, they would be yapping and tugging at their chains and stretching, their tails switching and waving like flags. The smell of their food-a thin yellow gruel of ground barley and fish meal and fat, which I ladeled into deep tin bowls-made my father nauseous.

After school I fed them again and fetched a shovel and cleaned the dog yard.

My mother a.s.signed herself the task of putting fresh hay in the doghouses. That was a fragrant and pleasant occupation; the dogs would crawl into the hay and move round and round, hollowing it into a nest.

Sometimes my father ran the dogs and sometimes I did it, but soon he relinquished that job too, because I enjoyed doing it and he did not. The intricate maneuvers of running dogs in harness daunted him. He could never remember who hated whom and what dogs got on well together.

After school I slipped their harnesses on and hitched them to the sled and we headed for the golf course behind the house. I never saw snow so deep that Hermes could not break a trail in it. When we crossed the frozen stream at the back of the course, the clicking of their toenails on the ice always startled them. I loved the crossing; the shadow we cast on that bright surface made a grand sight.

In February the temperature fell to thirty-five below and stayed there. My mother could not bear to leave any animal outside in that weather. My father reminded her that we had no bas.e.m.e.nt, no garage, no shed of any kind.

"We have a big living room," she said. "We could part.i.tion it. Half for the dogs and half for us."

She kept after him till he put a chain-link fence down the middle of the living room, while my mother took out the rug and the furniture. From then on, the dogs slept indoors. A maze of smaller fences separated them from each other. The gates on these fences were never locked. When I stayed up to watch the Sat.u.r.day-night movie in the living room with my parents, the loping and breathing and snuffling and growling did not bother my mother or me, but it drove my father wild. I think he could have gotten used to this, but something happened to me that changed everything for all of us.

I got the flu, the kind that keeps you in bed for two weeks. I felt as if someone had sucked all the strength out of me and left me on the small white sh.o.r.e of my bed to find my way back to health. My father took over my tasks and did them, in his own way.

He exercised the dogs, but he did not take out the sled. He walked them singly. Of course, as he pointed out to me, he could not walk seven dogs every day. My mother walked them when she had time, but she reminded him that the dogstar man had willed them to my father, not to us.

He fed the dogs, but he refused to handle the fish meal and fat, and he bought canned meat and dehydrated chicken kibbles in hundred-pound bags that scarcely lasted a week. Soon the dogs were demanding four meals a day and howling at night. My mother found that if she opened the gate in the living room fence, the dogs grew quiet. After everyone was in bed, they would leave their quarters and gather in my room.

It is not easy sleeping with seven dogs, even when you love them. In the safety of my bedroom they went on dreaming of their old fears, just as I went on dreaming of mine. Roused by a remembered injury, Lou Gehrig would leap out of sleep and sink his teeth into John Kennedy's neck, and I would fly out of bed to part them. When sled dogs fight, generations of jackals and wolves snarl in their blood. All night part of my mind stayed awake, listening for the low growl that signaled the beginning of a quarrel. When morning came, I never felt rested.

And Melville got sick. His fur fell out in odd patches, though my mother washed him with Castile soap and sponged his legs, chest, face, and tail with a special foam that Dr. Herrgott recommended for shedding animals.

A thaw surprised us in February, and my mother agreed to let the dogs sleep in the yard again. But the dogs had caught the scent of being human and could not get enough of it. From darkness till dawn they howled. I was back in school but not strong enough to take over caring for the dogs, and I suppose it was the howling and complaints from the neighbors that finally drove my father to make what he warned me was an important announcement.

"I'm going to sell Olaf's dogs. I can't afford to keep them."

We had just sat down to dinner, and he looked at me to see how I would take his words. I said nothing.

"We'll only sell them to someone who can really take care of them," said my mother.

That night I fell asleep to the howling of the dogs. What woke me was a silence so sinister that I jumped out of bed and hurried to the window, certain they'd been poisoned. My heart nearly thudded through my chest when I saw someone was indeed in the yard. He was unchaining them. First John Kennedy, then Babe Ruth, then Hermes.

I never thought of calling my father. No, I pulled on my clothes, s.n.a.t.c.hed my jacket from the bedpost, and marched out into the yard. When the thief turned his face toward me, I was speechless with fright.

"I've come for my dogs," said the dogstar man. "They miss me, and I miss them."

"You're dead," I whispered. My teeth were chattering. "You fell through the ice and drowned."