Fear Itself Part 18

It was almost one A.M. A.M. when I remembered the bookcase downstairs. when I remembered the bookcase downstairs.

n.o.body was awake in the big, rambling house. They were all working people who were up before the sun each morning. And when they worked they worked hard. Even Charlotta had to go off to bed before eleven.

I TURNED ON A SMALL LAMP and pulled a burgundy ha.s.sock up to the double shelf. and pulled a burgundy ha.s.sock up to the double shelf.

Most of the books were romances and westerns. There were a few magazines stacked on the bottom shelf, Life Life and and Men at War Men at War made up the most of them. A lot of the books were old and smelled of decaying paper. I loved that smell. Ever since I was a child that odor meant excitement and knowledge. made up the most of them. A lot of the books were old and smelled of decaying paper. I loved that smell. Ever since I was a child that odor meant excitement and knowledge.

I found one interesting novel written by a man with the unlikely name of Amos Amso. The book was called Night Man Night Man. It was the story of a man who conducted his life only at night. He slept in the daytime and kept all of the shades and curtains in his house tightly drawn during the daylight hours. He'd had many jobs. Once he worked for the phone company as an emergency technician, then as an operator. Later he got a job as a cook in a twenty-four-hour restaurant in a downtown San Francisco hotel. Whenever any employer tried to change his position to some hour that bordered on morning or sunset, he'd quit and look for something else. He rarely saw his family or made professional appointments. He hired a man to impersonate him when he had to show up for important meetings that could only be scheduled during the day. When he wasn't working, he took long walks in the wee hours, noting the furtive and feral life that lived beyond the h.e.l.l of the sun.

Finally the main character, who was also called Amos, came across a woman who was attempting to throw herself off of the Golden Gate Bridge in the early hours of the morning. He saved her and talked to her. He convinced her that her life was worth living. Her name was Crystal Limmer and she was a painter, a watercolorist.

That was about the first hundred and fifty pages of the book. I'm a fast reader, but I never finish a book if I don't see a reason for it. Mr. Amso's book would either have the hero being pulled out of darkness by this bright gem of a woman or he would lose himself to a gloom he'd never known before finding love. Either way I wasn't interested, so I put the book back on the shelf.

At least I tried to return it. The books had been packed so tightly that Night Man Night Man no longer fit in the s.p.a.ce I took it from. I pride myself in organizing s.p.a.ce on bookshelves, so I took out a few other books in order to accommodate the full complement. no longer fit in the s.p.a.ce I took it from. I pride myself in organizing s.p.a.ce on bookshelves, so I took out a few other books in order to accommodate the full complement.

I removed three Zane Grey westerns. But before I could do anything else, I noticed that there was something behind the first row of books. The shelves were quite a bit deeper than I thought. They were actually set deep into the wall. There was a good six inches of s.p.a.ce behind the first row of books.

There was another book back there. A thick book with a hard leather cover that had an embossed design but no writing on it. It was thicker than a bible and the pages were not made of paper but of animal skin. The cover and back were wood with cow's leather stretched over it. And each page was scrawled on with handwriting from various hands in differing kinds and colors of ink.

The first line of the first page read: I am Gheeza Manli daughter of Menzi and Allatou born into slavery in the year of the devil seventeen hundred and two . . .

Much of what Gheeza wrote was difficult to make out, while many sections were completely impossible for me to read. She wrote in extraordinarily small script. Her entries went on for about forty pages, telling something of her impossible tale and interrupting that story now and then to tell of births, deaths, and smaller or larger crimes committed against her or that she committed against her masters. Gheeza had a daughter named Asha. Asha took over the duty of maintaining the entries on page forty-two.

Asha was called Mary by her slave masters, as her mother Gheeza was called Tulip by the same owners. The book was their story, kept secret from the world of their masters. The book was bound by Tellman, who had been from a long line of binders of prayer books for the people of the kingdom of Ethiopia.

A floorboard creaked somewhere in the rambling rooming house. I pushed the westerns and Mr. Amso's book back into the shelf any way they would go, hugged the handmade book to my chest, and covered it with a pillow from the sofa. Then I hurried down the hall and up the stairs with the treasure clutched so tightly that my arms ached from the effort.

Once in my room I wedged a chair against the doork.n.o.b, remembering for a moment that I had done the same thing in Lance Wexler's apartment. I turned on the overhead light and pored over the three hundred pages of animal skin that had been scrawled upon by more than a dozen hands. Now and then there were drawings of plantation houses and slave quarters, of agricultural machines and torture devices used on slaves. From 1781 1781 to to 1798 1798 Moses, the only male diarist, also drew and painted pictures of his parents, grandparents, his wife and children. He entered twenty-three colorful pictures in all, and while they were crude there was still something poignant and dignified about the dark faces in their slave clothes and quarters. Moses, the only male diarist, also drew and painted pictures of his parents, grandparents, his wife and children. He entered twenty-three colorful pictures in all, and while they were crude there was still something poignant and dignified about the dark faces in their slave clothes and quarters.

The last entry was in 1847 1847 by Abathwa, daughter of Elthren, daughter of Moses. All of these names were secret appellations given in private ceremonies when the masters were sleeping. On the last page Abathwa referred to another book that would be used to continue the memories of the kinfolk of Africa. by Abathwa, daughter of Elthren, daughter of Moses. All of these names were secret appellations given in private ceremonies when the masters were sleeping. On the last page Abathwa referred to another book that would be used to continue the memories of the kinfolk of Africa.

At first I thought that the book was some kind of fiction, that it was created by some artist, or more probably artists, trying to create a history out of the tragedy of slavery. But there was no questioning that the book was at least over a hundred years old. And there was no reason to doubt that it went all the way back to the eighteenth century as it claimed.

But what was it doing in a boardinghouse library in black L.A.?

It couldn't belong to Miss Moore. She wouldn't have left such a treasure in a public room. Maybe the house belonged to someone else, or maybe the previous owner had inherited the book from a long line that stretched all the way back to the ancient African kingdoms.

As the hours pa.s.sed I put together what I felt was the probable history of the book. It was definitely an artifact from the days of slavery, though possibly not as old as it seemed. It had been pa.s.sed down with subsequent volumes to some man or woman who came into possession of Miss Moore's house earlier in the century. This man or woman had hidden the book and then grew old and senile. So the book sat there in its hiding place behind the ever-changing row of popular novels until I came upon it.

So if it wasn't Miss Moore's book then it was fair game for me.

It was nearly five in the morning when I closed the covers and still I hadn't worked out ten solid pages of text. I imagined spending the next year in my little shop deciphering the entries of those long-ago slaves.

I forgot all about Fearless and Milo, about the murderous Mr. Timmerman and the dead Wexler siblings. I forgot about the Watermelon Man and the strange Fine sisters who lived in luxury and in squalor. That's what a good book will do for me. It doesn't make me into a brave man exactly but just erases all vestiges of fear.

24.

I FELL ASLEEP WITH THE SUNRISE, amid the sounds of the tenants getting ready to go off to work. The smell of coffee wafted up into my room, but I was too tired to climb down the stairs. And even if I hadn't been so weary I wouldn't have left my book. It was the most precious thing I had ever seen or touched. amid the sounds of the tenants getting ready to go off to work. The smell of coffee wafted up into my room, but I was too tired to climb down the stairs. And even if I hadn't been so weary I wouldn't have left my book. It was the most precious thing I had ever seen or touched.

I slept until after nine o'clock. When I had to go to the bathroom I took the book with me, wrapped in a pillowcase. I didn't go out of the room except for that one time.

Thieves are the people most afraid of being robbed.

I put the book under the bed and sat at the window, waiting and planning. I figured out how I was going to smuggle my treasure out of Miss Moore's rooming house, and where I could hide it until Fearless's problems had been solved.

After that I started to think about Bartholomew Perry. If I could find him what should I do? Milo would want me to report to him. Winifred L. Fine would also expect an accounting. Of course, there was Leora Hartman, Kit Mitch.e.l.l, and, most of all, the Los Angeles Police Department that I had to be concerned with.

I needed BB to talk to me, and that meant I needed Fearless. Fearless to keep BB from running away and Fearless to help me understand. That was because even though I knew the majority of words in the English dictionary, it was Fearless who understood the twists and turns of the human heart.

But before any of that came to pa.s.s I needed Charlotta.

She came to my door at three. I gave her a weak kiss. That's because my pa.s.sions weren't under the covers but under the bed with my book at that particular moment.

"Did you find out where he is?" I asked her.

"Don't you wanna kiss me some more, baby?" she replied.

"After I get my fifty dollars I'll kiss you from your toes to your ears and everywhere in between," I said. "But let me get this pistol from out my back first."

"You promise?" she asked.

"You got skin like honey," I said, "only it taste better'n that. I just need to make sure I live long enough to enjoy it."

She gave me a small piece of paper that had an address and phone number on it.

"I had to lie to a man to get that," she said.

"To whom?" I asked, falling a little bit out of character with my language.

"Well, you know Kit told me that BB loves Sister Sue's Chicken and Ribs. An' they deliver. I went over there an' told Rooney, the delivery man, that BB had made me pregnant and I had to get to him to help me fix it before it was too late."

"And he believed that?"

"You got his numbers in your hand."

"Well, it's gonna be worth it," I replied. "But can you do me one more favor?"

"What?"

"You got a suitcase in your room? Just a small one, or maybe a hatbox?"

"Yeah. How come?"

"I'll make your cut twenty dollars if you let me borrow it."

I once read a book that claimed mathematics is the universal language of mankind-but I never believed it. Money is the talk of the world. Charlotta ran down to her room and got back with a small powder blue suitcase that had red heart decals along the side.

I kissed her and hurried her off. Then I packed my bound booty under one of Miss Moore's spare sheets.

MY EFFORTS WERE NOT WASTED. The landlady was waiting at the front door when I got there. The landlady was waiting at the front door when I got there.

"Are you just getting out of bed, Mr. Hendricks?" She used a sweet voice to ask her question, but I could tell from the way she s.p.a.ced her words that it was a test of my moral fiber.

"I spent the whole day writing wedding invitations on paper I borrowed from that nice Charlotta Netters," I said, "one hundred and nineteen. She let me use her suitcase to take 'em down to the post office."

"She already started her mess on you, huh?" Miss Moore asked and answered.

I knew that bringing up Charlotta would keep the landlady from questioning my suitcase. No older woman would ever like Charlotta. She was like an overripe peach on your favorite tablecloth-bound to leave a stain.

I CALLED AMBROSIA'S HOUSE from a phone booth a few blocks away and got Fearless after only a few curses. I told him where to pick me up. He was there in less than ten minutes. from a phone booth a few blocks away and got Fearless after only a few curses. I told him where to pick me up. He was there in less than ten minutes.

"Open up the trunk, Fearless."

"What for?"

"I need to keep this suitcase back there while we runnin' the streets."

"What you got in there?" Fearless asked.

"A book I picked up for my antiquarian collection."

"Your what?"

"The collection I just started. This is the first book."

IF CHARLOTTA'S INFORMATION WAS RIGHT, then Bartholomew was staying in a room above a drugstore on Jefferson. Fearless and I went to the address and sat out front in Ambrosia's Chrysler. We didn't have much to talk about on the ride over. Fearless had spent all his time in bed with Ambrosia and I had spent the night worried about somebody stealing the book I had stolen.

"What now, Paris?" Fearless asked.

"I guess we should go up there."

"Okay."

"You got a gun, Fearless?"

"Yeah. In the glove compartment."

"Maybe you better pull it out, then."

"You scared'a Bartholomew Perry?"

"Somebody's been killin' people, man," I said. "The Wexlers got killed and Timmerman almost wasted us. It would just make me more comfortable to know that we had some firepower on our side."

"Why don't you take it then?"

That was Fearless's way of teasing. He knew that I was useless with guns. I couldn't shoot straight and just holding a gun made me nervous. I had been disarmed more than once by men I had drawn down on.

Fearless laughed and pocketed the pistol.

We crossed the street and went through a side entrance, climbed three flights of stairs, and came to a door with the number eight stenciled on it.

"Friendly?" Fearless asked.

"Neutral, I think," was my response.

I knocked on the door. We could hear a heavy man's footsteps. He approached the door and then remained silent for a full five seconds.

"Who is it?" Bartholomew called out.

"Plumber," I said in a loud voice I rarely use.

"I ain't called no plumber," came the reply.

"There's a leak in the walls," I said reasonably. "Landlord wants me to check every floor until we find it."

"I don't see no water."

"It's in the walls," I said again. "If it goes on, he's gonna have to spend a whole lotta money tearing out the side of the building."

The lock clicked and the door came open four inches, held fast by the security chain. That was my cue to stand back.

"Let me see you," Bartholomew said.

Fearless rammed his shoulder against the door. BB shrieked and the chain broke. The door flew inward, throwing the bulbous occupant to the floor. Fearless rushed in and grabbed Bartholomew by the neck as I hurried the door shut.

"Don't say a word," Fearless warned BB, and then he let go of the young man's throat.

"What you want with me, Fearless Jones? I ain't done nuthin' to you."

"Where's Kit Mitch.e.l.l?" I asked.

"I don't know."

"You don't wanna lie to us, son," I said. "This is serious business and a man could die takin' the wrong stand."

"I don't know where he is. I ain't seen him in almost a week."

"What about that girlfriend'a yours?" I asked.

"What girlfriend?"

"That white girl, that Minna Wexler."