False Memory Part 72

"I don't have a pathological aversion to authority," Dusty said, angry with himself for feeling the need to respond, striving to keep his voice calm, even friendly. "I have a legitimate aversion to the notion that a bunch of elitists should tell everyone else what to do and what to think. I have an aversion to self-appointed experts."

"Sherwood," said Claudette, "you don't advance your argument whatsoever when you use unintentional oxymorons like self-appointed experts. self-appointed experts."

With a remarkably straight face and measured tone, Martie said, "Actually, Claudette, it wasn't an oxymoron. It was a metonymy in which he was subst.i.tuting self-appointed self-appointed for the more vulgar if more accurate for the more vulgar if more accurate arrogant a.s.shole arrogant a.s.shole experts." experts."

If he'd ever had the slightest doubt that he would love Martie forever, Dusty knew now that they would be bonded through eternity.

As if she had not heard her daughter-in-law, Claudette said to Skeet, "Derek is absolutely correct, Holden, as to both issues. He wasn't judging you. He's not that kind of person. And you do, of course, have dissociative fantasies. Until you acknowledge your condition, you're never going to heal."

Getting across the threshold, although difficult, was always less of a challenge than moving beyond the foyer.

"Holden has stopped taking his medications," Derek Lampton told Dusty, while his gaze slid down and lingered again on the shape of Martie's b.r.e.a.s.t.s.

"You had me on seven prescriptions," Skeet said. "By the time I took all of them in the morning, I didn't have room for breakfast."

"You will never be able to realize your potential," Claudette admonished, "until you acknowledge your condition and address it."

"I think he should have stopped taking his medications a long time ago," Dusty said.

Looking up from Martie's b.r.e.a.s.t.s, Lampton said, "Holden's recovery isn't facilitated when he's confused by uneducated advice."

"His father facilitated his recovery until he was nine, and you've facilitated it since." Dusty forced a smile and a light tone that he knew fooled no one. "And so far all I've seen is a lot of facilitating and no recovery."

Brightening, Skeet said, "Mother, did you know my father's name isn't really Holden Caulfield? It was Sam Farner before he had it legally changed."

Claudette's eyes pinched. "You're fantasizing again, Holden."

"No, it's true. I've got the proof at home. Maybe that's what Ahriman meant, after he shot me, when he called him a fraud."

Claudette pointed a finger at Dusty. "You encourage him to go off his medications, and this is where it leads." To Skeet, she said, "This Ahriman person called me a wh.o.r.e. Am I to a.s.sume, Holden, you think that word fits me as well as you think fraud fraud fits your father?" fits your father?"

Dusty's head was filled with that ominous buzzing that usually didn't afflict him until he had been in this house for at least half an hour. Desperate to get back to the urgent issue, he said, "Derek, why would Mark Ahriman harbor such animosity toward you?"

"Because I've exposed him for what he is."

"And what is he?"

"A charlatan."

"And when did you expose him?"

"Every chance I get," Lampton said, his mink eyes gleaming with dark glee.

Moving to her husband's side, slipping an arm around his waist, giving him a playful hug, Claudette said, "When foolish men like this Mark Ahriman get stung by my Derek's wit, they don't forget it."

"How?" Martie pressed. "How did you expose him?"

"a.n.a.lytical essays in two of the better journals," Lampton said, "putting his empty theories and his jejune prose under a spotlight."

"Why?"

"I was appalled by how many psychologists were beginning to take him seriously. The man's not an intellectual. He's the worst kind of poseur."

"And that's it?" Martie asked. "A couple of essays?"

Lampton's pointy teeth flashed. The corners of his eyes crinkled. Although this was an expression of mirth, he looked as though he had just spotted a mouse that he intended to snare and rip to bits. "Oh, lawdy, Miss Claudy, they don't understand what it means to be on the receiving end of a Lampton blitz, do they?"

"I think I do," Skeet said, but neither his mother nor his stepfather appeared to hear him.

As if Lampton had been witty or naughty, or both, Claudette let out a brief girlish giggle, as full of genuine humor as the rattle of a diamondback.

"Oh, lawdy, Miss Claudy," Lampton repeated, doing a jive wiggle and snapping his fingers, as if he thought he was making with the latest of street vernacular. "Essays in two journals. Some quite clever guerrilla warfare. And a parody of his style for 'Bookend,' the last page in The New York Times Book Review- The New York Times Book Review-"

"Wickedly funny," Claudette a.s.sured them.

"-plus I reviewed his latest for a major syndicate, and the review ended up in seventy-eight newspapers nationwide. I have all the clippings. Can you believe that dreadful book has been on the Times Times list for seventy-eight weeks?" list for seventy-eight weeks?"

"You mean Learn to Love Yourself Learn to Love Yourself?" Martie asked.

"Pop-psych slush," Lampton declared. "It's probably done more damage to the American psyche than any book published in a decade."

"Seventy-eight weeks," Dusty said. "Is that a long time to be on the list?"

"For a book in this category, it's forever," said Lampton "How long was your last book on the list?"

Suddenly taking the high road, Lampton said, "I really don't count. Popular success isn't the issue. The quality of the work is the issue, how much impact it has on society, how many people it helps."

"Seems to me it was twelve or fourteen weeks," Dusty said.

"Oh, no, it was more than that," Lampton said.

"Fifteen, then."

Squirming with the need to have his accomplishment properly reported, but now in a trap of his own devising, Lampton looked at Claudette for help, and she said, "Twenty-two weeks it was on the list. Derek never cares about these things, but I do. I'm proud of him. Twenty-two weeks is a very good run, very good indeed for a work of substance."

"Well, there you have the problem, of course," Lampton lamented. "Pop-psych slush will always do better than solid work. It might not help anyone worth a d.a.m.n, but it's easy to read."

"And the American public," Claudette said, "is as lazy and as poorly educated as it is in need of sound psychological counseling."

Looking at Martie, Dusty said, "We're talking about Derek's Dare to Be Your Own Best Friend. Dare to Be Your Own Best Friend."

"I couldn't get through it," Skeet said.

"You're certainly bright enough to," Claudette told him. "But when you don't take your medication, your learning disability roars right back, and you can't read your name. 'Medicate to educate.'"

Glancing toward the living room, Dusty wondered what percentage of visitors ever made it farther than the foyer.

Skeet found a little more courage. "I don't have any trouble reading my fantasy novels, with or without medication."

"Your fantasy novels," said Lampton, "are part of the problem, Holden, not part of the cure."

"What about the guerrilla warfare?" Dusty asked.

Everyone regarded him with puzzlement.

"You said you used some clever guerrilla warfare against Mark Ahriman," Dusty reminded Lampton.

That coop-raiding, mouse-ripping smile again. "Come on, I'll show you!"

Lampton led them upstairs.

Valet was waiting in the second-floor hall, apparently because he had been too intimidated by the war zone in the foyer.

Martie and Dusty paused to cuddle him, to scratch under his chin, to rub behind his ears, and in return he lashed them with tongue and tail.

If he'd had a choice, Dusty would have preferred to sit on the floor and spend the rest of the day with Valet. Other than Skeet's hug-Ouch, ouch, ouch!-the dog's welcome was the only real and true moment Dusty had experienced since ringing the doorbell.

Lampton rapped on a door farther along the hall. Glancing back at Dusty and Martie, he said, "Come on, come on."

Claudette and Skeet went into a room on the opposite side of the hall: Lampton's study.

Although no one had spoken an invitation that Dusty could hear, Lampton opened the door on which he'd knocked, and when they caught up to him, they crossed the threshold after him.

This was Junior's bedroom. Dusty hadn't been here in about four years, since Derek Lampton Jr. was eleven. Back then, the decor had been sports-related. Posters of basketball and soccer stars.

Now all the walls and the ceiling were painted glossy black, and these surfaces soaked up the light, so the room seemed dark even with three hundred watts' worth of lamps aglow. The iron-pipe headboard of the bed was black, and the sheets and spread on it were black, too. The desk and chair were black, as were the bookshelves. The natural-finish maple floor, so lovely through much of the rest of the house, had been painted black. The only color in the room was provided by the spines of the books on the black shelves, and by a pair of full-size flags stapled to the ceiling: the red field, white circle, and black swastika of the flag that Adolph Hitler had attempted to plant across the globe, and the hammer-and-sickle flag of the former Soviet Union. Four years ago, sports histories, sports biographies, books about archery, and science-fiction novels had crowded the shelves. Those had been replaced by books about Dachau, Auschwitz, Buchenwald, the Soviet gulags, the Ku Klux Klan, Jack the Ripper, several modern real-life serial killers, and a few mad bombers.

Junior himself was dressed in white sneakers, white socks, tan chinos, and a white shirt. He was lying on the bed, reading a book that featured a pile of decomposing human bodies on the dust jacket, and because of the high contrast between the boy and the black-satin bedclothes, he appeared to be levitating like a yogi.

"Hey, bro, how're you doing?" Dusty asked awkwardly. He never knew what to say to his half brother, as they were largely strangers. He had left home-fled-twelve years ago, when Junior was only three.

"Do I look dead yet?" Junior asked sullenly.

Actually, the boy appeared to be magnificently magnificently alive, too alive for this world, as though he were supercharged with a spectral energy pumped into him from a wall socket in the Beyond, so that he glowed. He hadn't been cursed with any of his father's slippery mink looks; Fate had decided to lavish his mother's genes on him, to bless him with a perfect form and perfect features, as had been given to none of her other children. If one day he ever decided to ascend to a stage, take a microphone in his hand, and sing, regardless of whether his voice was good or merely adequate, he would be bigger than Elvis and the Beatles and Ricky Martin combined, and both young women and young men would scream and weep and throw themselves at the stage, and a significant percentage of them would be pleased, if asked, to cut themselves and offer blood. alive, too alive for this world, as though he were supercharged with a spectral energy pumped into him from a wall socket in the Beyond, so that he glowed. He hadn't been cursed with any of his father's slippery mink looks; Fate had decided to lavish his mother's genes on him, to bless him with a perfect form and perfect features, as had been given to none of her other children. If one day he ever decided to ascend to a stage, take a microphone in his hand, and sing, regardless of whether his voice was good or merely adequate, he would be bigger than Elvis and the Beatles and Ricky Martin combined, and both young women and young men would scream and weep and throw themselves at the stage, and a significant percentage of them would be pleased, if asked, to cut themselves and offer blood.

"What's this?" Dusty wondered, indicating the black room and the flags on the ceiling.

"What's it look like?" Junior asked.

"Post-Goth?"

"Goth sucks. It's for children."

"Looks like you're practicing for death," Martie said.

"Closer," Junior said.

"What's the point of that?"

Junior put his book aside. "What's the point of anything else?"

"Because we all die, you mean?"

"It's why we're here," Junior said. "To think about it. To watch it happen to other people. To prepare for it. And then to do it and be gone."

"What's this?" Dusty asked again, but this time he directed the question to his stepfather.

"Most adolescent boys, like Derek here, go through a period of intense fascination with death, and each of them thinks he has deeper thoughts about the subject than anyone before him has had," Lampton said, talking about his son as though Junior couldn't hear. When Dusty and Skeet had lived under his thumb, he'd done the same with them, talking about them as though they were interesting lab animals who didn't understand a word of what he was saying. "s.e.x and death. They're the the big issues in adolescence. Both boys and girls, but most especially boys, are obsessive about both subjects. Periodically they go through phases that are borderline psychotic. It's a matter of hormonal imbalance, and the best thing to do is let them indulge the obsession, because nature will correct the imbalance soon enough." big issues in adolescence. Both boys and girls, but most especially boys, are obsessive about both subjects. Periodically they go through phases that are borderline psychotic. It's a matter of hormonal imbalance, and the best thing to do is let them indulge the obsession, because nature will correct the imbalance soon enough."

"Well, gee, I don't remember being obsessed with death," Martie said.

"You were," Lampton said, as though he'd known her as a child, "but you sublimated it into other interests-Barbie dolls, makeup."

"Makeup is a sublimation of a death obsession?"

"How obvious can it be?" Lampton said with pedantic smugness. "The purpose of makeup is to defy the degradations of time, and time is just a synonym for death."

"I'm still struggling with Barbie dolls," Dusty said.

"Think about it," Lampton urged. "What is a doll but an image of a corpse? Unmoving, unbreathing, stiff, lifeless. Little girls playing with dolls are playing with corpses-and learning not to fear death excessively."

"I remember being obsessed with s.e.x," Dusty admitted, "but-"

"s.e.x is a lie," Junior said. "s.e.x is denial. People turn to s.e.x to avoid facing the truth that life is about death. It's not about creation. It's about dying."

Lampton smiled down on his son as though he might burst his shirt b.u.t.tons with pride. "Derek here has chosen to immerse himself in death for a while, in order to put the fear of it behind him much sooner than most people ever do. It's a legitimate technique for self-forced maturation."

"I haven't put it behind me," Martie noted.

"You see?" Lampton said, as if she had made his point for him. "Last year, it was s.e.x, as it always is with fourteen-year-old boys. Next year-s.e.x again, once he's done immersing himself in this."

Dusty suspected that after a year of living in this black room, obsessing on death, Junior might be the lead item on the evening news one night, and not because he had won a spelling bee.

To the boy, Lampton said, "Dusty and Martie are interested in our guerrilla operation against Mark Ahriman."

"That creep," Junior said. "You want to whack him some more?"

"Why don't we?" Lampton said, rubbing his hands together.

Junior rolled off the bed, onto his feet, stretched, and then headed out of the room. As he pa.s.sed Martie, he said, "Nice t.i.ts."

Beaming after him, Lampton said, "You see? Already, he's moving out of this phase of death obsession, even though he doesn't entirely recognize it yet."

In the past, Dusty and Martie had felt like kidnapping the boy, hiding out with him in some far place, and raising him themselves, to give him a chance at a normal life. A glance at Martie confirmed that she, like Dusty, still felt like hiding out, although perhaps from from Junior rather than Junior rather than with with him anymore. him anymore.

They followed the boy into Lampton's upstairs study, where Skeet and Claudette were waiting with Foster Newton.

Fig was standing by the window, peering out at the front yard and the driveway.