False Memory Part 17

Klick-klick.

"Sooz, for G.o.d's sake, you think maybe he's drugging you and s.c.r.e.w.i.n.g you in your sleep, but you haven't confronted him about it?"

"I can't. I shouldn't. It's forbidden."

"Forbidden?"

"Well, you know, not right, not something I can do."

"No, I don't know. What an odd word-forbidden. By whom?"

"I didn't mean forbidden. I don't know why I said that. I just meant...well, I'm not sure what I meant. I'm so confused."

Although she was distracted by her own anxiety, Martie sensed something profound in Susan's word choice, and she wouldn't drop the issue. "Forbidden by whom?"

"I've had the locks changed three times," Susan said, instead of answering the question. Her voice rose from a whisper, sharpened by a brittle note of nascent hysteria that she was struggling mightily to repress. "Always a different company. Eric can't know someone at every every locksmith, can he? And I didn't tell you this before, because maybe it makes me sound loopy, but I've dusted the windowsills with talc.u.m powder, so if he locksmith, can he? And I didn't tell you this before, because maybe it makes me sound loopy, but I've dusted the windowsills with talc.u.m powder, so if he did did come through a locked window somehow, there'd be evidence of it, there'd be handprints in the powder, some mark of disturbance, but the talc.u.m is always perfect in the morning. And I've wedged a kitchen chair under the doork.n.o.b, too, so even if the b.a.s.t.a.r.d has a key, he can't open the door, and the next morning the chair is always there, where I put it, yet I've got his come through a locked window somehow, there'd be evidence of it, there'd be handprints in the powder, some mark of disturbance, but the talc.u.m is always perfect in the morning. And I've wedged a kitchen chair under the doork.n.o.b, too, so even if the b.a.s.t.a.r.d has a key, he can't open the door, and the next morning the chair is always there, where I put it, yet I've got his stuff stuff in me, in my panties, and I'm sore, and I know I've been used, brutally, I in me, in my panties, and I'm sore, and I know I've been used, brutally, I know know it, and I shower and shower, hotter and hotter water, so hot it hurts sometimes, but I can't get clean. I never feel really clean anymore. Oh, G.o.d, sometimes I think what I need are exorcists-you know?-some priests to come here and pray over me, priests who really believe in the devil if there are any like that today, holy water and crucifixes, incense, because this is something that defies all logic, this is utterly supernatural, that's what it is, it, and I shower and shower, hotter and hotter water, so hot it hurts sometimes, but I can't get clean. I never feel really clean anymore. Oh, G.o.d, sometimes I think what I need are exorcists-you know?-some priests to come here and pray over me, priests who really believe in the devil if there are any like that today, holy water and crucifixes, incense, because this is something that defies all logic, this is utterly supernatural, that's what it is, supernatural supernatural. And now you're thinking I'm a fully rounded nutball, but I'm really not, Martie, I'm not. I'm messed up, no question about that, okay, but this is apart from the agoraphobia, this is really happening, and I can't go on like this, waking up and finding...It's creepy, disgusting. It's destroying me, but I don't know what the h.e.l.l to do. I feel helpless, Martie, I feel so vulnerable."

Klick-klick.

Martie's right arm ached from the wrist to the shoulder now, as she pressed on the drawer with all her weight, all her strength. Her jaw was clenched. Her teeth ground together.

Bright needles drew hot threads of pain up through her neck, and the pain sewed a little reason into her confusion-torn thoughts. In truth, she wasn't concerned that something would escape from the drawer. The scissors weren't magically animated like the brooms that plagued the beleaguered sorcerer's apprentice in Disney's Fantasia. Fantasia. The crisp dry sound The crisp dry sound-klick-klick-was in her mind. She was not actually afraid of the scissors or of the rolling pin, not afraid of the knives, the forks, the corkscrew, the corncob skewers, the meat thermometer. For hours now, she had known the true object of her terror, and she had fleetingly considered it several times during this strange day, but until now she had not faced it directly and without equivocation. The sole menace before which she cowered was Martine Eugenia Rhodes: She feared herself, not knives, not the hammers, not the scissors, but herself herself. She was forcing the drawer shut with unwavering determination because she was convinced that otherwise she would yank it open, would seize the shears-and, in the absence of any other victim, would rip brutally at herself with the pointed blades.

"Are you there, Martie?"

Klick-klick.

"Martie, what am I going to do?"

Martie's voice trembled with compa.s.sion, with anguish for her friend, but also with fear for herself and fear of of herself. "Sooz, this is spooky s.h.i.t, this is weirder than hoodoo." A cold brine of sweat drenched her as thoroughly as if she had just stepped out of the sea. herself. "Sooz, this is spooky s.h.i.t, this is weirder than hoodoo." A cold brine of sweat drenched her as thoroughly as if she had just stepped out of the sea. Klick-klick. Klick-klick. Her arm, shoulder, and neck ached so intensely that tears flooded her eyes. "Listen, I've got to wrap my brain around this a little while before I can advise you what to do, before I can figure out how I can help." Her arm, shoulder, and neck ached so intensely that tears flooded her eyes. "Listen, I've got to wrap my brain around this a little while before I can advise you what to do, before I can figure out how I can help."

"It's all true."

"I know it's true, Sooz."

She was frantic to be off the telephone. She must get away from the drawer, get away from the scissors that waited in it, because she couldn't escape from the violent potential within herself.

"It's happening," Susan insisted.

"I know it is. You've convinced me. That's why I've got to mull it over. Because it's so strange. We've got to be careful, be sure we do the right thing."

"I'm afraid. I'm so alone here."

"You aren't alone," Martie promised, her voice beginning to break apart, not just quaverous anymore, but quaking and cracking. "I won't let you be alone. I'll call you back."

"Martie-"

"I'll think about this, think it through-"

"-if anything happens-"

"-figure out what's best-"

"-if anything happens to me-"

"-and I'll call you back-"

"-Martie-"

"-call you back soon."

She racked the wall phone, although at first she couldn't release it. Her grip was locked around the handset. When finally she was able to let go, her hand remained cupped, holding fast to a phantom phone.

Releasing the drawer, Martie winced as cramps spasmed through her right hand. Like a clay mold, the soft interdigital pads at the base of her fingers had taken a clear impression of the drawer handle, and the metacarpals ached as if the red groove in her flesh were reflected in the bone beneath.

She backed away from the drawer until she b.u.mped against the refrigerator. Inside the fridge, bottles rattled softly against one another.

One of them was a half-empty bottle of Chardonnay, left over from dinner the previous night. A wine bottle is thick, especially at the bottom, which features a sediment-collecting, concave punt. Solid. Blunt. Effective. She could swing it like a club, crack someone's skull with it.

A broken broken wine bottle could be a particularly devastating weapon. Hold it by the neck, jagged points thrust forward. Rake it down some unsuspecting person's face, jam it into his throat. wine bottle could be a particularly devastating weapon. Hold it by the neck, jagged points thrust forward. Rake it down some unsuspecting person's face, jam it into his throat.

Slamming doors could have been no louder than the crash of her heart resonating through her body.

23.

"Urine doesn't lie," said Dr. Donklin.

From his sentinel post near the door, Valet raised his head and twitched his ears as if in agreement.

Skeet, who was now hooked to an electrocardiograph, remained in a sleep so deep that it appeared to be cryogenic suspension.

Dusty watched the tracery of green light spiking across the readout-window on the heart monitor. His brother's pulse was slow but steady, no arrhythmia.

New Life Clinic was neither a hospital nor a diagnostic lab. Nevertheless, because of the self-destructiveness and cleverness of its patients, it had the sophisticated equipment required to provide rapid a.n.a.lysis of bodily fluids for the presence of drugs.

Earlier, Skeet's initial blood samples, taken upon admission, had revealed the recipe for the chemical c.o.c.ktail with which he had started his day: methamphetamine, cocaine, DMT. Meth and c.o.ke were stimulants. Dimethyltryptamine-DMT-was a synthetic hallucinogen, similar to psilocybin, which itself was an alkaloid crystal derived from the mushroom Psilocybe mexicana Psilocybe mexicana. This const.i.tuted a breakfast with a lot more punch than oatmeal and orange juice.

a.n.a.lysis of the latest blood sample, drawn while Skeet lay in a comalike slumber, had not yet been completed; however, the urine sample, acquired by catheter, indicated that no new drugs had been introduced into his system and, moreover, that his body had largely metabolized the methamphetamine, cocaine, and DMT. For the time being, at least, he would be seeing no more of the angel of death who had induced him to leap off the Sorensons' roof.

"We'll get the same data from the second blood samples," Donklin predicted. "Because it's true, urine doesn't doesn't lie. Or in laymen's terms...there's truth in a tinkle. Pee-pee can't prevaricate." lie. Or in laymen's terms...there's truth in a tinkle. Pee-pee can't prevaricate."

Dusty wondered if the physician's bedside manner had been so irreverent when he'd had his own practice or if irreverence had come upon him after retirement, when he'd taken this for-hire position at New Life. In either case, it was refreshing.

The urine sample had also been a.n.a.lyzed for urethral casts, alb.u.min, and sugar. The results failed to support a diagnosis of either diabetic or uremic coma.

"If the new blood workup doesn't tell us anything," Dr. Donklin said, "we'll probably want to transfer him to a hospital."

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Inside the refrigerator, against which Martie leaned, the clink of gla.s.s against gla.s.s gradually subsided.

The pain in her cramped hands wrung tears from her. With the sleeves of her blouse, she blotted her eyes, but her vision remained blurred.

Her hands were hooked, as if she were clawing at an adversary-or at a crumbling ledge. Seen through a salty veil, they might have been the menacing hands of a demon in a dream.

With the image of a jaggedly broken wine bottle still vivid in her mind's eye, she remained so frightened of her potential for violence, of her unconscious intentions, that she was paralyzed.

Action. Her father's admonition. Hope lies in action. But she didn't have the clarity of mind to consider, a.n.a.lyze, and then judiciously choose the right and most effective action. Her father's admonition. Hope lies in action. But she didn't have the clarity of mind to consider, a.n.a.lyze, and then judiciously choose the right and most effective action.

She acted anyway, because if she didn't do something, something, she would lie on the floor, curl into a ball like a pill bug, and remain there until Dusty came home. By the time he arrived, she might have turned in upon herself so tightly that she'd never be able to uncurl. she would lie on the floor, curl into a ball like a pill bug, and remain there until Dusty came home. By the time he arrived, she might have turned in upon herself so tightly that she'd never be able to uncurl.

So, now, with pale resolve, push away from the refrigerator. Cross the kitchen. To the cabinet from which she'd retreated only moments ago.

Fingers hooking around the handle. Klick-klick. Klick-klick. Pulling open the drawer. The gleaming scissors. Pulling open the drawer. The gleaming scissors.

Martie almost faltered. Almost lost her shaky conviction when she saw the shiny blades.

Action. All the way out of the cabinet with the d.a.m.n drawer. All the way out. Heavier than she expected.

Or perhaps the drawer wasn't in fact as heavy as it seemed, was heavy only because, for Martie, the scissors possessed more than mere physical weight. Psychological weight, moral weight, the weight of malevolent purpose residing within the steel.

Now to the open back door. The trash can.

She tipped the drawer away from herself, intending to let the contents spill into the can. The sliding scissors rattled against other objects, and the sound so alarmed Martie that she dropped the drawer itself into the trash, along with everything it contained.

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When Tom Wong brought the results of the latest blood-sample a.n.a.lysis to Skeet's room, Dr. Donklin's prediction was fulfilled. The mystery of Skeet's condition remained unsolved.

The kid hadn't ingested drugs of any kind within the past few hours. Residual traces of this morning's indulgence were barely detectable.

His white-blood-cell count, which was normal, and his lack of fever didn't support the theory that he might be afflicted by an acute meningeal infection. Or any infection whatsoever.

If the problem were food poisoning, specifically botulism, the coma would have been preceded by vomiting and stomach pain, and most likely by diarrhea, as well. Skeet hadn't suffered from any of those complaints.

Although clear symptoms of apoplexy were not apparent, the grave possibilities of cerebral hemorrhage, embolism, and thrombosis must be reconsidered.

"This isn't a rehab case, anymore," Dr. Donklin decided. "Where do you prefer we transfer him?"

Dusty said, "Hoag Hospital, if they have an open bed."

"Something's happening here," Tom Wong noted, drawing their attention to the electrocardiograph.

Because the annoying audio module on the EKG was switched off, neither Dusty nor Donklin had noticed that Skeet's pulse rate had increased. The tracery of green light and the digital readout indicated that it was up from a low of forty-six beats per minute to fifty-four.

Suddenly yawning, stretching, Skeet opened his eyes.

His heart rate, now up to sixty beats per minute, was still rising.

Skeet blinked at Tom Wong, at Dr. Donklin, and at Dusty. "Hey, we havin' a party or something?"

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The open bottle of Chardonnay, two bottles of Chablis that were unopened: into the trash can.

In the laundry room, hideous weapons. A bottle of blinding, suffocating ammonia. Bleach. A lye-based drain cleaner. All of it into the trash.

She remembered the matches. In a kitchen cabinet. In a tall tin container that had once held biscotti. Several books of paper matches. Boxes of short wooden matches. A bundle of matches with ten-inch sticks, used to light the floating wicks in long-necked gla.s.s oil lamps.

If a person were capable of raking a broken wine bottle across an innocent victim's face, if a person were dangerous enough to have no compunction about plunging a car key into a loved one's eye, then setting fire to him-or to an entire house-would pose no significant moral hurdle.

Martie dropped the unopened container of matches into the trash can, and the contents made a raspy sound like a rattlesnake issuing a warning.

A quick trip to the living room. So much to do, so much to do. The gas fireplace featured a set of realistic-looking ceramic logs. A battery-fired butane match lay on the hearth.

Returning to the open kitchen door, dropping the butane match into the trash can on the back porch, Martie was troubled by the possibility that she had turned on the gas in the fireplace. She had no reason to turn it on, and she had no memory of having done so, but she didn't trust herself.

Didn't dare dare trust herself. trust herself.

With the valve cranked wide open, a mortal flood of natural gas would escape in a minute or two. Any spark might set off an explosion powerful enough to destroy the house.

To the living room again. Like a frantic character in a video game. Ricocheting from peril to peril.

No rotten-egg odor.

No hiss of escaping gas.

The geared shank of the valve protruded from the wall beside the hearth. A key chuck was required to turn it, and the bra.s.s key lay on the mantel.

Relieved, Martie left the room. By the time she returned to the kitchen, however, she was once more concerned that in the grip of a fugue, she had keyed on the gas after after satisfying herself that it was off. satisfying herself that it was off.