Exit Strategy Part 24

"We can handle it."

"We?"

"Yeah. Need your help. It'll be okay. Safe." When I didn't respond, he added, "No miniskirts."

"I'll think about it."

I saw the note the moment I walked into my room. It wasn't obvious, a small square of paper partly tucked under the bedside lamp. But when I stepped in, I automatically did a visual sweep. And so I saw the note-something that had not been there before.

I unfolded it. A newspaper article on white copy paper, printed from the Internet. I knew it came from Evelyn. Anything Jack wanted to convey to me, he'd say. Language might not be his forte, but I couldn't imagine him communicating any other way-certainly not through clandestine notes in my bedroom.

My gaze went first to the headline: "Accused Pedophile Freed."

I sat on the edge of the bed and read the rest of the article. It was taken from a Wisconsin paper and detailed the sort of crime that, while it makes headline news locally, rarely goes further, not because it is insignificant but because, quite simply, it happens too often to qualify as news.

A middle-aged man, leader of some youth organization, had been accused of molesting boys on camping trips in a list of crimes stretching back a decade, resulting-the prosecution had claimed-in two victim suicides. He was also believed to own a lucrative online child p.o.r.nography business, and the police had found boxes of evidence in his home.

Unable to prove the business allegations, they'd settled for possession of child p.o.r.nography, plus the molestation charges. Nothing stuck. His lawyer claimed the p.o.r.n had been illegally seized, and a judge had agreed. That then excluded all photographic evidence of his molestation crimes from the trial. Left with only victim testimony-from boys who'd gone on to have their own run-ins with the police, psychiatric problems and substance abuse issues-a jury had decided this fine, upstanding citizen was being railroaded by ungrateful juvenile delinquents. Case closed.

Not an unusual story, though that didn't keep my hands from clenching on the paper as I read it. Then I read the small yellow paper attached to the bottom. A sticky note with numbers on it. A figure: $100,000.

I understood what I was holding. A job offer.

My first "target" had been a pedophile. Not that prost.i.tute-killing thug the Toma.s.sinis set me on, but the first criminal I'd ever hunted. I'd been seventeen, a few months from finishing high school, already making plans to attend police college.

The man had been accused of s.e.xually and physically a.s.saulting two boys in his apartment building, one six years old, one seven. He'd lived in Kitchener, a city a half-hour from our town, meaning the case had hit our papers, had been discussed-in detail-in our living room, over poker, those games I'd once catered and now joined, even getting a bottle of beer after my mother retired to bed, though my father drew the line at the rye and Scotch.

Over those poker games and from hanging out at the station, I'd heard more about the case than the average citizen. And I knew, as every cop in that part of the province knew, that the guy was guilty. But things had gone wrong. There'd been only two victims, one too terrified to talk and one who'd recanted his story at the last minute-some said his family had been bought off by the wealthy defendant.

I'd shared everyone's outrage and frustration, partic.i.p.ated in the debates and agreed that this experience wouldn't scare the guy straight-if such a thing was possible for a pedophile. Yet my own feelings about it didn't go much deeper than that. Or so I'd thought.

A month later, I'd been at the rifle range with an older cousin, a constable on the Kitchener force. After Amy's murder, my father had introduced me to marksmanship. In it, I'd found a place where caution and planning were not only appreciated, but vital to success. Just follow the rules, work out every contingency and success is predictable in a way life never can be. Through my teens, marksmanship had been my favorite hobby-my outlet and my escape. But that day, I discovered something even better.

We were there, my cousin and I, at the range, when the accused pedophile walked in.

"That's him over there, Nadia," my cousin said, pointing out a pleasant-looking man in his late thirties. "Looks like he's getting some training. A little nervous maybe? Feeling like someone's gunning for him?" He snorted. "I wish. b.a.s.t.a.r.d deserves a bullet-right through the nuts. That'd solve his 'problem.'"

I'd said nothing. I never did. I would partic.i.p.ate in the debates and discussions on a purely philosophical level. But, taking my cue from my father, I never let it get personal, never let my frustration descend into wishes and threats. Not aloud, anyway. So I'd only nodded, and continued with my practice.

But in that moment, something happened. Maybe it was seeing that man. Maybe it was hearing my cousin's words. Maybe it was witnessing the man's fear-as he struggled to shoot a gun, trying to feel safe, when I was only twenty feet away, holding a gun myself and knowing-should I turn it on him-he'd never have a chance. Knowing that he'd be as helpless as the boys he'd abused.

Whatever the reason, at that moment I realized I had the power to do something. I wasn't thirteen anymore, helpless, hearing my cousin being raped. Only four years later, I had changed. I had power. I could fight and I could shoot, and I had the will and confidence to do both.

When the man left, I followed him. I'd driven my parents' car, so I told my cousin I was feeling unwell and he never thought anything of it. Even if he'd noticed the man leave before me, he didn't see a connection because I was just his teenage cousin, the one who drove seniors to church on Sunday and always had a friendly word for everyone.

I spent the rest of the day following the man. I took notes. By the end, I knew where he lived, where he shopped and where he liked to park his car-in a quiet lane behind the school where he could watch the little boys playing tag.

He watched them. I watched him.

For three weeks, I followed him. Not every day-I had school-but every few days I'd head to the city and find him. Then, when I had his routine down, I considered what I could do. Considered what would be a proper punishment for his crimes, a sufficient deterrent.

I read up on pedophiles. Read about treatments. While the therapy sessions sounded very nice and proper, I'd heard enough stories about criminals and their misuse of the psychiatric system. Chemical castration seemed far more effective. Impossible for a teenage girl to pull off, though. So it would have to be true castration. I considered that for a long time, whether the punishment fit the crime, whether preventing future molestation would justify such an extreme measure.

As I studied, fear crept into my gut. The fear that I would be found out, that my dark thoughts would show on my face, in my manner. I imagined my father discovering my notes and my books, and that was almost enough to stop me.

But while I was plotting to castrate a pedophile, my world revolved as it should. My mother alternated between ignoring me and hara.s.sing me over imagined misdeeds. My brother just ignored me. My boyfriend still kissed me, still looked into my eyes and mangled misremembered love poems in a vain attempt to get into my pants. My friends still phoned, still sought my company, still told me their secrets. And my father still waited for me, at the station, every day after school. Waited for me to arrive, coffees in hand, and join him in his office, where we'd share our day before heading home.

If I'd changed, no one noticed.

So I continued to plot. Studied methods. Examined my target's schedule. Came up with a plan. How I would carry it out. Then I closed my books, burned my notes and placed an anonymous pay phone call to the Kitchener police, telling them about the man's voyeuristic habits.

Three months later, he was brought up on fresh charges stemming from surveillance. Justice was served.

And now, in my hands, I held another chance.

I read the article again. Looked at the man's picture.

I could do it. But where would it lead?

Did I want to go there?

Did I want Evelyn to be the one to take me there?

To Evelyn, I was a project. Something to be made better. Something to be used? Maybe. But a project nonetheless. And here, in my hand, was the lure.

I folded the paper and put it into my bag.

It was past two. I'd gone to bed an hour ago. I was coming out of the bathroom, heading toward my room when a shadow moved. I started, then saw Jack silhouetted in his open bedroom door.

"Oh," he said. "You were just-" He waved toward the bathroom. "Thought you were heading down."

I managed a small smile. "Trying not to, but losing the battle."

"Come on."

He waved me to the kitchen table and got out the cocoa and sugar containers. When it was made, he brought over my mug and sat across from me.

"You okay?" he asked.

"Sure."

He studied me. "That letter. Doesn't mean s.h.i.t. We're getting close."

"Sure."

We sat there for a few minutes, the quiet broken only by the drumming of Jack's fingers. He cast a few glances at the window overlooking the driveway.

"Want me to grab your cigarettes?" I asked.

A tiny smile. "That obvious?"

"Stressful day." I lifted my mug. "This is my fix. I suppose Evelyn wouldn't be keen on you smoking in the house, but we can step outside if you'd like."

"d.a.m.ned cold..."

"I don't mind if you don't. A little fresh air might help us sleep."

Jack lit a cigarette, took a drag and made a face. Then he took another one.

My soft laugh echoed through the backyard. "Tastes like s.h.i.t, but it does the job, huh?"

"Yeah."

We were leaning on the railing, side by side, staring out into the night. There was a sharp wind coming from the north, but Jack had moved close, blocking it for me. I had my hands wrapped around my still-warm mug, sipping it as Jack smoked.

I longed to ask him about Evelyn. To tell him about her "offer." Not to set him against her, but to get his opinion, as the person who knew her best. When he said this was my decision to make, I knew he meant that. I also knew that accepting this job, accepting Evelyn's help, wouldn't mean giving up his. He'd never make me choose.

Would she she? Maybe. As fond as she was of Jack, she wasn't one to share.

Two years ago, Jack hadn't wanted me becoming Evelyn's project. Why? What danger was there in accepting the tutelage of the woman who'd trained him, a person he still obviously trusted, still had a relationship with?

Good enough for him. Why not good enough for me two years ago? And what had changed now?

So many questions-and here, alone in the dark, I could have asked. I should have asked. But I couldn't find the right words. So we stood there looking out over the yard. I drank my hot chocolate, shared his cigarette and his company...and asked him nothing.

The next morning, Evelyn didn't mention the "offer." Nor did I. We had breakfast, then Jack and I got ready to go. Back to Little Joe. As Jack promised, I was miniskirt free. No high heels or push-up bras, either. My outfit was pretty much what I'd normally wear at this time of year-jeans, a turtleneck and a denim jacket. The disguise started at the neck, with Evelyn's long brunette wig and my new green contacts. I'd added a needle-thin scar under my eye, the kind of distinguishing feature that doesn't really stand out, but would be the first thing you'd mention in a witness ID.

Jack had dressed casually as well-in jeans and a thick pullover that, with some padding, bulked him out from well built to hefty. A sandy-brown wig and gla.s.ses, and he was the other half of a middle-cla.s.s couple going to visit an old family friend in the nursing home.

As Jack drove, the radio station we were listening to faded. I flipped the dial and caught: "-killer's demand was delivered to over fifty media outlets at 9 a.m. eastern standard time. The FBI has requested a publication ban until they verify that it is not a hoax, but fledgling network TNC has announced plans to air it in a special broadcast at ten this morning-"

I glanced at the car stereo clock: 9:43.

"Do you think any of the radio stations will carry it?" I said. "Or should I call Evelyn, get her to watch, maybe tape it?"

Jack was already steering onto the off-ramp.

"Where-?"

"Place with TVs. Lots of 'em."

Before us was a wall of television screens, all tuned to the nearest TNC affiliate. Between us and those screens was another wall-one of flesh and bone-as we stood in the midst of a mob seven or eight people deep, all crowded into the department store's home electronics department. Even the staff was there, in the first row, having weaseled through the crowd on the pretense of "monitoring the volume levels."

The store was already warm, and the added crush of bodies wasn't helping. Nor was the overpowering cologne on the young man to my left. I supposed the strong musky scent was intended to provoke some hormonal response, to make him irresistible to women, but it reminded me of the racc.o.o.n's nest I'd cleaned from the boathouse this summer.

"This is a special TNC broadcast-" a man's voice intoned.

As the crowd hushed, I lifted onto my tiptoes and leaned right to see past the head of a mountainous man in front of me. The announcer seemed to be explaining how the letter had been delivered, but I caught only a smattering of words through the whispers of the couple to my right. The text version of the newsman's words scrolled across the screen, and if I could just lean a little more to the right, I'd be able to-The man stepped squarely in front of me.

A hand reached around my waist and Jack tugged me over, squeezing me in front of him for a perfect view.

"Thanks," I whispered. "Can you still see the-?"

"Don't need to."

I knew he wasn't just saying that to be polite. He would have been content to continue on to see Little Joe, and get the update later. We were here for me.

After five minutes of recapping the delivery of this letter, and the contents of the one from the day before, the newscaster finally revealed the main prize-lifting a sheet of paper with such care and gravitas that you'd think it was the original Declaration of Independence.

"'Dear Mr. and Mrs. Citizen,'" he read. "'I will keep this brief. You already know that your law-enforcement agencies cannot protect you, so there is no need for me to spell out the danger faced by each of you, and your loved ones. My demand is simple. In return for a one-time cash payment, I will end the killings. I don't ask for a lot. It is perhaps the cheapest insurance policy you will ever buy. The cost: one dollar.

"'As an act of faith, all I ask is that the president of the United States appear on CNN before noon today and promise me that I will be paid one dollar for each adult citizen. If noon pa.s.ses without that promise, I will make my own promise: one dead citizen by 12:01. And that is only the beginning.'"

There the letter ended. When the announcer stopped reading, the crowd didn't budge, either waiting for more or too stunned to move. Jack put his hand against the small of my back and prodded me out. We were in the parking lot before I spoke.

"One dollar for every adult? That's...hundreds of millions."

Jack nodded and reached for his keys.

"How would he transport that much money? You can't just pack it in a suitcase."

"Doesn't matter. Two hundred dollars. Two hundred million. Same thing. Can't be paid."

It took a moment to realize what he meant. "Because the U.S. government has a policy of refusing to bargain with terrorists. He must know that. Does he expect them to make an exception?"

"Maybe. Could just be a game."

"Asking for money he knows he'll never see? What kind of game is that?"