Every Living Thing Part 8

"Aye, don't start blamin' him! I'm not havin' that!" He gave me a disapproving scowl. "With all he's got to think about, you can't expect 'im to remember everything."

I opened my mouth, but no words came.

I had never seen Mr. Craggs smile, but his granite features relaxed a little and an almost dreamy look came into his eyes. "By gaw, he does know a lot, does that lad- ah've never met anybody with such learnin'. Ah'll tell tha summat, 'erriot. He came to a bullock wi' foul in the foot and 'e didn't mess about wi' tar and salt for a week like you do. Never touched the flippin' foot. All 'e did was inject into the shoulder, and t'beast was better in two days. What d'ye make of that, eh?" He tapped me on the chest.

I knew he wouldn't believe me if I told him that I, too, was using the new sulphadimidine injection now, so I didn't say anything.

"And ah'll tell tha summat else," he went on. "It was the right leg that was lame, but 'e injected into the left shoulder." His eyes widened. "It was like magic!"

"Good...good..." I croaked. "Well, I'll get you that liniment."

I brought the bottle from the dispensary and handed it to him. "Well, here it is, Mr. Craggs. I'm sorry you've had an extra journey."

The big man shook his head. "Nay, that makes no matter. It only takes a few minutes to get 'ere."

As if in a dream, I saw him out of the door, and as I watched him walk down the street, one thought was uppermost. If John could touch the heart of Sep Craggs his future was a.s.sured.

In fact, I think it was then that I realised that John was destined for something big. I had from the start begun to detect the seeds of greatness in him because of his uncanny ability to get through to people of all stations in life. It wasn't just his appearance, his confident approach, his rich voice, there was something else, and I couldn't quite identify it, but whatever it was, everything about him stamped him as the "young man most likely to succeed."

Chapter 11.

JOHN'S HOMETOWN WAS BEVERLEY, with its glorious Minster, fifty miles from Darrowby, and on his half-days he usually went home for a few hours. Over the next year as he talked to me about these visits a girl's name began to crop up more and more frequently. She was called Heather, and whenever he mentioned her his eyes were inclined to take on a faraway look and his features to fall into an ethereal smile. These symptoms became more and more marked over the months until one day he confided to me that he was engaged and that Heather and he hoped to marry soon.

One wintry day I was kicking the snow off my boots in the porch at Skeldale House when John appeared in the doorway.

"Heather's inside," he said a little breathlessly. "She's in the office-I'd like you to meet her."

I wanted to meet her, too. In fact I was agog after all I had heard about her. I straightened my tie, flattened down my hair, and strode with seignorial briskness into the room. Unfortunately I had a ball of snow stuck on my heel and as I came through the door I took off on the smooth linoleum, soared through the air and landed with a sickening crash on my back on the other side of the room. When I opened my eyes I found I was looking up at a very attractive dark girl who was making valiant efforts to keep her face straight.

That was how I met Heather-looking up at her-and I have looked up to her and admired her ever since. There are all sorts of words to describe her in her future marriage to John-cherished partner through life, staunch helpmeet, happy companion-she was all those things and the mother of three splendid children to boot.

After that first meeting, John's wooing proceeded apace and I could see that his impending marriage was more and more on his mind. The previous symptoms became more and more acute and he confessed to short bouts of amnesia when he had to stop his car in the middle of the country on his rounds and try to remember where he was going and what he had to do. Occasionally I caught him smiling to himself and it was clear that his thoughts were on something rather wonderful ahead.

Just how much his future was preoccupying him became clear one wet afternoon. One of our farmers phoned me.

"I've had a message pa.s.sed on to say that Mr. Crooks's fiancee has been taken ill. He'd just left my place and I thought I'd missed 'im, but I saw that his car had got stuck in the ford just beyond our gate."

"Oh, dear, I'd better come and get him."

"Nay, there's no need. I slipped down in my car and gave him the message and he jumped out and asked me to run 'im to Darrowby station. He caught a train and he was off."

"Gosh, that was quick."

"Aye, by gaw, he didn't mess about!"

"And where's the car now?"

"Still stuck in t'water."

"Right. Thanks for letting me know. I'll come out with my partner and we'll fetch it back...."

The scene that met Siegfried and me when we got to the ford is one of the vivid memories of John's time with us. There was a dip in the narrow, hill-girt road where the beck flowed over the tarmac and John's little Ford 8 was standing there, axle-deep in the water. There were signs of a hasty exit-the driver's door was hanging open and the windscreen wipers were still in motion, flip-flopping lazily across the gla.s.s. John hadn't delayed his departure for a second.

Happily, Heather's illness was not serious, and our busy practice life went on with John going through all the routines of calving, foaling, lambing, castration of colts and proving himself daily as the right man in the right job.

The young couple were married on a fine day in May and they settled in part of Siegfried's house. Heather was a teacher and she taught Siegfried's two children throughout her stay in our practice.

It was a jolt when the inevitable day came when John had to branch out on his own. He left to set up a practice in Beverley and I felt the loss not only of a great a.s.sistant but a friend. I was only about ten years older than John- close enough to have interests and pursuits in common. I suppose as the years pa.s.sed and other young men came and went in our practice I progressed through the status of ageing colleague, elder statesman, and finally to quaint old fossil, but with the first few I was still in their world and John and I had a lot of fun together.

Skeldale House had always been a place of laughter and, thank heaven, John brought a vivid brand of humour of his own to the practice. He had his failures and disasters like all of us and used a wonderful gift of mimicry to describe them. He was sensitive and totally lacking in vanity despite his forceful personality.

Above all I still think of him as a typical Englishman of an almost old-fashioned sort with a pa.s.sion for cricket, an unshakeable belief in the old values and a reverence for the beautiful county in which we worked.

After he had left to set up his own practice in Beverley, we were absorbed in our own busy lives and saw less and less of each other. There were special occasions, of course. Helen and I were honoured to become G.o.dparents to Annette, the first-born of the Crooks family, then we had happy notice of the arrival of James and then Elizabeth. We managed to meet Heather and John the odd time at Scarborough and I saw John at veterinary meetings, but the old chapter was closed.

However, with my conviction that he would rise high in the profession, I followed his progress over the years, noting the rapid growth of his practice until he was employing several a.s.sistants and that he was being increasingly recognised for his drive and organising ability and involved in the growth and administration of the profession. I was right in my prognostication; the only thing that at last stopped John's rising was that he couldn't go any higher. In 1983, thirty years after he left Darrowby, he was elected President of the British Veterinary a.s.sociation.

It touched me then that after all that time he reached back to his first boss and asked me to make the induction speech at his inauguration.

"Those years in Darrowby were the happiest time of our lives for Heather and me," he said. "I want you to do it."

So there it was. The great day came with me sitting in the conference hall of Lancaster University among hundreds of vets from all over the world. All the notables were there-distinguished names everywhere-but as I looked up at the august company on the platform after I had said my piece it gave me a tremendous kick to realise that right in the middle and the most important of them all was t'yoong man from Darrowby.

My speech over, the ceremony proceeded, and John stood tall as he was arrayed in the regalia of President. The a.s.sociation Secretary helped him into the handsome black gown with green watered silk facings, then the President of the previous year placed the chain of office around his neck. As this happened and I saw this chain being fastened from behind, the whole thing suddenly reminded me of dressing up in an obstetric gown before a calving with the farmer tying the tapes from the rear. It seemed that John felt exactly the same because at that very solemn moment he said, "Could I have a bucket of hot water, soap and a towel please." A roar of laughter went up from the audience-so many of us had uttered those words a thousand times.

Finally, in full raiment, he turned and faced the a.s.sembly. He was bulkier than in his Darrowby days and his hair was a silver thatch, but he was profoundly imposing. I looked towards the front row of the auditorium where Heather and all the family sat gazing up proudly. Among them I saw baby Emily, first of the grandchildren, perched on James's knee, and the years rolled away. Ah, well, John wasn't t'yoong man any more, but he was a famous and happy one.

In my speech I had tried to bring out John's unique ability to influence people, and I searched hard for an explanation or for the right words. It was such an intangible thing that I paraphrased a beer advertis.e.m.e.nt by saying he could reach the parts other veterinary surgeons couldn't reach.

As I sat there watching the ceremony on the platform the memory of that lonely road among the hills and the stranded car in the water with the door hanging open and the windscreen wipers going flip-flop, flip-flop swam up into my mind. It occurred to me that there could be a clue there. Maybe the scene epitomised two of the aspects of John's character that had taken him to the top of the profession-devotion to his wife and the power of instant decision.

Chapter 12.

"THIS HOUSE IS A woman-killer, Mr. Herriot."

I was seeing a farmer out and he was looking down at Helen scrubbing the front doorsteps. His words went through me like a knife. He was stating baldly something that had been eating away at my mind for a long time.

"Aye," he said again. "It's a grand old house, but it's a woman-killer."

That was the moment when I decided that somehow, some way, I had to get Helen out of Skeldale House. We loved the old place but it had vast disadvantages for a young couple of moderate means. It was charming, graceful and undoubtedly a happy house in its atmosphere, but it was far too big and a veritable icebox in cold weather.

I looked up over the ivy-covered frontage at the big bedroom windows, then further to the next storey where there was a suite of rooms where in the early days, we had had our bed-sitter. Then there was another storey if you counted the tiny rooms under the tiles; here there was a big bell on the end of a spring, which used to summon a little housemaid down to the ground floor in the early days of the century.

The old doctor who lived in it before we took over had had six servants including a full-time housekeeper, but Helen looked after the whole place with the aid of a series of transient maids, most of whom soon grew tired of the hard work and the impossible inconvenience of the house.

Before going back inside I looked down again at my wife scrubbing away. This was crazy, and the words "Please stop it!" bubbled up in my mind. But I didn't speak them. It was no good, I had tried to stop her again and again but it was a waste of time. That was the way she was made. She was domestically minded and she just couldn't sit back and admit defeat. She was absolutely determined to keep inside and outside clean and tidy.

This was something that worried and exasperated me. I was married to a beautiful, intelligent, warm-hearted woman, but I wished with all my heart that she would be kinder to herself and take more time to rest, and when we were first married I tried by pleading and at times by making angry scenes, which I wasn't much good at, to make her alter her ways, but it was like talking to a wall-she slogged on regardless. Cooking, too. I had never met anybody who could work such magic with food, and as a dedicated eater I realised my good luck, but I wished fervently that she would spend less time over the oven. But when all my entreaties were in vain and she went her own way I consoled myself that I could hear her singing as she went round the house with her Hoover and duster. At this moment she was actually humming softly to herself as she scrubbed that accursed step.

Even now, fifty years later and when we are coming up to the supreme accolade of getting our Golden Wedding pictures in the Darrowby and Houlton Times she still sings as she potters busily around in another, mercifully much smaller house. It dawned on me long ago that she's happy that way.

From the front door, I went along the tiled pa.s.sages, which would have been full of sunlight and character in the summer, but, on this cold spring day, were just as cold and shivery as the street outside, on and on past dining room and sitting room then turned left down to the dispensary then right and left again and to another stretch past consulting room, breakfast room and finally to the kitchen and scullery at the end of the long offshoot at the back of the house. I seemed to have travelled about fifty yards, and who could blame Tristan in the old days for riding his bicycle to get to the front door?

On the way I pa.s.sed little Rosie, clattering over the tiles in her strong shoes, her legs m.u.f.fled in thick pantaloons as Jimmy's used to be. I sometimes wondered how we had brought the children up in this relentless cold and I was grateful that they didn't seem to suffer from more coughs and sneezes than other children. The main casualty was Helen, who was plagued with terrible chilblains round her ankles.

Next morning as soon as I awoke my decision welled strongly in my mind. We had to get out. Skeldale would be fine as the practice quarters but we had to find something smaller to be our home.

It was the beginning of a kind of obsession, and I could think of nothing else as I jumped out of bed, tried in vain to see out of the frosted windows and dressed quickly in the icy atmosphere. I threw open the bedroom door and, at full gallop, began my morning routine. Down the stairs two at a time, full tilt along the freezing pa.s.sage-the secret was to keep running-to the kitchen, where I put the kettle on. Back along at top speed to the dining room, where the b.l.o.o.d.y-minded anthracite stove was out again. It was the only source of warmth in the whole house but I hadn't time to relight it now.

Back over the long stretch to the kitchen, where I made the tea and took up a cup to Helen. Then, blowing on my hands and jumping around to stop the blood freezing, I started a fire in the kitchen. I was never much of a boy scout at fire-lighting-unlike Helen who could have a fine blaze going in no time-and by the time the family came downstairs I had my usual fitful flame peeping out among the coals.

Breakfast was a cheerless affair with a little one-bar electric fire fighting an unequal battle and all of us trying to stop our teeth from chattering. I was silent over the meal, my mind wholly occupied with my fierce resolve, and I kept thinking back over previous festive seasons, remembering how we huddled round the fire in the big sitting room while our backs froze and the Christmas decorations swayed in the a.s.sorted draughts.

It was still uppermost in my mind when I called at Mrs. Dryden's little semi-detached house on the outskirts of Darrowby. I had been treating her cat for a very bad attack of otodectic mange in the ears.

"Come on, Sooty," I said as I lifted him onto the table. "You look a lot better today."

His mistress smiled. "Oh, he is. He's stopped shaking his head and scratching. He was goin' nearly mad before you cleaned his ears out."

I did some more swabbing, then trickled some lotion into the ears as the black cat purred happily. "Yes. He won't need any more attention from me. Just keep putting the drops in the ear night and morning for another few days and I'm sure he'll be fine."

I went over to the kitchen sink to wash my hands and looked out of the window at the neat garden. "This is a nice little house, Mrs. Dryden."

"Aye, it is, Mr. Herriot, but I'm leaving it soon."

"Really, why is that?"

"Well, I need the money. That's the top and bottom of it. When Robert died he didn't leave much."

I could believe her. She was a retired farmer's widow, and I knew what a struggle they had had to sc.r.a.pe a living on their smallholding. Bob Dryden and I had shared some hard experiences up there on the hills. Tough calvings and lambings, and I could remember a disastrous spring when many of their calves died of scour. He was a fine man and I remembered him as a friend.

"But where will you live?" I asked.

"Oh, I'm going to live with me sister in Houlton. I'll be all right there, but I'll be sorry to part with this nice little house. Robert and I were that pleased to be able to buy it when he retired. Still, I'm hopin' to get two thousand pounds for it and that'll be a G.o.dsend to me in my old age."

I had one of my blinding flashes then. This was just the place for us. It was perfect, and I felt sure I'd be able to get a mortgage to buy it.

"Would you sell it to me?" I asked eagerly.

She smiled. "I would if I could, Mr. Herriot, but the arrangements are all made. It goes up for auction at the Drovers' Arms on Wednesday."

My heart started to thump. "Well, I'll be there bidding, Mrs. Dryden."

I was positive I would get the house, and as I looked round the kitchen all my worries seemed to dissolve. What a piece of luck! I could just see Helen at that window, looking out on the little garden, which gave on to green fields with the church tower rising from the trees on the other side of the river. And everything was so compact. There was a hatch into the living room-no hiking for fifty yards with the food. A little hall out there with the stairs leading to three bedrooms, almost an arm's length away. You could reach out and touch everything, and I loved the thought. In my frame of mind at that time, small was beautiful. Nothing else mattered.

I saw the man at the Building Society and there was no trouble. They would grant me a mortgage. It was a house that would probably fetch around 50,000 to 60,000 at the present day, but in the early fifties, 2,000 was about right.

I was walking on air until the Wednesday when I rolled up with Helen to the Drovers' for the auction. The room was full and as Helen and I took our seats a farmer client nudged me. "There's old Seth Bootland," he murmured. "He wants this house for his son who's just got married. Reckon he'll get it, too. He's rollin' in bra.s.s, but he's a hard businessman."

I looked over at the rich grain merchant. He was impressive with his high-coloured, beaky face and camel's-hair coat, and his face wore an expression of grim confidence. I felt a qualm, then came a return of my steely resolve. I was going to buy that house.

The bidding started at 1,500 and went rapidly-more rapidly than I had expected-up to my top figure of 2,000. Bootland made it 2,100. He clearly was used to this sort of thing and just twitched a bored forefinger. I stabbed the air eagerly to put on another hundred-I was quite sure my mortgage could be stretched another little bit-but Bootland flicked the finger again and it was up to me.

Soon there were just the two of us. All other bidders had fallen out and I felt cruelly exposed. The bids were down to fifty now and as the price crept up and up towards 3,000 my heart began to pound and I could feel my palms sweating.

Helen was clutching my knee and with each new bid she whispered desperately, "No, Jim, no! We haven't any money!" But I was seized by a kind of madness. The money meant nothing. All I could see was Helen in that trim little house looking out on her garden from that pretty kitchen. That vision wouldn't go away and I ploughed on doggedly.

When the price got above 3,000 the audience in the packed room had begun to emit an excited "Ahh!" at each new bid. It had got down to raises of twenty-five pounds.

"Mr. Bootland bids three thousand two hundred and twenty-five." My mouth was dry as the auctioneer gazed at me enquiringly.

Helen's grip on my knee was like a vise. She was shaking it with her entreaties. "No, Jim, no!"

I raised my hand.

"And fifty. Thank you." And then the glance at Boot-land. "And seventy-five." The auctioneer's and everybody's eyes were on me. As in a dream I raised my hand.

"We have three thousand three hundred pounds."

Bootland waggled his finger.

"And twenty-five."

Once again, in the vibrating silence, all the eyes were on me. I felt utterly drained, parched, exhausted. I was trembling and only slightly aware of Helen punching my leg and almost sobbing. "Stop it! Please stop it!" I thought she was going to cry. I shook my head at the auctioneer and the thing was over.

There was an excited hum of conversation in the room, but I stayed slumped in my seat, only dimly aware of Bootland going up and talking to the auctioneer and of Helen sitting very still beside me. Finally, I rose and looked at her.

"Good heavens, Jim, you're as white as a sheet!" she gasped.

I nodded wordlessly. I did feel extremely white. On the way out I received a savage glance from Mr. Bootland. Thanks to me, he had had to pay 1,325-around 30,000 at present-day prices-more than the house was probably worth and I wasn't his favourite man.

But I didn't care. All I felt was the sense of abject failure. My happy vision of Helen looking out of that window was shattered and I was right back where I started. I had accomplished nothing.