Every Living Thing Part 35

I looked at the growing opacity in the friendly eyes. "She's getting on a bit now, Bob."

"Aye, she'll be ten come Easter, but she's still right active."

"Oh yes, I've seen her at work. She'll go on for a long time yet."

He nodded solemnly.

We talked for a few minutes. I had a great fellow feeling for men like Bob, the hardy farm workers who were part of my life-catching and holding the big beasts for me, sweating side by side with me at tough calvings and lambings. It was a pleasure to be able to meet them off the job, and I could see that Bob was enjoying our reminiscing together. He smiled gently at the memories, even though his speech was slurring and his eyes half closed.

I finished my drink and looked at my watch. "Got to go now, Bob. Take care of yourself till I see you again."

In reply he slid off the stool. "Ah'm off 'ome, too." He tacked his way carefully to the door.

Outside in the summer dusk, he went over to his bicycle, which was resting against the wall. I paused by my car. I had seen this ritual before and found it fascinating.

He pulled the bike from the wall and took some time about lining it up to his satisfaction, then he made an attempt to throw a wellingtoned leg over the saddle. He didn't make it the first time and stood for a few seconds apparently breathing deeply, then with great care he got the bike into position before jerking his leg up again. Once more he missed and I thought for a moment that he was going to finish up, bike and all, on the ground, but he regained his balance and stood with bowed head, communing with himself. Then he squared his shoulders decisively, peered along crossbar and handlebars, and this time with a convulsive leap he landed in the saddle.

For a tense period he sat there, moving only a few inches forward, feet working on the pedals, hands pulling the handlebars from side to side in his struggle to stay upright. Then at last he took off and began to move an inch at a time, almost imperceptibly, along the road. After a few yards he stopped and was stationary for several seconds, keeping the bike vertical by some mystical means. I thought, not for the first time, that it was a pity that Bob had never entered for the annual slow bicycle race at Darrowby Gala. He would have carried the prize off every year.

Leaning on my car, I watched his progress. Old Meg, obviously familiar with the routine, stepped along patiently by his side, dropping on her chest whenever he carried out one of his miraculously balanced pauses. Bob's cottage was about a mile along the road and I wondered how long it would take him to get there. His erstwhile companions before the old pub was modernised were always adamant that he never ever fell off and I personally had never seen him come to grief. When man and dog finally disappeared in the growing darkness I got into my car and drove home.

As I said, I seemed to spend half my life on the road through Welsby, and I dropped into the Lord Nelson several times over the next few months. As always, I spotted Bob's flat cap perched incongruously among the modish jackets and dresses, but one night as I peered through the crush I noticed something different.

I pushed my way to the corner of the bar. "h.e.l.lo, Bob. I see you haven't got Meg with you."

He glanced down to the s.p.a.ce under his stool, then took a sip at his gla.s.s before looking at me with a doleful expression. "Nay...nay..." he murmured. "Couldn't bring 'er."

"Why not?"

He didn't reply for a few moments and when he spoke his voice was husky, almost inaudible. "She's got cancer."

"What!"

"Cancer. Meg's got cancer."

"How do you know?"

"There's a big growth on 'er. It's been comin' on for a bit."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"You'd 'ave put her down. Ah don't want her put down yet."

"But...but...you're jumping to conclusions, Bob. All growths aren't cancerous."

"This 'un must be. It's a b.l.o.o.d.y great thing as big as a cricket ball."

"And where is it?"

"Underneath 'er belly. Hangin' right down nearly to t'ground. It's awful." He rubbed his eyes as though to blot out the memory. His face was a mask of misery.

I grasped his arm. "Now, look, Bob, this sounds to me like a simple mammary tumour."

"A what?"

"A growth on the b.i.t.c.h's udder. These things are very common and they're very often benign and quite harmless."

"Oh, not this 'un," he quavered. "It's a b.l.o.o.d.y big..." He demonstrated with his hands.

"Size doesn't matter. Come on, Bob, we'll go along to your house and have a look at it."

"Nay...nay... ah know what you'll do." His eyes took on a hunted expression.

"I'll not do anything, I promise you." I looked at my watch. "It's nearly closing time. Let's go."

He gave me a final despairing look, then got off his stool and made his careful way to the door.

Outside I watched the usual ceremony with the bike, but this time, at the third attempt at mounting, man and bike crashed to the ground. A bad sign. And on the interminable journey to the cottage Bob went down several times and as I looked at him, sprawled face-down on top of his machine, I realised that the heart had gone out of him.

At the cottage, Bob's brother, Adam, looked up from his work on a hooked rug. Neither of the men had married and, though entirely different personalities, lived together in complete harmony. I hastened to Meg's basket and gently rolled the old b.i.t.c.h onto her side. It was indeed a huge tumour, but it was rock hard, confined to the skin and not adherent to the mammary tissue.

"Look, Bob," I said. "I can get my fingers right behind it. I'm sure I can take it off with every chance of complete recovery."

He dropped into a chair and as Meg ambled across to greet him he slowly stroked her ears. There was something pathetic about the waving tail, the open, panting mouth and the monstrous growth dangling almost to the floor.

There was no reply, and Adam broke in. "You can see what 'e's like, Mr. Herriot. I've been telling 'im for weeks to come to you but he takes no notice. I've lost patience with him."

"How about it, Bob?" I said. "Will you bring her to the surgery as soon as possible? The quicker it's done the better. You can't let her go on like this."

He went on with his stroking for some time, then nodded his head. "All right."

"When?"

"Ah'll let ye know."

Adam came in again. "You see. He won't say, because I can tell you now that 'e never will bring her in to you. He's made up 'is mind that Meg's going to die."

"That's daft, Bob," I said. "I tell you I'm pretty sure I can put her right. Will I take her away with me now? How about that?"

Still looking down, he shook his head vigorously. I decided on shock tactics.

"Well, let me do the operation now."

He shot me a startled glance. "What...right here?"

"Why not? It's not as big a job as you think. It doesn't involve any vital organs, and I always carry an operating kit in my car."

"Good idea!" burst out Adam. "It's the only way we'll get it done!"

"Just one thing," I said. "When did she last eat?"

"She had a few biscuits this morning," Adam replied. "But that's all. Bob always gives her her main meal last thing at night."

"Fine, fine. She'll be just right for the anaesthetic."

Bob seemed stupefied and he didn't say a word or make a move as Adam and I began to bustle about with our preparations. I had always been interested in the relationship between these two middle-aged brothers. They were opposites. Adam had never had an alcoholic drink in his life but seemed totally uncritical of Bob's beer-orientated life-style, and when Bob was at the Lord Nelson Adam was usually attending night cla.s.ses at the village school, rug-making being his latest interest. Adam wasn't a farm worker; he was employed by the big dairy that collected the milk from the Dales farms. He was small and slightly built, finicky and fussy in his manner, unlike his burly, stolid brother.

After I had boiled the instruments we got Meg on the table and a quick injection of intravenous barbiturate sent the old b.i.t.c.h into deep anaesthesia. I made her fast on her back with bandages to the table legs and then all three of us scrubbed up at the kitchen sink. Bob, still wearing his cap, displayed a growing lack of enthusiasm, and when I handed the brothers an artery forceps apiece and poised my scalpel he closed his eyes tightly.

My system with these tumours was to cut out an ellipse on the skin, then proceed by blunt dissection with my fingers. It looked a bit crude, but greatly reduced the amount of haemorrhage. I had made my first incision and had started to peel back the skin, and it was just at the moment when I had taken the forceps from the brothers and was clamping a couple of spurting vessels that Bob opened his eyes. He gave a hollow groan and tottered to an old horsehair sofa, where he slumped and buried his head in his hands. His frail brother, however, was made of sterner stuff, and though he lost a little colour he set his lips firmly and gripped both the forceps on the vessels with a steady hand as I tied them off.

Once started, I went about my job with gusto, working my way with my fingers round the spherical growth, pushing back the adhering fascia from the skin. Some of these things almost sh.e.l.led out, and though this one wasn't quite as easy as that, I was doing fine. Soon I had the whole tumour in my hand except for a ma.s.s right at the bottom and I knew from experience that there would be a big vessel down there. "Get ready with your forceps, Adam," I said, tearing carefully at the tissue, but almost as I spoke a crimson jet fountained up into his face.

Bob chose this moment to uncover his eyes and after one appalled glance at his brother's blood-spattered spectacles he gave a strangled grunt, lifted his legs and flopped onto his back on the sofa, pulling his cap over his eyes with a limp hand.

"Well done, Adam," I said to the little man as he stood resolutely at his post, the forceps clamped on that final vessel while I ligated it and removed the tumour. "We're about finished now. Just a few st.i.tches to put in." I inserted a row of nylon sutures and stood back, well satisfied.

"The old girl looks a lot better without that horrible thing," I said and swept my hand across the unsullied abdomen. Unfortunately my fingers struck the tumour, which was lying on the table, and it fell to the floor with a b.u.mp and rolled towards the sofa.

Bob turned a startled face towards the source of the noise and his mouth fell open as he spotted the grisly object bowling in his direction. "Oh, b.l.o.o.d.y 'ell," he moaned, then turned his face to the wall.

There he stayed as I helped his brother carry Meg over to her basket, scrub the table and generally clear up the debris.

When all signs of our operation had disappeared Adam carried the kettle to the kitchen sink. "I don't know about you, Mr. Herriot, but I could do wi' a cup of tea."

"I'd love one," I said and dropped onto one of the oaken chairs.

Adam turned to the p.r.o.ne form on the sofa. "How about you, Bob? Are you goin' to have a cup?"

Bob stirred, sat up and looked warily round the room. "Nay...nay..." He got to his feet and went over to a cupboard, from which he extracted a bottle of brown ale. He poured a gla.s.sful and took a long swallow, then he went over to the dog basket and peered in at the flat abdomen and the neat row of st.i.tches. He crouched there for some minutes, stroking the sleeping animal and fondling her ears, then he turned and looked at us and a slow smile of utter contentment spread over his face.

"Well," he said, "we did it."

"Aye, Bob, lad," said his brother, smiling back at him. "We did it."

When I removed the st.i.tches ten days later I was able to rea.s.sure Bob that microscopic examination had shown the tumour to be benign and that his worries were over.

After that I didn't see him for nearly a month until, one evening, I spotted his cap above the crowd in the Lord Nelson. It was nearly closing time and as I pushed my way towards him he rose from his stool, and Meg appeared from below and began to amble after him to the door. She looked younger and brighter without her disfiguring appendage. I watched the pair through the pub window, and once outside she flopped down with her nose on her paws, waiting for her master to go through his routine.

Bob seized his bike and gave it a good shake as though to let it know who was boss. He took only two efforts to get astride, and though he poised there immobile, working the handlebars from side to side, there was an authoritative look about his movements and it wasn't long before he took off on his journey home. I watched man and dog till they were out of sight, and though there were frequent pauses I could see that there was no danger of a catastrophe.

Bob wasn't going to fall off tonight. He was himself again.

Chapter 51.

CALUM INSERTED THE LAST st.i.tch after one of his dexterous operations and looked down at the sleeping cat for a few seconds.

"Jim," he said, without raising his head. "I'm afraid I'm going to leave you."

"Oh." My heart gave a lurch, and I couldn't think of anything to say at that moment. Calum had been with us for two years and, like all young vets, there had to come a time when he wanted to branch out on his own. But there was only one thought in my mind-I didn't want him to go.

Receiving no further reply, Calum went on. "Yes, I've had the chance of a job I think will suit me."

"Oh..." My restricted vocabulary was making me feel like an idiot. "Well...I understand, of course, Calum. Where will you be going?" My brain was starting to work again and one certainty loomed large-it would be somewhere isolated, somewhere in the wilds. Most likely the north of Scotland...maybe in the Western Isles.

"Nova Scotia," he replied.

"My G.o.d!" I realised suddenly that I didn't fully know him after all.

He laughed. "I thought you'd say something like that. I've been in touch with a chap who runs a practice out there, and the prospect seems right for me. It covers a wide area of a rural district with some quite primitive conditions-a lot of the countryside in its natural uncultivated state; unmade roads, rough farms, wonderful variety of wildlife. Some quite desolate country nearby, I understand." A faraway look crept into his dark eyes as though he were glimpsing the promised land.

I began to laugh, too. "Oh, h.e.l.l, Calum, I'm sorry to be like this. It was a bit of a shock, in fact two shocks, but it does sound like your cup of tea and I hope you'll be very happy out there. What does Dierdre think about the idea?"

"Loves it. Can't wait to get started."

"I don't doubt it. I think I hear Siegfried coming in. We'd better tell him."

We met my partner in the pa.s.sage. He looked a bit solemn as we gave him the news, then, like me, he put on a cheerful face and thumped Calum on the shoulder. "I'm so glad you've found something you really want, my boy. I'm sure it will be the very thing for you and I wish you and Dierdre every happiness and success. But dammit, I'm going to miss you."

He stopped suddenly and pointed wordlessly at an enormous feathered creature stalking past him. "What...? What...?" In the darkness of the pa.s.sage it looked as big as an ostrich.

The young man smiled happily. "Just a heron. I picked it up a few days ago, down by the river. Wandering around, couldn't fly. Obviously damaged a wing, but seems to be improving." As he spoke, the great bird spread its wings and flapped round the corner and out of sight. "Ah, look. Soon be completely recovered."

"I hope so...I do hope so." Siegfried stared at him, then c.o.c.ked an ear at the scrabbling of a couple of recently adopted tortoises on the tiles farther along the pa.s.sage. Then he grinned suddenly. "Yes, I'm going to miss you, all right."

The few weeks before Calum's departure fled past and after he and Dierdre had gone, I had that empty feeling again as I went into the deserted flat. John Crooks and now Calum-they had become my friends and both had left a gap, but with Calum the change was even more traumatic. The silence in the absence of the menagerie was almost palpable, and as I looked out of the window in the room where he had demolished that cake on his first day, many things rose and lingered in my mind. "Permission to eat, sir," "I'll just put Dierdre up a tree," Herriot's duct and, most emotive of all, the picture of his rapt face and dark eyes as he squeezed "Shenandoah" from my children's little concertina.

Calum had been an acutely interesting man during his stay in Darrowby, but it was nearly as interesting to follow his career after he had left. I received regular letters telling me about his growing practice among the dirt roads and untamed countryside. His bursting energy led him to start the first auction mart in the district and he was trying to develop small-animal work. A sentence sticks in my mind: "Doing quite a few cat spays-Herriot's duct much in evidence." The letters often ended in "Permission to fall out, sir," which pulled me back to the old days.

Training Border collies was another of his pa.s.sions and he gave frequent public demonstrations of his skill, several generations of his dogs being descended from prize-winning sheep-dogs he had bought from a farmer friend during his stay in Darrowby. He bought a farm, too, in Cape Breton, as though he didn't have enough to occupy him.

I also was kept abreast of the regular arrival of his children, noting with growing wonder as they mounted up to six. He brought up all of them in his own image, loving the outdoors and the wild creatures, scorning the soft things of life as he had always done, camping and backpacking in the forests and mountains.

Often as I read those letters from Calum the thought recurred that at last he had found his ideal environment, but I was wrong.

Twenty years after he left Darrowby I was treating a cow for his farmer friend, Alan Beech. Alan was holding the animal's nose and he spoke over his shoulders. "Have you heard the latest about Calum?"

"No, what is it?"

"He's leaving Nova Scotia."