Enigmatic Pilot_ A Tall Tale Too True Part 14

Lloyd ignored the question, in part because he did not want to have to explain about trying to sleep in a coffin. Instead, he reached out with his hand for the nearest of the thin wooden tablets.

The gray-bearded man who held it pulled back in alarm, but not quite fast enough. As the boy's hand brushed the bark, the luminous glyphs pulsed with brightness.

"I know those markings," Lloyd announced. "I've seen the likes of them before."

"Are you...a Quist, then?" McGitney sputtered. "Because naught but the Quists has ever laid eyes on the sacred Headstones."

Lloyd again refused to answer-he was too enthralled by the shimmering writings. He reached out his hand again toward the bark section the bearded man held close to his chest, and this time the fluorescence illuminated the whole of the man's face, as if he were clasping a lidded lantern from which the light wanted to escape.

"My Lord!" a woman on the other side of the storehouse cried. "Look!"

One of the other tablets started pulsing more intently, too. Then another. Murmurs and moans spread throughout the storehouse. McGitney sensed some impending crisis of authority in the presence of this boy and the uncanny effect he seemed to have on the Headstones. But he was curious, too.

"Take out the others," he directed his a.s.sistants.

The remaining Headstones were produced from the strongbox and all were now beaming brilliantly, casting their runic mysteries upon the faces and the walls like magic-lantern pictures. The Quists let out a collective gasp and then turned their frightened, composite scrutiny on the boy.

The Book of Buford had promised that there would be another prophet-a true messianic figure to lead the tribe forward into the light of the future and their destiny as spiritual pilgrims and prosperous citizens in the new America that was to come. It was one of the crucial points of the revealed doctrine that McGitney had unquestioning belief in. He knew in his heart that he was but a chieftain of the moment-a trailblazer to spur them westward. He had no private delusions (or "affinity with divinity," as he called it), however shrewdly he played upon his role to achieve the ends he deemed best for his flock. Now here was an undeniable call from beyond, in the sect's own terms. It could not be brushed aside.

"How are you doing this, lad?" he asked, in as calm a voice as he could muster. He was relieved at Lloyd's reply.

"I don't know that I am doing it-or doing anything. I just know I've seen these kinds of markings before."

The Headstones sparkled in response, as if emphatically agreeing, triggering more exclamations and whispers.

"Where?" McGitney demanded. The Quists' claim to be a chosen people hinged on the uniqueness of the Headstones. And yet, had not he, their own leader, always harbored the belief that there was more to the glyphic codes than the Book of Buford had disclosed? Was not the very hope upon which the Quist religion was founded-their fundamental tenet of faith-that revelation was not just real but continuing? The ancient wisdom embodied in the Headstones was alive. That was what the Book of Buford and all the Quists believed. The illumination of the tablets was proof of this.

"Are you some kind of proph-et?" one of the black men on the other side of the circle asked with a tremor in his voice.

Lloyd was not sure how to answer this question, and so repeated what he had said before. "I am Lloyd Meadhorn Sitt.u.r.d. I have seen these markings before. These things you have are not the only examples."

"Order!" McGitney called, as the commotion this a.s.sertion caused threatened to upset the entire proceeding, not to mention draw unwelcome attention.

"Well, young Lloyd Meadhorn Sitt.u.r.d. My name is Increase McGitney, and the people you see gathered around you are my devoted compatriots in a holy mission of discovery and fulfillment. We call ourselves Quists. You may have heard of our trials-or have even been warned away from us. That is, provided you are not a spy. Are you a spy, young Lloyd?"

Lloyd shook his head violently. It occurred to him that if he were a spy he was not a very adept one. Hattie would have been dark with him.

"And where have you seen these writings, Lloyd? In a dream?"

"No," the boy answered.

"Then where? Where are you from?"

"Zanesville, Ohio."

"And is that where you saw them?" McGitney pestered. Even if by some fluke the boy was speaking the truth, if another example of the Headstones lay at a distance, perhaps lost, his claim could not be proved. Perhaps the effect the boy seemed to have on the tablets could be explained away and they could return to their ceremony.

Still, he could not get around his own intuition that the boy's appearance was somehow fated. A defining moment in Quistory.

Lloyd hesitated. He had become so intrigued by the sight of markings like the Amba.s.sadors'-and by their unexplained luminescence-that he had forgotten for a moment about his precarious situation. Surrounded by strangers with strange beliefs, late at night in a foreign frontier town-his parents not knowing where he was-he knew that his goal should have been to get back to the Clutters' in one piece and get to bed without his parents knowing that he had been gone. He realized that he was always endangering their safety, and reproached himself for it. But he could not curb his curiosity-or his need to show these head-wrapped wayfarers the error of their ways.

"I have it with me," he replied at last, which set the Quists chattering and speculating, while the light from the Headstones held in various hands around the circle bloomed brighter. "A short distance from here," he added, as McGitney held up his hands for quiet.

"Then you must fetch it," the Quist patriarch commanded. "Drucker and Soames, go with him. We must prove the truth of this claim here and now."

"No," Lloyd insisted. "I will not let you take it from me. It was given to me."

"Who by, lad?"

"That is not for me to say to you," Lloyd fired back. "But I will not fetch it for you to steal."

The circle of faces erupted in discord.

"Hush!" McGitney demanded. "Lad, whoever you are, and wherever you are from, know this: the Quists are not thieves. More honest, law-abiding folk you would be hard pressed to find, wherever laws are fair and allow for freedom of faith. We are merely humble believers in the revealed truth the great Saint Kendrick bestowed upon us. We mean you no harm, as we hope to have none done to us. But see here. You have made a bald, bold claim that strikes at the heart of what we have risked and lost good lives to defend and protect. If what you speak is the truth, then something of your destiny is entwined with ours-whether the genuine nature of this can be fathomed by any of us gathered at this crossroads or not. I say to you-I give our word-you will not be harmed. Your property will not be appropriated. And if you are in the shadow of any danger, as we are, perhaps we may even be of help to you. And yours. You have family, I take it? Unless you just rose out of the ground to haunt us. Or did you fall from the sky?"

This last query had a noticeable effect on Lloyd, for he could not help seeing and hearing the pitiful Amba.s.sadors as they were swept away into the cruel blue above the Mississippi. He had repaid their hermetic trust with betrayal, abandonment, and almost certain execution, unless Hattie's theory held some hope. In any case, all that remained of them now seemed to be the box he had been given with their cryptic language engraved on it. His head churned with questions and doubts-yet he could not shake free his desire to know if the markings on the box he carried were also capable of coming to phosph.o.r.escent life like the Headstones, and he recalled the singular line of speculation that had been triggered by Hattie. He had to know more.

He felt that the Quist leader had spoken correctly when he suggested that his fate was somehow linked to theirs. He did not know how that particular machine worked, but the coincidence could not be ignored. That was what had drawn him to the storehouse. He could not turn his back on the mystery now. He owed it to the monstrous twins. He owed it to the Quists-and to himself. While there was fear and skepticism in their faces, he sensed no ill will toward him. These people were not Spirosians or Vardogers, of that he was sure, and both St. Ives and Hattie had advised him to rely on his instincts in a pinch.

"All right," he agreed. "But a curse on you all if you do not keep your word and try to abscond with what is not your own!"

He threw in this last p.r.o.nouncement for theatrical flourish, remembering the professor-reasoning that such a ritually inclined people, so fervent in their devotion to things they obviously did not comprehend, might in the absence of any physical force he could offer be checked by superst.i.tion. His threat had the desired result. He could see it in the eyes around the circle, a response enhanced by a chance gust of wind that unnerved the candles and yet left the sheen of the Headstones unchanged.

"Go with haste and with care," McGitney said, pointing to the heavy door. "We will keep our word, while you put your truth to the test. A boy your age alone at night in a place like this-you took risks of your own accord far greater than you face at our hands. But hurry now. For we know know we are at risk. There are folk about right now who want us gone-and others that would like to see us dead. It is not my intention to draw you into our tribulations. Go forth and return with speed." we are at risk. There are folk about right now who want us gone-and others that would like to see us dead. It is not my intention to draw you into our tribulations. Go forth and return with speed."

The two men McGitney had singled out to take charge of Lloyd donned trail-weary dust coats and escorted him outside with the aid of a small lantern. The night was mad with starlight, a buckshot blast of crystal, like some celestial a.n.a.log of all the scattered souls and dreams below, the moon a distant gla.s.s globe full of cold white flame. Lloyd directed them back the way he had come. The going was easier this time, with the extra light and the knowledge of where he was going, but his heart beat faster, flanked as he was by two large unknown men (who had removed their turbans once outside). He wished Hattie were there to give him courage, but that would just have put her more in harm's way.

There were low hints of mouth-organ music in the distance, and every so often the growling of dogs or the whine of tomcats, but other than that the town appeared to have folded in on itself at last. Lloyd led the men to the Clutters' darkened place of dark business and whispered to them to wait while he went inside. The two Quists remained silent, and whether they trusted him or not they did not prevent him from entering the building on his own.

Everything was as he had left it. His parents were both sound asleep in their open coffins-his mother breathing deeply, his father snoring and farting, keeping alive the memory of their supper. It was hard to see, and with so many boxes and stuff to run into, it was a miracle he did not create a crashing confusion to wake the whole establishment. But he knew what he was looking for-his bag burrowed down on the other side of the container he had been a.s.signed. By feel alone he probably would have been able to find it, but he was a.s.sisted by a telltale glow from within the bag. The sight drew his breath short. The Amba.s.sadors' box was indeed aglimmer just like the Headstones! He removed it from the bag and held it aloft, marveling at how it seemed to project its carved message into the room. The aura it cast reminded him of countless visions he had had just upon falling asleep. The sight surprised him, for he had begun to form the view that the Headstones' illumination may have been some kind of trick that McGitney had devised to wow his followers-although he could not account for it, or explain the surges in brightness that he seemed to stimulate.

Nevertheless, without having been able to examine the tablets himself, Lloyd had remained skeptical of any magical power. Now, with his own familiar box in hand and the same phenomenon manifest, he had to concede that there was indeed some force at work, a kind of energy he had never encountered before-save perhaps that night when he met Mother Tongue. It was the one thing he could liken this demonstration to-and it turned his mind back to his bag, where the other eye, the mate of the gift he had given Hattie, nestled in its protective rags. To his even greater astonishment, he now found that the eye had changed, too. Where before it had always felt cool if not cold to the touch, and was always dark unless he held it up to the light (which he had stopped doing because of the unsettling memories it provoked), it was this time quite definitely warm to the touch and lit from within, as if answering some call from the markings on the box.

Lloyd felt a deep, inner need to take the eye in hand. To fondle it. When he did, he found that it had gained in weight and was growing warmer. He wondered how it would react in the immediate presence of the Headstones. For the first time since he had given the other one to Hattie, he stared at it, as if he had never seen it before. Embedded deep inside the iris now, there appeared to be depth upon depth of shimmering layers, like a small golden-green tornado or some almost living mechanism-a minuscule self-illuminating creature, or a captured strand of lightning. Lloyd could not be sure what it looked like, only that it seemed to look back at him, filling his head with a sublime radiance. He was suddenly intensely glad that he had given the mate to Hattie. His mate.

He might have stood there staring at the eye for quite a while longer, but Hephaestus gave out a grunt in his sleep and then there came a furtive tap on the gla.s.s of the window. The Quists were summoning him.

He slipped the eye into his pocket, feeling its cold-hot heat against his leg. For some reason, he felt he must keep it with him-that he needed it. Hattie's skull fetish he tucked back into its protective rags with the precious communication from his uncle, which had set them out on their perilous flight in the first place. The box he wrapped in a piece of cloth from his bag and then he slipped out the door, restoring the darkness to his sleeping parents in their coffins.

He found that the men called Drucker and Soames were both wound very tight. They interrogated him by gesture when he emerged, and when he a.s.sented that he had what he had gone to get they set out again at a nervous pace. As silent as the two had been before, they were even more so now, listening with their whole bodies, as if something sinister had transpired while he was inside. He would have asked them what had happened to put them so on edge, but he felt certain they would just shush him up and hurry him along. Maybe there really were people out to get them, he thought, as they pigeon-stepped through the mud past the wagon lying on its. .h.i.tch. It reminded him again that there may have been people out to get him, too. He did not know what to believe on that score, but the possibility niggled at him. The one called Soames appeared to flinch. Then Lloyd felt it, too. A sudden twinge of emergency. Footsteps-and some other sound. Then, from behind one of the buildings they had to walk between, a sharp bolt of lantern light stabbed out at them, creating a sudden infestation of shadows.

"Allo there, fine citizens!" a m.u.f.fled man's voice accosted them, and before they knew it as many as eight other men had stepped out from behind the other building. Some of them wore gunnysacks with eye slits cut into them pulled over their heads, which made them look particularly menacing in the moonfall. Others had dirty hats tugged down low with bandannas to hide their faces.

The man with the lantern, who sported two large dueling pistols in his belt, had on the kind of netted hat Lloyd had seen on beekeepers, which seemed especially malignant. He was tall, and his clothes were cleaner and more expensive than the others'. All the other ruffians were armed in some way: hickory ax handles, fence pickets, crowbars. One very large man in the back stood poised with a hay tine. A short, stinking torch was lit from the lantern, the spookish light wavering over the timbers of the wall.

Drucker and Soames stepped forward, putting themselves between Lloyd and the men, but the tall one in the beekeeper's hat just laughed. What would Hattie have said? What would she do now? Captain of dark crossroads. She might have fled-but, like St. Ives, she was a game one with a bluff, too. Despite the acid burning in his stomach and his heart thumping against his rib cage, he could feel Mother Tongue's eye in his pocket becoming both hotter and colder all at once. He sneaked his hand into his britches, gripping the orb for comfort.

"Stand aside," Soames instructed the a.s.sembled host.

"Peace, citizens!" the netted hat replied, in a voice that reminded Lloyd of a rat in a gutter full of leaves. "We mean no harm. I swear it! Unless, of course, by some chance you happen to be religious fanatics bent on preaching your degenerate ways...fouling the waters of our fair community and taking liberties with our laws that the one true G.o.d will not tolerate. You wouldn't be such vermin as that, would you?"

"Let us pa.s.s," Drucker demanded, balling up a butcher-size fist in spite of his common sense and the hopeless mismatch.

"Oh, yes, boys!" joked the man in the netted hat to his brethren. "We'll let them pa.s.s, all right! Won't we?"

Despicable hoots of amus.e.m.e.nt rose from the shadowed figures beside him. The torch swooshed in the air, leaving an angry tattoo in the dark for a second.

"We'll let you pa.s.s from this point right here into the pit of h.e.l.l, you swine. We know who you are. Meddling in matters that don't concern you, infecting communities wherever you go!"

Drucker and Soames now both pulled cudgels from beneath their dust coats. Lloyd grew truly frightened. It made no difference that he was not a Quist-he was in their company, this was his fight, too. And they were faced with overwhelming odds, from the lanky sneering coward in the beekeeper's hat to the giant in the rear with the long hayfork. For a moment, Lloyd considered making a run for it. Just leave the Quist men to their fate and flee back to the Clutters'. With any luck, he would not be pursued. Hopefully, no one would see through which door he vanished. He would make it hard for any of these villains to recognize him again. By morning the horror would be over-one way or another. But his blood boiled at the thought of what that might mean. Somehow they had to get word to the others. They had to warn the Quists of the impending a.s.sault. He could not be party to any more loss of life if he could help it.

"I'll tell you what," the beekeeper mused. "I see you have a boy with you. No doubt you don't want him hurt. What say you give us McGitney-take us to the others and we'll let you go. I swear on the real Bible. You will go free."

Drucker spat in the mud. "You'll need a lot more than this ragtag posse a yourn."

"Oh, we have more coming," the vigilante leader replied. "Rest a.s.sured. Give up the others and you can save yourselves-and the boy."

"No!" Lloyd cried, and pushed forward holding the Amba.s.sadors' box before him like a charm, his other hand still plunged inside his pocket, grasping the artificial eye. These men confronting them now were not Vardogers or Spirosians. They were just brutal, and perhaps as stupid as they looked.

The sight of the box with the luminous engravings startled them, but not as much as Lloyd had hoped, even when the etched symbols seemed to project out across their bodies and covered faces. Deftly, he spun the box around, making the figures whirl about like subtle, intelligent fire. The torch that one of the hooded men held seemed so primitive and clumsy by comparison.

"Eh, what's this now? Some trick?" one of the sack-hooded men growled.

"Keep back!" Drucker yelled, hoisting his cudgel.

"We'll take that bauble," the beekeeper drawled. "Then you'll take us to the others. They're not far from here, we know. You can't save them, but you can save yourselves. There's tar and feathers and a nice oak tree on the edge of town otherwise. Or maybe we'll burn 'em out!"

The gang cheered at this, and Lloyd thought the noise might draw some a.s.sistance. Then he realized that it was quite possible that these men were not mere outlaws and oafs but prominent local residents, ashamed or afraid in some way, yes, otherwise they would not be hiding their faces, but nevertheless doing the dirty work of the community by some after-midnight agreement.

Shades of Zanesville. Mob scenes from across America. The stories St. Ives and Hattie had told him of lynchings and castrations. The oppression he himself had felt too many times before. Scenes of every intimidation and a.s.sault he had ever endured flashed through his mind, swelling the impotent rage within him as he gripped the false eye of Mother Tongue ever tighter. He felt it burning now, so hot had his hand become-surely that was it. But why did it seem to throb, pulsing in time with the juice that slopped in the pit of his stomach and the white-hot hatred that scorched his forehead? He glanced down at his pocket and saw to his disbelief that the eye was shining through his hand, through the cloth, radiating up his arm as if the light and heat could not be contained.

"You'll get naught out of us, you cur!" Soames snarled, plunging forward to strike the first blow.

The diabolical beekeeper drew one of his pistols and pointed it at Soames's chest.

"Stop!" Lloyd shouted, and held above his head what was no longer an eye but the Eye. The Eye of his Storm.

The vigilantes gasped, for the brightness was so intense. Hotter and harsher than Greek fire or the silver rush of Chinese rockets. The Amba.s.sadors' box burned with a pale-green surrounding haze-but Mother Tongue's Eye could not be looked at, it was so fiercely alight. Some of the men in the gang tried to cover their faces, as the baffled beekeeper man c.o.c.ked and fired his pistol at Soames, but wide. Drucker ducked, shielding himself from the light the boy had produced from his pocket and trying to skirt the shot from the gun barrel. Soames dived forward, seeking to cudgel the hand that held the firearm, and lost his footing in the mud. Lloyd stood firm, one hand clutching the Amba.s.sadors' box, the other the Eye, whose rippling green electric flame he could feel racing through his nerves and then out into the dark like a jetted breath of deadly starlight.

The pistol exploded in the gang leader's grip. The men beside him dropped their weapons and slapped their hands to their heads-their eyes. As one single cornered animal, they clamored in horrible unison and then collapsed, wriggling in the sloshy ground like worms. Only their leader did not fall to the ground. He was too busy dancing. A dreadful dance of unbearable pain that sent a wave of sickening fulfillment through Lloyd as he lowered the Eye and closed his fist around it, finding it cool once more.

The netted hat of the vigilante captain had ignited like a tumbleweed, encasing his face in a blue-green cage of flames, so that not even the stench of burning beard and skin escaped. He darted and weaved for a moment like some crazed new kind of pyrotechnic toy-the image of which might have made children laugh and clap, had the body below been some clever machine, and not a flesh-and-blood man, that could not be rebuilt in time for the next performance. Then he crashed into a wheel-rut puddle. The b.l.o.o.d.y shattered bone of his pistol hand lay outstretched, the fried black ma.s.s of what had been his head half submerged in the narrow ditch of rain, all skull and cobweb now, too hideous to look at.

Which his compatriots would never have to do. To a man, their sight had been seared shut like slits of blank slate-except for the colossus with the pitchfork, whose eyeb.a.l.l.s had turned to scalding jelly and had leaked out of their sockets, staining his face and coat like offal flicked with a slotted spoon.

CHAPTER 3.

The Quest and Questions of the Quists WHETHER THE INHABITANTS OF I INDEPENDENCE WERE SLEEPING very soundly that night, or whether such trouble had been antic.i.p.ated in official quarters, after the blinding firestorm that had been released from the Eye, the dark of stars and the dim reflections of the moon in pools and rivulets returned, afterimages dwindling away like fiery leaves turned to ash. A lone stable dog howled at the other end of town, answered by the cry of coyotes or a wild pack in the distance. Soon the morning light would come creeping across the sky, the aroma of breakfasts would begin to rise-steel-cut oats bubbling and freshly laid eggs cracked and popping on b.u.t.tered grills. Another steamboat would bring wagons and carriageloads of newcomers-barrels and crates of goods, workhorses dragging fresh timber, the smell of smoke, sweat, and the river clinging to their thickening coats. But all was still now, except for the mess of depraved and wounded humanity before them. very soundly that night, or whether such trouble had been antic.i.p.ated in official quarters, after the blinding firestorm that had been released from the Eye, the dark of stars and the dim reflections of the moon in pools and rivulets returned, afterimages dwindling away like fiery leaves turned to ash. A lone stable dog howled at the other end of town, answered by the cry of coyotes or a wild pack in the distance. Soon the morning light would come creeping across the sky, the aroma of breakfasts would begin to rise-steel-cut oats bubbling and freshly laid eggs cracked and popping on b.u.t.tered grills. Another steamboat would bring wagons and carriageloads of newcomers-barrels and crates of goods, workhorses dragging fresh timber, the smell of smoke, sweat, and the river clinging to their thickening coats. But all was still now, except for the mess of depraved and wounded humanity before them.

"Come quick," urged Lloyd, pocketing his treasures and trying to raise Soames back up. Drucker kept blinking and batting the air, but it was clear that he had not been permanently debilitated. Both men could see all right again after a few moments, but neither could believe what he had seen. With the exception of the charred leader, the vigilantes lay sprawled on the mushy ground groaning, limbs tangled, fumbling for one another-for help, for answers to what had happened to them. Lloyd took charge and led the two Quist guards between the bodies and back toward the storehouse as fast as they could move, given their stunned, disoriented condition. After his miraculous performance, Soames and Drucker seemed more than willing to be led, boy though he was.

That Lloyd had no idea what sort of power had been unleashed or how he had unleashed it, he vowed he would not reveal. His one objective now was to return his bewildered new comrades to their families and fellows and deliver the warning about reprisals or further action against them.

Once back at the storehouse, Soames and Drucker poured forth a tale that made the Quists tremble and ululate. Even McGitney, practical man of decision that he had become, was distraught-flapping his arms for order and calling for more details all at once. Lloyd let the hoo-ha run its course and then reemphasized the admonition he had offered the moment they returned through the heavy door.

"You must leave town," he told them. "By the fastest, straightest way you can. Those that waylaid us will not harm anyone again, but they have friends and other fools ready to do the same that they tried. Every moment you stay in this town you run the risk of being hunted down and-"

"We know, lad." McGitney nodded. "We know too well the trials and risks we face. We have faced and suffered them before. That's what brings us here and on the path before us. Our plan was always to leave this burg at first light. It was, in fact, your unexpected arrival that has delayed us. And, as fate or divine will would have it, has saved us, too. This is a night we will muddle over in times to come. But what of you and your family? Are you not at risk from these same marauders, too, now?"

"I don't reckon this boy is at risk from anyone," Drucker p.r.o.nounced. "He is the next prophet-the one that Saint Kendrick foresaw. The box he carries is a match to the Headstones, and he can draw lightning down from a clear sky and make it do his bidding."

This statement, presented so forcibly, offered a concise and unavoidable distillation of his and Soames's initial attempt at a report. Lloyd dutifully presented Urim and Thummin's box for inspection by McGitney and the others, and squawks of recognition and befuddlement filled the storehouse. The Eye he would not present, and as neither Drucker nor Soames had seen it clearly or grasped what role it had played in their deliverance, he was not about to stir up more chaos and inquiry now. What was more, of course, he had no idea what made the Eye work. It had been but an interesting if grotesque piece of jewelry minutes before-a souvenir of a lost part of his life that he was both afraid and hopeful of finding again. The real value he had placed on it had to do with Hattie LaCroix. The Eyes were a pair that might one day be reunited. That was his dream. That was why he had given her the other one.

McGitney tried with great patience to maintain order and take in the facts presented to him. It would not be long before the blinded vigilantes were found by their co-conspirators and, come the dawn, the tribe of Quists needed to be on the move. But they could not leave without knowing what their night visitor-savior had to tell them.

"Lloyd, are you who we think you are?"

The boy shook his head. "I'm not a prophet or your holy one. But you should listen to me just the same."

"Because of your power?"

Lloyd dodged this. "Because I speak the truth."

McGitney opened his arms to the group, as if calling for their opinion.

"You spoke the truth about the sacred markings. You helped save two of our own. I think you are the one Saint Kendrick foresaw. I know I speak for all the Quists when I say we want you to join us, to lead us to the promised land we know awaits us beyond the wilderness."

Lloyd thought of his parents asleep in their coffins and shook his head. If he could not join the ranks of the Spirosians or the Vardogers, he certainly could not take up with the Quists-and he felt a great weight upon his shoulders when he thought of what he had to tell them, before any more of them were hurt or killed at the hands of night riders.

"I am not your messiah," he said again. "And your faith...your theology-"

He was trying to think if that was the right word. To him, religion was what people who lacked magic and science had to fall back on.

"Go on," McGitney encouraged. "We trust you, Lloyd. We would follow you if you would lead us."

"Well, first I think you should stop this following business," Lloyd began (which perhaps showed that, in spite of his prodigious mental faculties, his grasp of human nature was still weak or at least self-deceiving, for he himself was an avid follower-the only problem was that he was devoted to a phantom). "Not all can lead, but no one necessarily must follow."

"What would you have us do?" a pretty young woman, who nestled a sleeping baby to her breast, implored. "Flounder blind like those men Brother Drucker says you left yonder?"

"Those men accosted us-and their blindness is a punishment," Lloyd replied, not mentioning that he had no idea how that particular form of punishment had been inflicted. "The kind of blindness you mean is just not knowing. Uncertainty. Doubt. If you are not able to face that that and keep on seeking, you will never find anything worth trusting." and keep on seeking, you will never find anything worth trusting."

He thought of the Clutters, seeing a riddle in the simple, albeit esoteric instruction on the bottom of the Vardogers' music box.