Emergency: Wife Lost And Found Part 11

'You don't have to always do a full examination,' Abby continued as she had for the past twenty minutes. 'And you don't then have to go and spend another fifteen minutes writing up your notes. Not everything ends up in the coroner's court, Lorna. You don't have to constantly cover yourself.'

'I'm not covering covering myself,' Lorna said. 'I admit I am rather slow, but I like to take a thorough history. It's the way I work.' myself,' Lorna said. 'I admit I am rather slow, but I like to take a thorough history. It's the way I work.'

'In a rural GP setting,' Abby responded. 'Just see if you can pick up the pace a bit, Lorna, that's all I'm asking.'

'I will.' Lorna stood up and politely she said the right thing. 'Thanks for your guidance.'

'Any time.' Abby smiled.

Lorna was tempted to walk out the door, but instead she made a coffee and went and joined the team team who considered her irritating, and sat quietly among them. who considered her irritating, and sat quietly among them.

'Are you on nights too?' Lorna's flagging ego soared just a little when May, basket in one hand, mug of tea in the other, walked into the staffroom where the night team were getting ready to start work.

'I am!' May was less than impressed. 'I did a stint last month. Do they think I don't have a bed to get into at night? Stuck in this h.e.l.lhole on a Friday night, you're about to have your eyes opened, young lady.'

'I know.' Lorna admitted glumly, then rallied. 'I did my rotation in Edinburgh.'

'How many years ago was that?' May did nothing to soothe her. 'They've invented an entire new set of problems now-crack this and meth that, and there's no such thing as closing time now. Last drinks used to be at eleven, that's when they start start now. Just what do you do all night?' She asked Shona accusingly, as if she were the entire youth problem. now. Just what do you do all night?' She asked Shona accusingly, as if she were the entire youth problem.

'We dance!' Shona said. Young, gorgeous and minus insecurities, she did a strange s.p.a.ced-out motion that had every one giggling, even Lorna. 'Like this!'

'That's not dancing!' May jeered. 'This is dancing.' And she took Shona by the hand and spun her round till the whole room was laughing, even Lorna, and she loved them. She loved them all and wanted to fit in, wanted to be one of them, but she could never be so loose with herself and anyway there was no point really, because in a couple of weeks she'd be gone. In a couple of weeks, if she did get a job, if James did put in a word, she'd be in another London hospital and starting all over again.

'Come on, Lorna!' May gave her a very nice smile. 'I'll look after you.'

She certainly did. May, Lorna realised, looked after everyone. She had her finger on every pulse and not just the patients'. She could smell trouble before it even arrived and there was something so stoic about her, something so right, right, that she commanded respect even from those who never usually gave it-because, Lorna worked out, watching her chatting to Rita, a tired s.e.x worker who was holding a wad of gauze to her scalp, May respected them. that she commanded respect even from those who never usually gave it-because, Lorna worked out, watching her chatting to Rita, a tired s.e.x worker who was holding a wad of gauze to her scalp, May respected them.

And so too did Lorna.

A London A and E brought in a very fresh set of problems-some she recognised, some she didn't, but always Lorna tried.

'It doesn't have to be this way,' she said to Rita at two a.m. when she finally got around to st.i.tching her scalp.

The language that followed defied imagination. May put on the kettle and prepared to mop up tears, but Lorna wasn't crying.

'You can't change the world,' May said.

'No!' A little prim face stared her right in the eye. 'But if she'd let me, I'd change it for her.'

It was rather uplifting when at six a.m. a street-weary face reappeared and asked for the 'posh Scottish doctor'. May duly buzzed Lorna and her pale, sleep-deprived face appeared.

May wasn't privy to what was said. Lorna took two mugs of coffee into the interview room and emerged a good hour later. But as May filled in her time sheet and rinsed her Thermos before placing it in her basket, at some level she knew something good had been done at the crack of dawn-something very good indeed.

Nothing that would change the world, of course, May thought as her beloved husband kissed her h.e.l.lo, her tea and toast waiting just as it always was when she did nights. He kissed her goodbye this morning as he dashed to his own work but May sat in the living room for a quiet moment of reflection before heading off to bed. Yes, something had been done this morning that would hopefully change one person's world.

It was plenty to get to sleep on.

Chapter Eighteen

SHE wore her gla.s.ses chain. It was actually very useful, even if she did look like a sour old spinster, but she didn't care. No, what Lorna cared about more was when James was called in at eleven on the Sat.u.r.day night. wore her gla.s.ses chain. It was actually very useful, even if she did look like a sour old spinster, but she didn't care. No, what Lorna cared about more was when James was called in at eleven on the Sat.u.r.day night.

'Sorry, James.' She heard Abby call out to him as Lorna sat perched on the end of a gurney in Resus, taking a cardiac history from a recent arrival. 'We've had two stabbings and trauma and the surgeons are all in Theatre. I can't stop this arm bleeding.'

'No problem,' James said, and Abby glanced over, saw him tying a plastic ap.r.o.n over his going-out-on-a-Sat.u.r.day-night clothes and pulling on some rubber gloves. He nodded over to her, a polite nod, not a hint of suggestiveness, or the teeny wink that he would normally have given, and Lorna knew that the door to his heart was finally closed to her.

'Ellie didn't seem too impressed at me pulling you away.'

For just a second their eyes met, James a touch uncomfortable, Lorna trying to pretend that a six-inch knife hadn't just plunged through her heart.

'Ellie's used to it,' James said. And that, as they say, was that.

Lorna dropped her gaze and carried on taking the patient history. James pulled back the gauze on the arterial bleed and called for the light to be lowered and for a pair of forceps. They did their best to get on with the rest of the night.

'He just needed st.i.tching.' Abby popped her head into the suture theatre later, where Lorna was checking a patient's BP. The place was steaming. A thick pile of white cards was clipped to the theatre door and every one of them was waiting to be sutured.

She'd been working her way through them, trying not to care that James had long since gone, trying not to think about his nice big bed and Ellie in it. She had sutured Mr Devlon's hand wound as Abby had instructed, but just as Lavinia was setting up for the next one, the patient had a dizzy turn as he climbed down off the theatre bed.

'I'll take him to one of the cubicles. He can have a little rest before he goes home.' Lavinia offered, only Lorna wasn't happy with that.

She had, had, even though it had hurt, taken on board Abby's criticism and had picked up speed, trying not to stall on minor details, which was, Lorna admitted to herself, her usual way. She had found out why doctors had a reputation for messy writing as she'd signed her name at the bottom of countless casualty cards and done her very best not to take a lengthy history and then do a full body examination for a straightforward sprained ankle. even though it had hurt, taken on board Abby's criticism and had picked up speed, trying not to stall on minor details, which was, Lorna admitted to herself, her usual way. She had found out why doctors had a reputation for messy writing as she'd signed her name at the bottom of countless casualty cards and done her very best not to take a lengthy history and then do a full body examination for a straightforward sprained ankle.

Only it went against her methodical mind-if the doctor wasn't looking for trouble, then who else would?

And Mr Devlon was a tough man, a carpenter by trade who had, as he'd told her, been st.i.tched more times than he could remember, so why was he looking so grey and about to faint?

'It happens sometimes after st.i.tching.' Lavinia had his head down and was telling him to take deep breaths, and, of course, patients often did feel sick or faint after st.i.tching, Lorna knew that that much, but there was something about Mr Devlon that didn't seem right to her. much, but there was something about Mr Devlon that didn't seem right to her.

'Pop him into a cubicle,' Lorna said, 'and get him into a gown and I'll come and take a proper look at him.'

'Abby's already examined him,' Lavinia said. 'He's for discharge after st.i.tching.'

'Except he's about to faint.' Lorna was having great difficulty a.s.serting herself, but Abby had told her to after all! 'Just put him in a cubicle, please.'

She could almost feel the daggers Abby was shooting into her back as she headed for the cubicle, but at three a.m. this Sunday morning, even if she cared, she cared about her patients more. She refused to practise sticky-plaster medicine, just because some registrar told her that was how it should be done!

Lavinia had got him into a gown and, of course, he looked the picture of health now, smiling and joking away to the nurse as Lorna walked in.

'How are you feeling now, Mr Devlon?'

'Grand!' he said. 'I don't know what happened in there.'

'You cut your hand on a Stanley knife?'

'That's right,' he agreed as Lorna skimmed through his brief notes. 'I'm laying a carpet.'

'There was no dizziness?' She watched him hesitate for just a moment before he answered.

'Well, I felt a bit dizzy after,' he admitted, 'but there was quite a bit of blood.' He smiled at Lavinia, who was standing with a rather bored expression on her face, but she smiled nicely back at the patient. 'Got it all over the new carpet. The wife's not going to be too pleased.'

'I'm talking about when you cut yourself,' Lorna said. 'Was there any dizziness prior to that?'

'Well, maybe a bit.' Mr Devlon shrugged. 'I just came over a bit queer.'

'Has that happened before?'

'Nope.'

'Never?' She was chatting away as she examined him, trying to be quick, yet trying not to rush things, sensing Mr Devlon's reluctance and noting it to herself.

'As I said to the other doctor, apart from the odd accident at work, I've never had a day's sickness in my life.'

'Okay.' She'd listened to his chest, had examined him neurologically, and now she lowered the trolley and asked him to lie flat so she could examine his abdomen.

'Have you been feeling well today?'

'A bit off...' He gave a sort of small grimace as Lorna probed. 'Look, I pa.s.sed a bit of blood. This evening, before I started on the carpet.'

'Fresh blood?' Lorna checked in a matter-of-fact voice, but Mr Devlon didn't answer. Irritated and restless, he sat up. He took a couple of big breaths but his face was a horrible grey colour again.

'Actually, I need to go to the bathroom.'

'Could you get a pan please, Lavinia?'

Lavinia was about to roll her eyes, of that Lorna was quite sure, but her bored expression quickly changed as she glanced down at the patient. The once ruddy pink Mr Devlon was grey, and sweating profusely, trying to get off the trolley to get to the bathroom as finally the two women worked together.

Lavinia, grabbed a pan from under the trolley and talked calmly to the embarra.s.sed, restless man as Lorna pulled on an oxygen mask.

'It's okay,' Lavinia said, pressing the call bell for a.s.sistance. The poor man was lying sweating on the trolley and on the point of collapse as Lorna quickly wrapped a tourniquet around his arm, but Lorna could see her fingers trembling, and knew she was going to miss.

'I'll do it.' Lavinia swiftly nudged her out of the way and completed the procedure as Lorna ran through a drip.

'What have we got?' May dashed in just when she was needed. The patient had collapsed totally and they had him flat on the trolley now, the pan had been taken away, and the head of the bed lowered as they dashed him over to Resus.

'Ma.s.sive PR bleed,' Lorna responded in a matter-of-fact voice, deliberately not looking at Abby as she joined them in Resus. 'He had one earlier in the evening but was reluctant to say.'

'Isn't that the hand injury?' May could chat and summon the surgeons at the same time. 'I thought he was on his way home.'

Had Abby bothered to try and get to know her better, she'd have known that Lorna wasn't one to gloat-victory was rather hollow when it meant a patient was sick. All Lorna wanted was guidance instead of criticism but, rather than improve matters, if anything it made them worse. Lorna, given what had happened to Mr Devlon, was completely paranoid about all her patients now and slowed down further, if that was possible. Abby, defensive and scornful, took every opportunity to point out that if you worked in Emergency long enough there were always patients that surprised you, and as Lorna rang the on-call paediatrician for an opinion on a sore throat, rather tersely Abby told her that not every child had meningitis, not every child merited bloods and admission, just in case. just in case. Both women were right and both women were wrong-that was the nature of medicine and Lorna was struggling with it. Both women were right and both women were wrong-that was the nature of medicine and Lorna was struggling with it.

Really struggling with it, in fact.

But nothing, not a h.e.l.lish night at work, or a boss that was out to get her, compared to losing James.

The station was virtually empty at seven-thirty a.m. on a Sunday morning.

She sat on the platform and checked her phone, to see again if he had called her. Though why he would or should, Lorna had no idea. He didn't have to justify himself to her.

And he didn't.

No blinking light on her answering machine when, frozen, she made it home.

Showering and pulling on her mint green pyjamas and the socks of James's she'd kept, she set her alarm and curled up in bed.

Told herself she had to go to sleep because she had to be on the ball for tonight's shift.

Told herself it was good that he was moving on, because now maybe she could.

Told herself that once this wretched operation was over she'd feel better.

Except she couldn't stop crying.

Chapter Nineteen

HER four nights of h.e.l.l were nearly over and all Lorna wanted was to leave and never return, was seriously considering doing that just as soon as this shift was over. four nights of h.e.l.l were nearly over and all Lorna wanted was to leave and never return, was seriously considering doing that just as soon as this shift was over.

She'd hardly sat down since nine p.m. and the clock was nearing six, and though she'd gone to have a quick rest in the staffroom she'd found James asleep in there.

He'd been called in three times and had clearly given up on going home. He'd been stretched out over several seats, absolutely zonked out, his mouth slightly open, one hand dangling on the floor, the other on his stomach.

He was wearing theatre blues, and the top had lifted to show just a little glimpse of his stomach. Lorna had sat with her cup of instant soup, trying to concentrate on some early morning TV show, except it sounded like her father preaching, so she'd turned her gaze away and stared at James instead.

At his big feet and his thick thighs, and that lovely floppy fringe, and that chest she loved to bite.

And those lips that had so many times kissed her. Never more had she wanted to wake him with one.

And then she'd stared down at the bit she was avoiding looking at, because one of the advantages or disadvantages of threadbare hospital blues was that you could tell James dressed to the left.

It really wasn't much of a break, so Lorna gave in, rinsed out her cup and headed back out. She settled for gulping a cup of coffee at the nurses' station and, of course, Abby had to dash past at that point on her way to a patient in Resus.