Do They Know I'm Running? Part 33

-I'm fine, yes. The words a hiss of air against her teeth.-Quick. Please.

He patted and pulled his way upward, until finally his hand reached the top of the bluff. He searched the ledge blindly, hoping for another root to grab hold of, only to encounter a scaly scuttling thing. Before he could pull back his hand the poisonous sting flared down into his arm like a streak of molten wire. He shouted in pain then said, "Bajo! Bajo!" "Bajo! Bajo!"

They tumbled to the bottom, her first, him on top, tangling up as they tried to scramble to their feet. His hand burned, he shook it as he reached for the flashlight, flipped it on. The wounds were small but deep, two of them, vaguely parallel. A spider not a scorpion, he thought, probably a tarantula. It would be painful, not dangerous but he couldn't imagine trying the climb again-he doubted his grip would hold, especially with Lupe's added weight, and for all he knew there was a nest of them up there, not just one.

-Let's wait here a moment while I think things through. He cradled his bad hand, chewing his lip.-Maybe there's another way. But he knew there wasn't. They could try their luck, slash through the trees, see if somehow, somewhere, they stumbled upon another path down the mountainside. But if such a path existed why would this one be here-who forged dead ends up the sides of mountains?

He tried the flashlight again, looked left, looked right, saw only the dense forest and the mountain wall, the twenty-foot bluff that might as well be a mile high. His hand felt afire, his whole arm had turned weak but the pain was only half of it. He remembered his Day of the Dead benedictions with Tia Lucha, her steadfast conviction that her sister, his mother, lay just beyond a veil of incomprehension-someday they would all gather together again, laugh, sing, weep. When young, he had believed, not so much now. But maybe that wasn't the point. Could there possibly be anything waiting beyond death that would be so much worse than this?

He heard a rustling off to his left. Another mountain lion, he thought, or the same one, it had been tracking them all along. That's how it will happen, he thought, a predator smelling the blood. He moved the flashlight to his left hand, his good hand, then drawing Melchior's pistol from his belt with his swollen aching right. He didn't know how many bullets were left.

To h.e.l.l with being seen, he thought, turning the flashlight on and pointing it at the noise, discovering not a mountain lion but a small racc.o.o.nlike face protruding from the broad-leafed greenery-immense and probing eyes, a whitish snout, a long curling tail like a monkey's. A coatimundi. He'd never seen one except on nature shows. They stared at each other for a moment, long enough for Roque to believe he heard someone say the single word: Here.

To Lupe:-Did you just say something?

She stirred from a daze.-No.

The animal withdrew into the underbrush and Roque puzzled at that, wondering why he'd not seen a way to escape in that direction before. Here, he thought, remembering the voice, unable to place it, following its direction, breaking through the scrub and pointing the beam of the flashlight down into a deep and narrow ravine, terraced with rock, dotted with scrub and spindly trees, opening at the bottom into a densely overgrown blackness.

Only then did he remember the dreams, especially the second, that night at Rafa's service station before they crossed from El Salvador into Guatemala-the image of his sickly mother beckoning him forward, the tarantula.

-We're going this way. He gestured with the flashlight for Lupe to follow. They would scoot down the rock ledge into the creva.s.se, come out somewhere lower on the mountainside, take their chances that way, forge a path of their own through the forest if need be.

-I'll go first. He got down on his haunches, tucked the pistol away, clutched the flashlight. The drop was long and steep and he could almost feel himself tumbling head over foot but he kept his weight back, plummeting like a sled. He crashed into tree roots and nettled plants, sharp outcroppings of rock, finally hitting bottom with a crunching thud.

He bounced up, fearing he might be bitten by something unseen, then pointed the flashlight up the cluttered rock face. The beam caught her peering fearfully over the ledge.

-It's all right, he called upward.-Follow the light down.

It took her a moment to get into position and when she rocketed down it seemed for a moment she too might begin to tumble head over heels but she stiffened into a blade, continuing down. At the bottom he broke her fall and the two of them hurtled recklessly into nearby scrub. Dazed, they untangled themselves, rose to their feet, swaying.

Roque pointed the flashlight toward the mouth of the ravine.-This way.

There was no path to follow, no way to tell the right direction, an excellent plan for getting lost, but he focused on one tree and then the one behind it, fashioning as straight a line as he could, taking heart from the downward slope of his footfalls and figuring once they were off the mountain he'd get his bearings. Maybe they'd still be in Mexico when that happened, if so they'd somehow turn themselves north and go. It was the best plan he had now. An idle touch of Lupe's shoulder revealed the wound was seeping again. Her breath came in coughing gasps more often, her steps fell heavy, she tripped and staggered to keep up, sometimes gripping his belt.

Time dissolved. The minutes dragged like hours and the hours collapsed into minutes. He heard only the rush of blood in his ears and the crunching monotony of his footsteps, hers behind him, the chafing rustle of her breath in her throat, interrupted now and again by the yipping barks of unseen coyotes. He couldn't pinpoint when it happened, but the oaks and pines gave way to mesquite and paloverde and tormented Joshua trees, the earth turned a coppery red in the flashlight beam, thickets of spindly ocotillos and tall agave spears rose up from the desert floor. For the first time in hours he realized how cold it was, his shivering a kind of irritated happiness, forcing him awake.

In the distance he saw a pinpoint of light-maybe from a house, maybe a church. It remained unchanging and he set his course by it, keeping it always in sight, increasing his pace.

They came to a barbed-wire fence-the border?-struggled through it, shirts snagging, and ten steps beyond she finally collapsed, falling first to her knees then her side. She winced from pain and curled up, teeth clenched, rocking, trying to will herself into numbness he thought as he stood over her, grabbing at her wrist, her arm, telling her to get up, please, try. He barely recognized his own voice. To the east, dawn smeared a cold white line along the hillcrests. A raven soared overhead, black against blue, tilting wing to wing in the tumbling wind. In the distance, a lone mule grazed in the scrub.

-You have to get up. We're almost there.

She said nothing, struggling to find some purchase, gathering strength, pulling herself to her knees. Hooking her good arm around his shoulder, he hoisted her the rest of the way up but her eyes rolled back, her knees buckled. He nearly fell, dragged to the ground after her, but he redoubled his hold and pulled her upward, leaning her body against his.-Let's sing, he said, something we both know. The way you sang for the bikers, you were so beautiful, so brave. You're my hero, know that? You're so much stronger than me. Come on. We'll sing something we both know. The way you sang for the bikers, you were so beautiful, so brave. You're my hero, know that? You're so much stronger than me. Come on. We'll sing.

In a tuneless whisper he flailed at the melody-"Sin Ti," what else?-butchering the lyrics. By the time he realized a dog was barking he'd been registering the sound in the back of his mind for a minute or longer-like the wind, the cold, and yet a haunting reminder too of his dreams-twilight, the stickiness of blood, the barren plain. Something precious he'd have to fight to keep. He redoubled his focus on the old sad song, on her dragging steps, her sliding weight. He could see it now in the dawn light, a sprawling ranch-style house. The dog was lurching at the end of a chain, frothing as it barked. He opened his shirt in order to get to the gun. The one last thing in his dream not yet revealed: a gun blast. But he didn't want to shoot the dog, wanted no harm to anyone or anything now. He wanted only to stop, rest, have someone look at Lupe's shoulder, clean and dress the wound. And after? That was impossible to picture.

"Alto! Tengo una escopeta. Esta es propiedad privada."

Roque glanced up. For the first time he saw the tall lean silhouette marching forward. A man. His voice had mileage on it but his Spanish was wooden and nasal. He held a weapon-una escopeta. A shotgun. No, Roque thought, please, trying with all his might to pick up his pace. If the man can just see us up close he'll understand.

"I said stop! Alto Alto, d.a.m.n it. Won't say it again. Next thing I do is shoot."

Roque remembered the first time he saw her, sitting in the corner of Lonely's makeshift recording studio, her face bruised, her eyes fierce and untrusting. He remembered hearing her voice that day, the throaty heartbreak in it, the way it awakened something tragic and gentle and wise inside him. We've come too far, he thought. Not even G.o.d is that cruel.

The tall rangy man with the shotgun charged forward. He shouldered the weapon.

Summoning the words from a place inside him, a place he couldn't be sure existed even a few hours ago, Roque called out: "Don't shoot! Help us ... please ... I'm an American ..."

He felt the full force of her weight against him as she lost consciousness. He buckled sideways with her fall, then the shotgun blast.

BUNKERED IN HIS KITCHEN, STARING OUT THE SMALL CURTAINED window above the sink, the rancher watched the two figures milling about the drag line just beyond his property. One of the two was suited up in Border Patrol tan, the other wore a blue raid jacket over street clothes, the back emblazoned with large white letters he couldn't read from this distance. An SUV with that distinctive rack of lights on top stood off by the side.

They were inspecting the ground, looking for tracks. The skills of the local cutters were legend, the number of ants on a candy wrapper like a clock, telling how long since the litterbug blundered through. So the stories went, anyway. The rancher had no reason to doubt them. He dragged a calloused palm across his stubble. The tracks would lead straight this direction, blood trails too, the questions would start. Questions he wanted no part of.

He turned from the window, wondering at the things that trip you up, unraveling the promise of life right before your eyes, testing you. Audrey, he thought, there had always been Audrey or it felt like always and all he'd ever wanted was to make sure she was safe. You can't make another person happy, that's their affair to manage, but with luck, yes, their safety you might manage. But, G.o.d bless her, she had been happy. He felt humbled by that.

He wasn't one to put stock in fairness but there was a point beyond which the unfairness seemed nothing short of vicious.

He tried a mental tally, good versus bad, a lifetime's worth, but the exercise felt pointless-how does one weigh the good against death? As for testing his mettle, his spine, his spirit, it was years since any of that mattered. I'm an old man, he thought. He would have been grateful-insane, down-on-his-knees grateful-for yeah, sure, just a touch of dumb luck.

Following the murmur of voices down the hall, he stopped in the door to the guest room. The girl lay on the bed, fluttering in and out of bad sleep. Audrey sat beside her, holding her hand, talking to Doc Emerick. The boy sat in the corner, his right hand bandaged, looking at the girl like every breath was a signal. An empty jar of peanut b.u.t.ter sat between his feet, a spoon inside; he'd plowed through the stuff like a swarm of termites through damp pine.

The rancher had fired his first round into the air, to let them know he was serious, but the girl had already gone down. The boy dropped to his knees, first to see to the girl, then to plead at the top of his lungs for their lives. His English lacked accent, though he was clearly Hispanic. Audrey, hearing the boy, said, "Good G.o.d, Lyndell, help them."

"Get back inside, d.a.m.n it. He's armed."

"Tell him to toss the gun off someplace."

He eased forward, shotgun trained on the boy. "Toss off that gun," mimicking her words, too scared to think up another way to say it.

The boy looked down at his midriff like he was angry the thing was there, then plucked the gun from under his belt and heaved it into the scrub. "She's been shot," he said, his voice hoa.r.s.e and dry, a bobcat hiss. "Her shoulder."

He helped the boy bring her inside, figuring they'd call the Border Patrol and have them handle it, but Audrey would have none of that. She sensed something between the two of them-she was uncanny that way, more so since the sickness-and she refused to let him call the law before she had some idea if she was right. But they couldn't wait caring for the girl, so she'd called Doc Emerick and he'd come straightaway, thinking the emergency had to do with her, Audrey, not some stranger. He'd even brought the morphine drip he'd promised, the final morbid tool, thinking that was the reason for her call.

She'd pulled him aside when he first saw the girl. "I know what you're gonna say, John Emerick. I know you've got obligations under the law. But there are other laws. You've known me over thirty years. Don't make me die with this girl on my conscience. I can handle the cancer, I can handle the chemo and the endless string of bad news, handle all of it. I can't handle turning that girl back to whatever it was that drove her so hard, so far."

And so the doctor sutured the girl's wound, shot her full of antibiotics, hydrated her with fluids. While he did, the boy murmured the tale of all he and the girl had been through. And if Lyndell hadn't spent his life married to a woman like Audrey he might've said: Well, that's unfortunate and all but too bad, sorry, law's the law, straighten it out where you came from. Except the boy came from here and the girl's going back was a death sentence. He could no more load that onto Audrey's conscience than the doc could.

Audrey glanced up at him from her chair, still gripping the girl's hand. "Lyndell, this young man is gonna call his aunt. She lives up near Frisco and she's gonna come down in her car. Too risky, them taking the bus. And I doubt this girl could make that kind of trip anyhow. Show Roque, that's his name, show him where he can use the phone, would you?"

The boy glanced up with foxlike eyes. Lyndell nodded for him to get up and come along. He figured the phone in the kitchen would do. He led the boy back, pointed to the wall mount.

The boy said, "I want to make this up to you." Lyndell raised his hand, trying to cut the boy off, but, "We wouldn't have made it this far if people we met along the way hadn't been kind here and there. None more so than you."

Lyndell made a show of clearing his throat, thinking the boy had the presence of somebody twice his age. "Sounds of it, you met plenty of unkind too."

The boy seemed to drift away for a second. "Just more reason to be grateful. I want you to know, I don't take this for granted. I'll find some way to repay you."

Fl.u.s.tered, Lyndell went to the sink for a gla.s.s of water he lacked any thirst for. Looking out across the scrub, he saw the two men out by the Border Patrol SUV, Rooster barking at them, chain rattling as he darted back and forth. The two men were pointing along a line that led straight to the back porch. Lyndell felt his pulse jump. "You might want to hurry up with that call," he said.

LATTIMORE LISTENED TO THE SIGNCUTTER, WHOSE NAME WAS IRETON, extol his expertise. "We've seen this thing we call foamers? Guys tie squares of foam to their feet, thinking it won't leave tracks. Idiots-you have weight, you'll leave an imprint, and if it's not windblown or caved in, it's recent. Like these. Even in the desert, there's moisture, that's what holds the form. No sign of tracks crossing them, a centipede, a snake. That means they're recent. This set-I'd say it's a girl, or a woman, given the size of the shoe-the drag in the left foot and the heavy implant of the right, all that tells me she's hurt. And the steps so close together, the bigger one's holding up the hurt one. They've kicked up rocks, you can see where they used to be, the sand's paler. Sun bakes the hardpan so it's almost like a varnish."

He pointed along the drag, the track of brushed desert sand the Border Patrol created exactly for this purpose, to see where walkers had crossed, leaving their distinctive trails. These two-and only two, he thought, one a girl, not knowing what to make of that yet-they hadn't bothered with a brushout, dragging a tree branch behind to wipe out their tracks. Like Ireton said, at least one of them, the girl, was barely standing. Even a city boy like Lattimore could see that.

"You say you got a tip about these two?"

"Indeed." Ireton flipped another stone over, checked the coloration of the earth beneath. "A call, plus they set off some sensors nearer the foothills. Wasn't the spot we were expecting, given the tip, which just goes to show you."

Lattimore waited for more, a little tutorial on the unreliability of informants. It didn't come. "The call, who was it from?"

Ireton looked up from the ground, a trained eye, trained on Lattimore. "Somebody on the other side. No name. Probably some pandillero pandillero, felt like he was screwed out of his money."

Lattimore pointed along the tortured line the tracks formed, aiming toward the lone house half a mile off. There were traces of blood along the way. "So I guess we ask the folks up there if anybody stumbled through."

Ireton shook his head. "You can bet they stopped. Like I said, the one that's hurt, she's hurt bad. If they made it all the way to the house, good for them. Any farther? I'd be amazed."

Lattimore nodded obligingly but the charade was wearing thin. Anonymous call my a.s.s, he thought, rising from his crouch, dusting off his hands. "Let's go pay a visit," he said.

THE DOCTOR WASN'T GONE TEN MINUTES BEFORE THE TWO LAWMEN showed up on the front step. Lyndell closed the door to the guest room and told them all to stay quiet, he'd deal with this.

The one in city clothes was taller and older than the one in uniform. They both had that sad sort of gotcha in their eyes, like they were so d.a.m.n sorry they had to ruin things.

"Mr. Desmond? I'm Donny Ireton with the Douglas Station, Border Patrol? This here's Special Agent Jim Lattimore, FBI. We're tracking a couple walkers, came over the mountains last night. One of them looks like she was pretty badly hurt. Think it's a she, given the tracks, maybe a boy. They lead right up to your house here. I was wondering, anybody stop here this morning, asking for water or medicine or ..."

The question hovered between them for a moment, like a dare.

"Only one here who needs medicine," he said, "would be my wife. She's got the cancer. Takes chemo twice a week, through this port they sewed into her shoulder? Not like it's done any good. Just makes her sicker, you ask me. h.e.l.l of a thing."

The two lawmen made a feeble show of sympathy. Ireton again: "You didn't see anybody?"

"I'm kinda busy with other things."

The city one, FBI agent, Lattimore, was studying Lyndell's face.

"Things ain't been easy here in a while," he added, telling himself inwardly: Shut up. Surest sign of a liar, he talks too much.

Ireton said, "I gotta tell you, Mr. Desmond, it looks like they headed straight for your door. And weren't in good enough shape to get much farther."

"Like I said, I been preoccupied."

Ireton tried to steal a glance inside the house. "Would you mind if I spoke to your wife?"

Lyndell rose up full height-the years hadn't worn him down, not like some men his age. "What part of cancer did you not understand, young man?"

"Mr. Desmond?" It was Lattimore. "I can imagine what it must be like, having two strangers show up at your door at the crack of dawn, one hurt, both of them with G.o.d only knows what kind of story as to how they wound up here. n.o.body wants trouble. I can understand your helping them out, seeing them on their way, not wanting to make any enemies among the people they may be involved with. But we can help you if you're scared or-"

"I say I'm scared?"

"Not in words. Your eyes, though-"

"Lyndell, who is it?"

She came out of the guest room, stumbled down the hallway, using the wall as a brace. How could he chastise her? She wore only one sock, her robe wrapped tight. She gripped his shoulder hard, staring at the two visitors with empty eyes. "Is there something wrong?"

The two seemed shaken, put off their game. Ireton said, "We're tracking two walkers who came over the mountain last night, Mrs. Desmond."

She looked into her husband's eyes with infinite regret. "Did you tell them?"

He swallowed. It felt like a child's fist in his throat. "I did not."

She glanced back at the strangers at her door. "These two young ones, a boy and a girl, they came by a little after dawn. The girl, she was cut up pretty bad. A wildcat got to her along the pa.s.s down the mountain, tore her arm up pretty good. The boy got bit by a tarantula. And he had a pistol. He asked for food and water and a ride to a pickup spot north of Sierra Vista. We're pretty isolated out here. My husband, he fears for me. We couldn't tell what might happen if we put up a fight. Most likely, it wouldn't end too good. So we fed them, gave them a couple bottles of water, looked to their wounds best we could and then my husband here drove them to the spot they wanted. He can tell you better than me where that was."

All eyes turned to Lyndell, none more pleading than hers. His mind froze up-say something, he thought, Christ say anything, it doesn't matter, but his tongue was locked up. "I'm not sure I want to say," he managed finally. "Like you said, the people these folks get tangled up with nowadays, I want no part of them."

"No one needs to know you told us," Ireton said.

"Funny how they always find out though, ain't it."

"They're probably long gone by now, regardless," Audrey said.

"I think we'd still like to know," Ireton said.

It would be the only way to get rid of them, Lyndell realized. "You know the old Rogers place, about a mile beyond the Bisbee slag pond? There's an outbuilding behind the house. That's where I dropped them. About eight this morning, it was. I'm sorry. I know it wasn't right. But you gotta understand what we're dealing with here."

He looked at them pleadingly, his need a truth embedded in his lies. Both men stared back, then Lattimore said, "We're grateful for your time."

Lyndell nodded and watched them turn away, sidle down the walk, then closed the door and said nothing to Audrey-he felt relieved but angry, the anger oddly stronger now that they were gone and that confused him-helping her back to the guest room. The girl was awake, looking weak but stable. The boy held her hand, his chair pulled up close beside the bed.

"I don't think it would be wise for you two to stay here much longer," he told the boy. "Call your aunt, tell her to get to Tucson as fast as she can, any way she can. We can put you up in a motel there until she arrives."

"I can't ask you to do that," Roque said.

"It ain't a favor," Lyndell said.

THEY WAITED UNTIL THE BOY CALLED HIS AUNT AGAIN, MADE ARRANGEMENTS for her to come quick, then the girl tried some broth. It seemed to muster some color. She was strong in spirit, stubborn, you could see that in her eyes once she had her bearings, and she said it was not a problem, she would go whenever and however it was best. Audrey gave her a fresh shirt, something better for the cold than the things she'd brought along in her sad little bag. The boy helped her to her feet and she bit her lip but fixed her eyes on where she had to step and they made their way down the hall, a b.u.mp here, a stagger there, then through the kitchen to the garage.

"We'll use the wagon, not the truck," Lyndell said, and the boy helped her into the backseat, let her lie down, covered her with a Hudson blanket Lyndell brought from inside the house. "You go ahead and get yourself situated, I just want to check in on Audrey before we head out."

She was already back in bed, inspecting the tall chrome carriage holding her morphine, a curious look on her face, half grim, half tranquil. His heart sank. He knocked gently on the doorframe and it broke the spell. She glanced up.