Deserves to Die Part 13

She looked up to find Jeremy standing in the doorway. He was carrying a worn cardboard box with a case file sticker attached that read GRAYSON, BARTHOLOMEW, a case number and dates of the investigation.

"Hi," she said, always a little surprised to see her son, whose hours at the department were few and far between. It hadn't been that many years ago that she'd been afraid he would make a wrong turn and end up working on the other side of the law. "Sure. Just set it there in the corner." She pointed to a s.p.a.ce between the filing cabinet and her desk. Then, as he turned to go, added, "Hey, Jer, got a sec?"

He looked pained. "I guess."

"Close the door, would you?" she asked, waggling her finger at the door to the hallway.

Pushing the door shut, he leaned against it. "What?"

"I, uh, I wanted to apologize for last night."

"For what?"

Seriously? Is he that clueless? Maybe. "For what I said about you and Heidi. You've grown up in the past six months or so, seem to know what you want. If you're seeing Heidi, I'm not going to fight it. Your decision."

"It's not a big thing, Mom. I like her, yeah, and you know, we plan to go out when she comes back here or if I go visit her, but that's about it." His face was serious. "She's been through a lot, too. Her folks are splitting up and her sisters are all in college. It's just her and her mom. In a new town."

"I know," Pescoli said. "She's probably grown up a lot, too."

"Yeah, I guess. She's talking about moving out and getting married and-"

Pescoli felt the blood drain from her face just about the same time her stomach did a slow, nauseous flip.

"Oh, not to me, Mom. I mean, I don't think so. But someday she wants to-hey!"

She retched. Unable to stop herself, she grabbed the garbage pail beneath her desk, bent over, and upchucked all over the wrappers and trash already in there.

"Gross." Jeremy gazed at his mother in horror.

"Sorry," she said after spitting a couple times. She grabbed a cold cup of coffee and washed the bile out of her mouth, drinking the foul-tasting concoction down.

"What's wrong with you? I didn't say I was getting married."

"No, no, that's not it," she a.s.sured him and almost laughed aloud. "I haven't felt well all morning."

"Have you got the flu?"

"Something I ate, probably." She sensed the blood returning to her face. "I feel better now."

"But"-he motioned to the garbage pail-"G.o.d, it stinks."

"Maybe you should clean it up. Isn't that part of your job description?"

"Are you kidding?"

"You think you can look at dead bodies, blood spatter, go to an accident with people barely alive, mangled in their smashed cars, but you can't clean up a little puke?" She was shaking her head. "Better get used to it, Jer. Sometimes deputies have drunks throw up all over them, or do worse in their squad cars, defecating and all."

"I know, Mom, but, this is my mother's vomit!"

She did laugh at his obvious disgust. "Not in your job description?"

"No!"

"Okay, okay. I'll handle it. This time."

"Anytime."

Her grin stretched wider. "I was just yanking your chain."

"Geez, Mom, not funny!" Swiftly, before she could change her mind, he opened the door and nearly sprang through.

She eyed the mess in her trash can. He was right. The sour odor of vomit reeked, causing her stomach to roil again. She had no choice but to haul the trash to the women's restroom and clean up the mess as best she could.

She spent most of the rest of the afternoon on the phone, calling the local p.a.w.n shops and faxing or e-mailing photos of the missing ring, hoping to get a hit. She was only partway through the list that Doug Pollard had provided of people who knew Sheree, when the calls from Utah started coming in. A torrent of them. She spoke with Sheree's distraught parents and three of her five sisters, even a cousin. The family itself was immense and the upshot was no one had left the Salt Lake City-Provo area, nor spoken to Sheree, in the last week before her disappearance. Of course, they all told Pescoli the same thing-Sheree had no enemies, no one even the least disgruntled with her as far as anyone knew. Sheree, it seemed, was an "angel," which was usually the case when someone came to a violent and unexpected end. Less usual were the remarks about Doug and how great he was. Theirs was a perfect match, except, of course, for the parents wishing they'd gotten married before they started living together, but even that ultimate sin was forgiven as Doug was so devoted, such a "good guy."

"n.o.body's that great," Pescoli said under her breath before pushing back her chair and checking her e-mail again. Two of the four p.a.w.n shops within a sixty mile radius had responded. Neither one had Sheree Cantnor's missing engagement ring.

Maybe it had been fenced. Or kept for a trophy by the killer. Or was still in Sheree's attacker's pocket a thousand miles from Grizzly Falls. It's early yet, she told herself. If the maniac who'd done this had his wits about him, he'd wait, but if he needed money fast, for instance in order to score drugs, then he might try to get cash for the ring ASAP.

Then why leave the earrings? Did he know they weren't't valuable? And why hack off her finger instead of just yanking the ring off ?

Because robbery isn't the motive.

Alvarez was right. It was personal somehow. Cutting off the finger was making a statement to the victim or someone else.

Pescoli glanced down at her own engagement ring and twisted it a little, thinking hard. The earrings bothered her, but she told herself that they were just lucky the sicko hadn't sliced off the woman's ears and stolen them along with the fake diamond studs. Would he have known they were of little value? How? Not unless he was an expert or Sheree, or someone else, had told him so.

Despite the fact that Sheree was "beloved by all," Pescoli wondered who might hate her so much that they wanted to torture her before killing her. Or, had the severing of the digit been postmortem? The case was troubling, that was for sure.

From the corner of her eye, she caught a glimpse of the case file Jeremy had hauled down on Bart Grayson. "Later," she said to the box of notes and evidence reports. Hattie's wild theories about some connection between the Grayson brothers' deaths would just have to wait.

Pescoli had enough on her plate, personally and professionally, to last a couple lifetimes.

Chapter 13.

Ryder sat in his truck, not running the heater, staring through the windshield and falling snow at the Midway Diner across the street. He'd parked in the shadows, avoiding the pools of light from the street lamps, and every once in a while he turned on the engine long enough to clear the snow from the gla.s.s.

It had taken him a few days to find her, but he'd done his homework, whittled down his options by focusing on job opportunities that didn't require too much of a background check, and rooms for rent around the area. He'd also checked out Cade Grayson, who was already involved with another woman, one who had been married to his brother Bart, a victim of a suicide. Ryder wasn't really surprised. Cade Grayson was a love 'em and leave 'em kind of guy, though taking up with his dead brother's wife seemed low, even for the likes of him. So far, it seemed Anne-Marie wasn't in the picture.

Yet.

After learning that this particular restaurant had advertised for a waitress about a week earlier and the job had been filled, Ryder started watching the place. Just today, he'd caught a glimpse of the new hire through the windows. The pudgy waitress with the blond hair and full lips didn't look much like the woman he'd known in New Orleans.

His jaw slid to the side and he had to give her mental kudos for the transformation. The new woman appeared matronly, at least ten, maybe fifteen years older than Anne-Marie Calderone.

Then again she was a mistress of disguise, something he'd learned the hard way. It had been a slow realization on his part that the woman he was with was more fantasy than reality, but by then, he'd been caught in the pure heat of her, willing to let inaccuracies slide, uncaring that the facts didn't add up.

Idiot, he thought and flicked a glance at the rearview mirror, catching sight of his own gaze. Troubled hazel eyes glared back at him.

The restaurant was closing down. He could tell as the final patrons were leaving, the parking lot thinning out.

Lights were dimming in the diner, and the SORRY, WE'RE CLOSED sign was visible. Ten minutes pa.s.sed. He flipped on the wipers again, then cut the engine. Another five minutes and then he saw her, the woman he thought was Anne-Marie, as she headed to an SUV, an older model Chevy Tahoe. He watched her climb inside. The headlights flashed on, the engine sparked to life.

He waited as she drove out of the parking lot, then pulled out when another car was between them, following a couple blocks behind.

The streets of the G.o.dforsaken little town were nearly empty, only a few cars moving cautiously around corners or along the storefronts. He didn't bother with headlights until he was certain that, if she had been looking in her rearview, she wouldn't notice him joining traffic about the same time. He kept his truck behind the car between them, a Volkswagen Beetle that had seen better days. When the Bug turned a corner and only the snowy street stretched between their vehicles, he lagged back until she, too, turned off, heading out of town away from the businesses and through a residential district with widely s.p.a.ced houses on large lots. At one stoplight, two vehicles turned onto the street behind her, pulling between them. One was a bulky delivery truck and he couldn't see around it for a time, but it turned onto a side street. The other was a smaller compact that didn't block his view and he could easily keep her in his sights.

Eventually the compact turned onto a residential street but Anne-Marie kept on, leaving the residential district and turning onto a county road that wound its way past farms with large snow-covered fields and into the hills where the farmland gave way to wooded foothills.

He smiled to himself. For once, rather than hide in the throng of a city where she could get lost in a crowd, Anne-Marie had chosen isolation. Her mistake. Though he had to slow down and make certain the curtain of snow between them hid his vehicle, sometimes losing sight of her, it was still better that she was away from prying eyes.

Few cars drove in the opposite direction, nor did he see a glimpse of headlights in his side mirrors. The snowfall became thicker, visibility lessening. As he crested a rise, he caught a glimpse of red taillights, burning brighter for a second, then the road dipped again and they disappeared. When he reached that next hillock, the lights were nowhere to be seen. He hit the gas and drove a little faster, hoping to close the distance, to catch another glimpse of her. As he rounded a corner, he expected to see a hint of red through the thick snow, but there was nothing. Just curves and bends making it difficult to speed in that section of the forest. Gritting his teeth, he pressed down on the accelerator, feeling his tires slip a little as the truck rounded the sharper curves. Still, no hint of her Tahoe.

He drove another four miles, but had the sinking sensation that she'd gotten away.

"d.a.m.n it," he muttered, traveling another mile even faster, his tires struggling for purchase. Finally, he realized he'd lost her. He ground his teeth. Rather than drive endlessly on the road, he turned around in a wide spot in the road and with the wipers flicking off the snow, retraced his tracks. No cars met him on the way back. The woods were dense, only a few lanes veering off the main road. He slowed when he thought he'd come near the spot where he'd seen her brake lights flash, squinting into the darkness, searching the snow pack.

The ditches on the sides of the road were buried, brush barely visible in the mounds of icy white powder. There were no mailboxes. He'd thought he'd lost her for good when he noticed a drift and then another, realizing that they were actually ruts in the snow, fresh tire tracks, with only a trace of fresh snow covering them.

Bingo, he thought but kept driving, making note of the landmarks, a split tree across the road, the snag knifing upward, and a huge boulder about a hundred feet closer. He also pressed the b.u.t.ton on his odometer so he could track the distance to his room at the River View, then he made a note of the location on his GPS and cell phone. He'd come back once he was sure that she was at work. There was no reason to confront her now.

Not until he was certain that she was, indeed, Anne-Marie.

He had work to do.

"I really have to go," Pescoli said. She was lying in Santana's arms, his naked body spooned against hers in the downy folds of a sleeping bag in the master bedroom of their new, unfinished house. The musky scent of their recent lovemaking still hung in the air and perspiration was evaporating on her skin.

He gazed out the French doors to the night beyond. It was peaceful there. Serene. Snow falling, the lake a mirror, the world and all its problems seeming far away. "I'd argue with you, but I've tried that before."

"And?"

"I'm not saying you're mule-headed . . ."

"But," she prodded.

He chuckled deep in his chest, kissed the back of her head.

"So you are saying it."

"Maybe."

Twisting in the bag so that she faced him, she said, "So . . . there's something I need to tell you."

"Shoot."

His eyes, dark with the night, held hers. Unflinching. His lips had twisted into that s.e.xy smile that had a way of burrowing into her heart.

"I'm pregnant." She let the words hang in the air and the silence was suddenly deafening.

He was still as stone. "You're kidding."

"As serious as I've been about anything in my life." Clearing her throat, she added, "I haven't been to the doctor yet, but I took an in-home test a while back and then, of course, three more. They all turned out positive. We're going to have a baby."

His gaze searched her face and she knew he still didn't believe her. They'd been lovers for years and had always been careful. Though they'd never discussed children, the unspoken understanding was that they weren't going to be parents, at least for the present. All that had changed, of course. For a second, he didn't say a word. She was aware she was holding her breath and her heart clutched.

Finally, he said tautly, "You mean it?"

"I wouldn't make this kind of bad joke. I'm having a baby; it's a fact. I know it's not ideal, but it happened. I didn't plan it, but I realize some people aren't cut out to be parents and-"

"Whoa. Wait a sec. Give me a minute to catch up. Okay?" He was staring at her in wonder. "You're for real?"

"Yes. For real. Near as I can tell, I'm due late summer, or probably early fall."

"I thought you didn't want any more kids." He pulled her into a sitting position, the sleeping bag falling open.

"I don't know how I feel. My kids are nearly grown and though it's been great, it's also been a pain and now . . . just when they're about out of the house . . . to start all over? With diapers and breast-feeding and late night feedings, and then toilet training and preschool and bratty friends and snooty mothers, most of whom are fifteen years younger than me?" She shivered and pulled the sleeping bag over her bare shoulders.

He froze. "Are you saying you don't want the baby?"

"No, no, of course not! But you and I never discussed kids. You had a hard enough time getting me to say I'd marry you, and now we're talking about sleepless nights and colic and teething and bottles, then baby food. It's been so long since I've been through it, it's probably all changed."

A slow smile was spreading across his jaw, his teeth white against his skin in the half-light, his arms surrounding her more tightly. "You're sure?"

"Four pregnancy tests. Four. I wasn't going to tell you until I was certain."

He suddenly grabbed her shoulders and kissed her again. Hard this time. "This," he said once he lifted his head, "is the best d.a.m.n news I've ever had."

"Really?"

"Yes."

She held him at arm's length. "Honestly? I just want to make sure. If you don't see yourself as a father, if this isn't what you had planned for your life . . . Raising kids is a major responsibility, and I-"

"What do I look like?" He was grinning like a fool.

Her heart soared. "Happy?"

"Very happy. G.o.d, Pescoli, I'm stoked. What do I have to do to show you, run outside naked, whooping in the snow?"

"That I'd like to see," she said.