Claire DeWitt And The City Of The Dead Part 10

"You were there there?" he asked.

"Nearby," I said. "I was in Chinatown. I was working on a case."

"That's near?" he asked.

"Yeah," I said. "And then I went down to the site."

"s.h.i.t," Andray said. We sat silently for a minute.

"There was a lot of bodies?" he finally asked.

"No," I said. "Ashes. A lot of ashes."

We were quiet for another minute. Then Andray asked, "Were you scared?"

Everyone always asks that. I don't know why.

"Yeah," I said. "It was scary. It was a long time before we knew it was over. It seemed like it would keep on happening. Like it was a war. Like it was gonna be a war. And I couldn't get out of the city for a while. There were no flights. I had to rent a car and-well, it's a long story."

"Oh," he said.

Then after another minute he said, "You ever seen a dead body?"

"Yeah," I said. "Lots of times."

Andray wrinkled his brow, deepening the creases on his forehead.

"Ever anyone," he asked, "like-like someone you knew?"

I nodded. I thought he wanted to say something but neither of us knew what it was.

After a while he said, "Water's different. Everyone was like, you know. Still there."

"Yeah," I said. I remembered the girl in the bay. She'd drowned trying to go home. Trying to swim. She froze instead. It's an ugly way to die.

"You saw people you knew?" I asked.

He nodded.

"You still see it?" I asked.

He nodded again. "Not all the time, anymore. But yeah. Sometimes."

"Yeah," I said. "I got things like that."

"Someone you saw?" he asked.

"Yeah," I said. "No. I never saw her. But I see her all the time."

Andray nodded and we were quiet for a while. We killed the blunt. He took a long, thin paper-rolled joint out of his pocket and lit it and took a drag. It smelled strange and chemical-y. It was the same thing Lali and the boy who shot the tree had been smoking.

"What is that?" I asked.

Andray laughed.

"You ain't know this?" I shook my head. "Called wet. It's like a joint-see, they mix up weed and tobacco, sprinkle in a little dust-you know what that is? Angel dust?"

"Yeah," I said.

He nodded. "Okay. So you roll it up and then you dip it in embalming stuff, the stuff they use at funeral parlors."

"Embalming stuff?" I said incredulously.

Andray laughed and nodded. "Yeah." He smoked a little more, and his eyes glistened. "It's good s.h.i.t." He handed the cigarette to me.

I looked at it. Smoking embalming fluid wasn't exactly on my list of things to do in New Orleans. I was tired and the day could fairly be called over. Going home and going to bed would be a perfectly reasonable thing to do-perfectly reasonable, and no one could blame me at all.

But the detective's job is not to be perfectly reasonable. The detective's job is to follow the clues wherever they lead. And right now, they were leading toward the strange burning cigarette in Andray's hand.

I took it and smoked a little. Under the pot and tobacco it tasted like cheap cocaine, or nail polish remover. Nothing happened.

The White Hawks came on the radio, an Indian gang that had made some good recordings on and off since the seventies. Andray muttered along with the song, sung in the mysterious-to-me language of the Black Indians.

"You understand that?" I asked Andray when the song was over. "You know what that means?"

"Kind of," he said. His lips formed a tiny little smile. "My uncle, he was in the White Hawks."

"s.h.i.t," I said. "Is that him singing?"

He shrugged. "Maybe. He died a long time ago-2004, he died. I used to stay with him, sometimes."

"Where'd he live?" I asked. We handed the joint back and forth.

"Annunciation Street," Andray said. "He was real nice. And his girlfriend, Aqualia, she real nice. She a real good cook too. I used to stay with him a lot. He worked at Hubig's. You know, the pie place?" I nodded. Hubig's Pies were a packaged, chemical-y, turnover-type snack sold nearly everywhere in New Orleans.

"He was coming home one night," Andray said, his voice shaking a little. "And he was ... he was ... you know."

He rolled the window down and spit out it. I didn't say anything.

After a minute or two Andray turned back toward me.

"He used to tell me this thing from the Bible," Andray said. "'Let the dead take care of their own,' he used to say. 'Let the dead go their own way.'"

"It's 'Let the dead bury the dead,'" I said. "It's in the Bible."

Andray wrinkled his brow.

"My uncle, he used to say there was two Bibles," he said. "Or one, but it been split in half. He said half's in the book, on paper. But the other half is inside people. You born with it, but it's up to you to find out. You gotta learn to see it for yourself. That's the only way."

"Smart man," I said.

"He was," Andray said, nodding. "He was that. He knew what was gonna happen too. He always say, 'No revenge. Whatever happens, let it die with me,' he said. 'Let the dead take care their own. They got their own things to do now. Indians don't settle fights with knives and guns. They settle fights with costumes and songs.' When he died I wanted to, you know. But I knew what he wanted, so." He shrugged. His hands were tied.

We pa.s.sed the joint back and forth. The moon hung low in the sky; with each inhale from the joint it seemed to get lower and bigger, until it was right on top of the car. We looked at it.

"You see that?" Andray asked. He smiled.

"Yeah," I said.

We pa.s.sed the joint and watched the moon as it descended, shining its white light on us like a gift. When it was close enough it covered us entirely, blotting out everything else but its yellow-white body.

"You see that?" I asked.

"Yeah," Andray said. "That's some f.u.c.ked-up s.h.i.t right there."

I didn't know if we were talking about the same f.u.c.ked-up s.h.i.t. I felt my eyes close.

When I woke up, I was surprised to see Andray had changed his clothes. He was now in full Indian regalia: Vegas showgirl meets Buffalo Bill. He had on a big feathered headdress and an outrageous suit embroidered with beads and sequins, all bright green. He was smoking another brown cigarette and watching me calmly. When he crossed his legs his sequins rattled and shook. He exhaled an ocean of smoke.

From outside I heard drums and tambourines and bra.s.s. I looked out the window just in time to see the St. Anne parade pa.s.s by-the Societe de Sainte Anne, as Constance used to call it.

My eyes focused in to see two women standing on the corner, watching the parade go by. Both women were in costume, the older one as Marie Antoinette and the younger one as generic French royalty.

I shivered in the cold.

"Stand still," Constance snapped.

"I can hardly f.u.c.king breathe," I complained. "And I'm freezing."

Constance shook her head. "Hush," she said.

"Is it always this cold on Mardi Gras?" I asked, kicking the ground. "Because-"

Constance grabbed my arm and turned me around to face her.

"Do you know what the St. Anne parade is really for?"

"For?" I said. "I dunno. The parades aren't for anything, are they?"

Constance rolled her eyes. "Most aren't," she explained. "But this one is. When the captain arrives you will see that he's holding a box. Almost no one else will see this, by the way, because almost no one else has your eyes, Claire. But he will have a box. And in that box are ashes. Someday I'll be there, in that box."

I shivered again. Sometimes I would get this strange idea that Constance was going to kill me. I'd known her for two years by then, and she was extraordinarily good to me. But I couldn't believe it. Not until after she was gone was I really sure that she had nothing up her sleeve. I didn't know there were people like that: people who don't keep track of what they give, people who don't ask for payback.

"The procession goes to the Mississippi," Constance told me. "When they get there, he'll scatter the ashes into the river."

"Who is it?" I asked. "I mean, who was-"

"Society members," Constance said. "Friends, family. Me, someday, and I hope you too."

She smiled at me but it was a funny kind of a smile, melancholy and secretive. Constance had always wanted me to take a more active part in New Orleans. She wanted me to love it like she did. And for a while, I did.

Finally the parade came, singing and dancing. One woman was a devil, another a baby doll, men dressed as women and women as men, cowboys and Indians and priests and nuns and cops and people with nothing on at all. I followed Constance's lead as she bowed deeply to the first man in the parade, and I noticed the wooden box he held in his hands.

We joined the parade in the second line, in between a group of kazoo players and an old bra.s.s band from Treme. Someone handed me a mushroom. I figured it was probably the good kind and I ate it.

"What you don't understand," Constance hissed at me, "is not all spirits are good"

Constance didn't have a problem with my using drugs. It was Constance who taught me how to use Calea zacatechichi for prophetic dreams and iboga to break bad habits. She'd taken ayauasca twice and was one of the first twelve people to smoke DMT.

But she said the best way was to forge your own path to the truth, not swallow someone else's.

The mushroom came on right about when the parade broke up. Constance went to a friend's house and I wandered around the Quarter looking for Mick, who I finally found sitting on a curb on Decatur.

I thought if I could design the most perfect place in the world it would be exactly this. I had never even let myself dream that someplace like this might exist. It felt like I had been given the key to the secret garden, been initiated into the biggest secret. I was in love with New Orleans.

"You look so beautiful," Mick said when he saw me. "Like an angel."

"What the f.u.c.k did you take?" I asked him.

One year later, Constance would be dead, and her ashes would be in that box.

I wasn't there to see it. I left New Orleans less than a week after she died.

There are some things you can never forgive.

"Miss Claire," I heard. "Yo, Miss Claire."

I opened my eyes. Andray was looking at me.

"I think you fell asleep," Andray said.

"I think you're right," I said. "You'd be a h.e.l.l of a private d.i.c.k."

Andray laughed. I was tired and hungry. All the adrenaline from our little shootout was gone, leaving me with low blood sugar and a headache. I asked Andray where I could drop him off.

"Anywhere's fine," he said.

"Well, where?" I asked.

"Where you picked me up would be okay," he said.

"Where you almost got shot?" I said. "There?"

Andray looked at me as if we weren't speaking the same language. "Miss Claire," he said slowly, using the polite term a young person in New Orleans uses for an elder, "they wasn't aiming at me"

I drove him back to the hotel on Airline Highway, then drove myself home, picking up a po'boy on the way. I fell asleep with the po'boy on the dresser, watching me accusingly.