Bitter Sweet Harvest Part 25

"Yes! And you have not done so."

"What if Hussein takes criminal action against us and calls it a crime?"

"He might well make that allegation and call it kidnapping, but it is unlikely to succeed. The abduction of children by parents is a civil and criminal offence, but, generally, the criminal law is not evoked. The parent who has lost the child will normally have to resort to the civil courts to get the child back. In deciding whom to award the custody of the child, the court will consider how the child is affected by the abduction. If the child has been abducted recently, the court tends to favour the parent who lost the child in order to return to the 'status quo' of the child. If, however, the abduction took place a long time ago, especially if the child has adapted well to the circ.u.mstances of the environment he or she was brought up in, then it is unlikely the child would be taken away from the parent-abductor. To remove the child from the abducting parent and restore him or her to the other parent might be deemed as causing trauma to the child. According to the Hague Convention, it is habitual residence that matters, essentially what is best for the child, rather than the rights and wrongs of the contesting parents."

A glimmer of renewed hope appeared in An Mei's face. The fatigue that so marked her face just moments ago, went. Mark grinned broadly.

"It would not be easy for Hussein to succeed in his legal action," added Tay. "If he does it through a Malaysian court, he has no legal jurisdiction to summon you to Malaysia. He could take legal action through an English court. Past cases have shown that an English court generally favours the mother unless it is to the detriment of the child's welfare. And of course, as a member of the Hague Convention, what I said regarding habitual residence would apply and that too would favour your situation."

"Thank you! Thank you," cried An Mei.

"Yes! We really appreciate your help. That has cleared a lot of things in our mind," said Mark.

"Not at all. It is my work. A word of caution! Malaysia is not, I believe, a signatory to the Hague Convention. So if Hussein did take his case to a Malaysian court, it might not be so guided by the rulings of the Hague convention. But you know, I think, what you must do. You must ensure that Tim never enters Malaysia while he is a minor."

An Mei held on to Tim with one hand and carried a tote bag filled with books, crayons and toys with the other. Mark walked alongside An Mei carrying the cabin bags. She felt surreal walking amidst the surge of people all rushing to catch their flights.

A man brushed pa.s.sed An Mei. She jumped.

"Sorry," he said.

She moved away as though she had been stung. Seeing her reaction he glared at her. "Gila! Mad!" he muttered.

The three of them made their way towards the departure lounge. They had two full hours before their flight to Rome. Long queues had formed behind the security check. It was not quite a queue; sometimes two or three people stood side by side. The line curved and wound at random, like a snake inching forward. She held on to Tim's hands. Her eyes were wary. They darted nervously, checking everywhere.

At a distance, she saw a man. He seemed to be watching them. When she stared at him, he looked away, seemingly preoccupied with the notices on the board. She blinked. She thought he looked familiar.

"Mummy, let go of my hands. I'm hot!" Tim was getting tired. He wanted to play. He pulled away. She hurried after him.

"No! Stay with mummy."

"I want to see what's there, I want to see," he yelled. He ran towards the conveyor belt carrying the bags through for security checks. She followed, her body loping forward, banging her bag against others in the queue.

"Madam," said an officer, his face bristling with indignation as he saw how she had tried to by pa.s.s the others in front of her and push ahead towards the security checkpoint.

"Sorry, I am not breaking queue. I am running after my son," she answered. She took her eyes off Tim for a moment to speak to the officer. She looked back towards him. He was not there. She turned wildly to look at the people around her. They were pushing forward towards the checkpoint. She could not see Tim. She turned back to where Mark was. "Where did Tim go?" her voice was hoa.r.s.e.

"Mam, please put your bag on the conveyor belt and walk through this door."

"No! My son! I can't find him."

"Then you have to wait your turn. Next please!" He glared at her.

Mark hurried forward towards her, his cabin bags swung perilously close to others in the crushing crowd. People glared at him. "What cheek!" they exclaimed.

"It's not your turn. I was here first," said an old lady blocking his pa.s.sage. She looked at Mark; her voice was querulous, accusing. She pointed her finger at him. "Don't try to take advantage of an old lady."

"We are not trying to jump the queue. We are looking for our little boy," he explained. He looked apologetically at the lady. She tried to engage him in a discussion, but he was preoccupied by the search for Tim.

She turned to her companion and said, "Gwei loh! Foreign devil! No manners."

He ignored the barbed comment. He recognised the word "gwei loh. A commotion caught his attention. People parted like swaying corn.

"Do you mean this little boy?" asked a young man walking quickly towards them with Tim in his arms. "I found him hiding behind that lady," he said turning around to point at a large lady wearing a long voluminous skirt that almost trailed the floor.

"You could not find me," Tim said with a wicked grin. He kicked his legs, thrashing the young man's side. "I hide. You have to find me."

Mark took Tim from the young man and thanked him. "Sorry! Sorry! Thank you! Thank you so much. Please excuse us," he said to the crowd of people returning to where they had been earlier. An Mei followed, relief on her face. She had been near to tears. Her nerves were frayed.

"I think it is better if we keep Tim between us," she said walking round Mark to position Tim so that he was securely sandwiched between them. "More secure," she added. "Do you think they would let me through that security screen with Tim?"

"Probably not! I shall go ahead, and wait on the other side. Then send Tim through. You go last." Mark placed the cabin bag on the floor and placed his arm around An Mei. "It will be fine. I don't think anyone will try to take Tim from us here."

"How can we be sure?" This is the last chance they have. They might try."

"Once we get into the departure lounge, it should be alright."

"Yes! I hope so." An Mei turned to look for the man whom she was sure had been watching them. He had disappeared.

Chapter 47.

An Mei stepped into the entrance foyer, some twenty metres in length and about ten metres wide, clad in marble and with a ceiling as high as a two-storey building. It was busy. A long queue had formed in front of a gla.s.s booth set in the centre. The booth manned by security guards separated the foyer from an equally large but dimly lit lounge. The flags of nearly 170 member nations were displayed on the walls of the lounge, creating a tapestry of red, blue, yellow and green. In the queue were men in grey suits carrying leather briefcases and women in dark skirts and jackets, one hand clutching a handbag, the other a briefcase. The sombre colours of their clothes were interrupted here and there by brilliant flashes of scarlet, turquoise, green, yellow and ochre worn by people who had chosen to arrive in their traditional national dress.

They were all visitors to the Food and Agriculture Organization, waiting patiently for their turn to be issued with a building pa.s.s to enter the premises. First the pa.s.sports and ident.i.ty doc.u.ments were handed over to the uniformed guard, then a phone call to verify that they had an appointment, then a welcoming smile and the issue of a building pa.s.s. Many of the visitors, once cleared, went into the lounge and sat waiting to be collected.

An Mei smiled briefly at some of the visitors and walked into the inner confines of the building. She used the doorway to the right, flashing her own pa.s.s as a staff member to a guard, and walked pa.s.sed the corner bookshop towards a broad marble staircase. She stopped and turned around, her eyes lingering over the familiar scene behind her. To the right was the bank, the Banca Commerciale Italiana, or BCI. Next to it, the post office, and further beyond was the corridor to the Staff Commissary, an enormous neon-lit commercial area. She smiled, reminded of how thrilled she had been when she first joined the Organization to discover the Commissary. It was like an Aladdin's cave piled high with exotic goods - goods that were not available or were difficult to find in Rome, goods that staff members pined for from their homeland. She caught the eye of a colleague and smiled at his gesture to join him for coffee during the break. She indicated with her wrist that she was late and would catch up later. She had just returned from Singapore. She walked quickly up the marble staircase.

She had been away for more than a month, but it was as though she had never been away. She walked on, her mind going back to the day she first joined the UN agency. She had been nervous then, eager to have a job, delighted that she had been selected. Her work gave her a sense of direction and economic independence. And she had loved it and still did.

She continued up the stairway, ignoring the lifts at every floor. She needed to move to calm herself. She shrugged her shoulders and shook her head to relieve the tension. She arrived on the third floor. The lift door slid open and someone from within waved her in. "There is room," a pa.s.senger called, stepping aside to make s.p.a.ce.

"I'm fine, thank you. I'll walk," she responded and pressed on. She turned off the staircase into a long corridor with offices on either side. She peered into one. Two secretaries shared it and their desks were set facing each other, the walls were lined with filing cabinets. A potted plant by the windowsill was the only attempt to liven up the room. She recalled a visitor's comment. "Such small grey rooms! I expected more glamorous offices in a UN building."

"Not where the real work is done," someone had volunteered with a laugh.

She stopped in front of a door and knocked hesitantly and then more firmly.

"Come in," said a voice from within.

She walked in.

"An Mei! Welcome back! How was your trip? I gathered that it was work, but you took some leave as well. Was the family there with you? How are Mark and little Tim?" asked Sandra Pool.

Sandra came from behind her desk and took a chair for herself and pulled another alongside for An Mei. She was the personnel officer for the department where An Mei worked. A large woman, she had taken an instant liking to the pet.i.te small-boned An Mei and had helped her settle in Rome. An Mei sat in the proffered chair and Sandra plumped herself down in the adjacent one. The folds of her skirt cut in an A-shape, fell on either side of the chair like a tablecloth trailing the ground.

An Mei hesitated. She wondered how she should answer. How to say fine, which was expected of her, when it was not fine? She recalled the comment of a friend when she had voiced the same question in the past.

"When people ask you how you are just casually, you are not expected to go into any details or even tell the truth. You are expected to say, fine, and pa.s.s on. If you go into details then you should not be surprised to find that some people will shy away from you in future."

An Mei steeled herself. "My work went well," she said, "but unfortunately, the trip as far as the family is concerned was an absolute disaster and a very frightening experience." She was not going to say that everything was fine when it was quite the opposite. It would be incongruous given what she was going to say next. "In fact, I have come to ask you for advice. I intend to hand in my resignation."

Sandra took in the information without a comment. She sat with her hands on the armrest for a moment and then hauled herself up, pressing hard on the chair to get up.

"I gather this is just an informal sounding out and that nothing has yet been done or decided." She looked curiously at An Mei. Her brown eyes were serious.

An Mei shook her head. "I've not spoken to anyone. I came to you as a friend."

"Ahhh! Then as a friend I invite you for coffee at the terrace bar." She looked at her wrist.w.a.tch. "You came just at the right time. I'll let my secretary know."

She walked to the adjoining door and put her head round the doorway. An Mei could hear her speaking in her low melodic voice. Sandra had the most calming effect when she spoke. Her voice sounded like the strumming of a harp. Although she was not beautiful, she gave an impression of beauty and calm when she spoke. An Mei found herself responding to its beneficial effect.

They said little as they took the lift to the top floor. They stepped out, rounded a corner and went into the bar, a large room with a long counter, and were immediately accosted by the loud clatter of cups and saucers.

"Un caffe macchiato! Un caffe latte, Due cappuccini! Un lungo! Doppio! Espresso! Caffe latte fredo!" The barmen, smart in their black and white uniforms, yelled the orders in loud voices that reverberated across the counter. Queues formed and dwindled. Cigarette lighters popped, a flare of light was followed by spirals of smoke.

"Would you like a pastry? Which would you like, plain, chocolate or custard?" asked Sandra, looking longingly at the basket piled high with cornetti.

"Not for me, thank you, but you have one."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes! Yes!"

Loaded with cups of steaming coffee, they stepped out onto the roof terrace that ran the entire length of the building. They were temporarily blinded by the bright sunshine and a clear blue sky.

"Let's go over there, the corner that overlooks the Circo Ma.s.simo. There is some shade and not many people so we should be able to talk undisturbed," Sandra suggested.

They stood companionably sipping their coffee in silence; steam rose from their cups like little puffs of smoke in the cool dry air of the autumn morning. They leaned on the stone bal.u.s.trade and looked out on to the Circo Ma.s.simo, two figures looking at the remnants of the ancient Roman chariot racetrack.

"This is so beautiful. It hits me every time I come up here, even after seeing it for all the 20 years I have been in service. Look at the old Roman Baths over there." Sandra pointed to the crumbling stonewalls and arches of the Terme di Caracalla to the right of her. The bright sunshine lit up the walls turning them fiery brown against the sapphire blue of the clear sky. Canopies of the aptly named umbrella pine trees rose above the walls.

"Can you bear to leave us? And what has brought this on?" asked Sandra turning to look at An Mei. She rested one elbow on the top of the low wall. "You know how difficult it is to get into the organization. You love your job and you are good at it. Every performance appraisal has marked you out as, as ... excellent."

"I have no choice. You see..." In a quiet voice, An Mei told her about Tim's kidnap, Hussein's threat and what Mr. Tay had told her. "It means that should Tim fall into their hands again and be brought to Malaysia, the chances of my getting him back would be minimal. I need to be with Tim all the time to make sure that he can never be abducted again."

"Where is Tim now?"

"I left him with Mark. Mark took the day off. I trust no one else."

"I don't quite follow, all the legal bits I mean," said Sandra.

"My former husband cannot compel me to appear before a Malaysian court, but, by the same token, if he abducts Tim, I cannot compel him to attend an English or Italian court if I were to take legal action against him for the return of Tim. If I take a case against him, I would have to fight in a Malaysian court and I doubt whether I would be deemed as a suitable mother for bringing up Tim as a Muslim."

She looked out over the ruins. Her voice caught and wavered. "I was so happy when I heard that Hussein had no legal power to make me return to Malaysia. I thought that if I brought Tim back here we would be safe. But that is only so if I can make sure he is not abducted. The warning that the solicitor gave me at the very last did not sink in. I was so elated that we were able to leave. It was only in the airport in Kuala Lumpur that the full significance of his parting words became clear. He said that Tim must not return to Malaysia while he is a minor. That is why I have to resign so that I can be near him all the time."

Sandra looked away. She could not bear the anguish in An Mei's eyes. "Are you sure Tim would be in danger? Do you think that they would actually come here to take him?"

"That's the problem. I am not sure of anything. I am jittery all the time. I suspect every pa.s.ser-by who shows any interest in him. I fear strangers looking at us. I jump at every corner. I worry when he is in bed and I am not near to him. I thought that I could trust leaving Tim with my aunty, but, ever since the kidnap, I worry when I do. Not because I do not trust her, but because I fear the long reach of my former husband's arm. I know he hates me; he hates me not only because of Tim but because I have rejected him for Mark."

"Are you exaggerating this, building up this fear in yourself?"

"Perhaps. Nevertheless, to me it is real enough. In the immediate days following the release of Tim, I was not so afraid. Since then the fear has grown in me like a cancer. My mind keeps going back to the day when I caught Hussein accosting my aunt and Tim."

An Mei reached into her bag and fished out an envelope. She pushed it towards Sandra. "This is a copy for you. I am going to see my boss now." Her eyes were bright with unshed tears.

"Wait! There might be a way out. Let me explore this. Meanwhile, hold on to this," said Sandra pushing the envelope back into An Mei's hands. "Go to your office and ask for a day's leave. Go back to Tim. I'll take the matter up with your department."

"What are you going to do?"

"I am going to find out if you could have extended unpaid leave under these extraordinary circ.u.mstances."

"No! I have made up my mind to leave. Thank you."

Chapter 48.

The fishing boats were lined up on the volcanic beach. There were fifteen of them, long narrow-bodied canoes, each tied neatly to a log hammered deep into the black ash. The jukongs were all painted, some were red with white stripes, others blue and yellow and yet others in hues ranging from orange to deep mauve. Their jutting bows, carved in the shape of the mythical elephant fish, had painted black eyes that glared fiercely. The wind blew hot from the ocean lending to the air a salty scent of the sea. Ahmad could see fishing boats coming to the sh.o.r.e, their beautiful sails unfurled, balanced gracefully on the outriggers. He heaved himself from the empty barrel. He felt stiff. Black ash and sand encrusted the sides of his shoes like granulated sugar. He pushed a fist into his lower back to ease the pain. He had lain cramped at the base of a boat for hours, staring into the pitch-black sky sprinkled with stars. Every bone in his body had protested with each creak and sway of the boat. The journey from Singapore to these Indonesian sh.o.r.es had taken three weeks. They had stopped at many islands and fishing villages to replenish supplies and the nine hundred nautical miles had seemed endless as they sailed close to sh.o.r.e. He sniffed, repelled by his own unwashed odour and then, stamping his feet to awaken his aching muscles, lumbered laboriously towards a hut. At the top of a short flight of stairs that led to the entrance to the hut, a lady stood waiting. She smiled revealing a gap in her front teeth and waved him to the back of the hut. With a quick motion of her hands, she indicated that he was to wash. She cackled pointing to his shoes and clothes.

"Sana! There!" She pointed again to the back yard. "Cuci! Wash!" She threw him a sarong.

He hardly looked at her but grudgingly grunted a thank you. His shoes, battered and scuffed, dragged on the ground leaving a trail in the dirt as he walked towards the backyard. A large stone urn, with a wooden ladle hung at its side, stood behind the house. The courtyard was small, hemmed in by fruit trees. A mangosteen tree grew to one side, laden with dark purple fruits the size of apples on branches that harboured ma.s.ses of thick elliptical glossy leaves. Some twenty yards apart was the cempedak tree. A few cempedak cl.u.s.tered low on the tree trunk. Someone had placed a white cotton kerchief around the fruits to protect them from insects. They were large and globular, a foot long, and heavy in their ripeness. He could imagine the turgid, sweet, b.u.t.ter-coloured, fleshy seeds embedded in the large pineapple-shaped fruits. Stricken with hunger, he swallowed and took a deep breath of the rich aromas of the fruits.

A woman stared at him from across the yard. She sat with a trestle between her knees. Her hand held a stone pestle. She was pounding the contents of a mortar with vigour; a light sea breeze carried the smell of fermented shrimp, onions and chillies to him. It smelt so much like home, but this was not home. He was in a village somewhere near Bali. He had been dropped there and told to make his way to the hut where he would be fed and sheltered until someone came to collect him.

He turned his back to the woman and stripped off his shirt. He took the ladle dipping the coconut half sh.e.l.l into the cool water and sluiced it over his head. Someone had sprinkled rose and jasmine petals and kaffir lime leaves into the urn. They fell with the water around his feet. He washed himself vigorously, rubbing his limbs and body, washing hair that had grown long and lank, ridding himself of the stench of fish and grime.

He heard a laugh and turned to see the woman with the pestle and mortar gesticulating towards him with a grin so wide that her eyes disappeared into the folds of her cheek. A group of little boys gathered around her laughed. Their little brown bodies writhed and shook as the woman said, "Kotor! Kotor! Dirty!"

He turned his back to them, pulled the sarong over his head and tied it around his middle. He then dropped his trousers, struggling with his underpants, tripping as he tried to disengage from them without losing hold of the sarong. He held on to the urn to steady himself. He gestured fiercely at the children. They ran off. He walked to the front of the house. He felt whole again and he was hungry. He smelt wood burning and cooking smells. Hot, spicy, pungent. He had not had a proper meal for weeks. He walked up the short flight of wooden steps. The woman who had pointed him to the backyard was again waiting for him. She gestured with a folding of her fingers pointing towards her mouth. "Makan! Eat," directing him to a small wooden table. It was decked with a plastic tablecloth decorated with green and red flowers. On the table the woman had set an enamel plate piled with white rice and an a.s.sortment of small dishes. He ate, barely waiting to stop between the b.a.l.l.s of food that he doled into his mouth with his fingers. His fingers gathered and moulded rice and meat, rice and vegetables, over and over until they grew slick with oil and spice. Finally replete, he sat back and dipped his fingers into the finger bowl. Then he got up and walked out to the front of the house and back on to the beach.

He had done everything like a robot since he landed. He had no thoughts in his head, no feelings either. His whole being was geared towards the basic primal needs of food and rest. During those short hours he had almost been at peace with himself in a way he had never experienced before. He saw the beauty of the backyard, despite the obvious poverty of its surroundings. A broken bicycle with rust-encrusted wheels leaned on a wall. A few scrawny chickens pecked away in the dirt yard. He heard the laughter of the children. They were barefoot and their clothes were mere rags, patched and re-patched. Yet there was joy in their play.