As If You Never Left Me Part 15

"Yes, actually, I would. Why don't you give me his number?"

With a huff, the man stormed out of the store. As luck would have it, he stormed right past Joely and

Perry, coming back in.

"What was that all about?" Joely asked. She tilted an eyebrow at Rey, as if she thought he might have deliberately lost her a customer.

"Little creep tried to steal something," he muttered.

Which was precisely the truth. He only regretted he hadn't been able to get hold of the camera, and

dispose of the pictures he was certain the "customer" had taken.

It surprised him, as they drove home, how he'd started to think of this place as home. He hadn't even

been here a week, and it felt as natural as breathing to watch the mountains roll by, feel his ears pop a

little as they spiraled up the road to Joely's house. To walk into Joely's house and think of it as his own. He laid his computer down on the coffee table while Joely headed for the bedroom to change her clothes. Looking around, he calculated the size of the house. It was cozy, but they might want something larger in a year or two. And it would be nice to have a yard for the kids- He cut that thought off. He was getting too far ahead of himself. First, he had to be sure Joely was ready to take the plunge back into marriage. He had some thoughts about that, too. They'd never officially been divorced, but he thought it would be nice to have a little ceremony of some kind when they got back together. Nothing formal, just something to celebrate the fact that he'd finally come to his senses.

He kicked off his shoes and stretched out on the couch. Yes, this was good. Very good. He could get used to this in a big hurry. Joely came back into the living room, wearing cotton lounge pants and a T-shirt with no bra. He smiled at this sign she was getting comfortable with him again. "C'mere," he said, waving to her. "Don't you want dinner?" "Eventually. I'm not really that hungry, to tell the truth." She came to him and he rolled onto his side to make room for her on the couch. He could have sat up, he supposed, but it was cozier this way, with him lying down and Joely sitting with her round bottom tucked against his stomach. "You're an amazing woman, did you know that?"

"Yes, I did. But what makes you say that?"

"I don't think I could have done such a thorough or successful job of remaking myself as you have.

You've really accomplished something here. I'm very impressed."

"Thank you." She smiled, brushing hair back out of his eyes, then abruptly sobered. "Tell me, Rey.

Honestly, now. If you left New York and came to live here, what would you lose?"

He shrugged. "Besides my job? Nothing."

"But your job's always been important to you."

"Too important. I need to change that." But his answer had come too quickly and too firmly, and he

knew it.

The truth was, he hadn't taken nearly enough time to evaluate what he wanted to do. He'd been focused

on what Joely wanted him to do, and what would be the most expedient way to mend their relationship.

"What are you doing now?" Joely pressed on. "What's changed with you since the last time I saw you?"

"Well ..." He wasn't sure this was a direction he wanted this conversation to go. "I've handled several

very successful cases. One was a s.e.xual hara.s.sment case at a major company." She looked away at this.

He couldn't blame her. "Bill's talked about making me a partner."

"Do you still live in our old apartment?"

"No. I found a nice place in Manhattan."

"Expensive. So you're making a lot more money than you were when I left." She paused significantly.

"A lot more than you could ever hope to make if you moved out here."

She'd backed him right into that one. "Yeah, but the cost of living's a lot lower out here. We'd get by just fine." "But would you be happy? Would you really and truly be happy helping me expand my business? Is that really what you want to do with your life?" "This is an essay question," he grumbled. "I'm way better at multiple choice." "Okay, choice A-go back to New York without me. Choice B-I move to New York with you.

Choice C-move to Colorado and help me with my business. Choice D-move to Colorado and work downtown for a corporate law firm. What's your first choice?"

The answer surprised even him. "This is silly, Joely."

"Tell me, Rey." The expression on her face was fiercely demanding.

He had to say it. She wasn't going to let him get away with anything else. "Honestly, it would have to be B-you move to New York with me."

"That's what I thought."

"But C and D are completely acceptable."

"Are you absolutely sure?"

He nodded firmly. "Yes."

Her eyes had gone sad. He wondered why, until she said, "Then you're a better person than I am. Truly,

Rey. Because I don't think I could ever do choice B."

She pushed away from him, to her feet, and walked slowly into the bedroom. The door closed softly behind her. Rey put his face in his hands and sighed. Why did she have to make this so impossible?

After a few minutes, he got up and followed her into the bedroom. She was stretched out flat on her

back on the bed, staring blankly at the ceiling.

"It's okay, Joely," he said gently. "You don't have to want choice B."

She turned her head a little to look at him. Her eyes were rimmed with red. "It's not that I don't want

choice B. It's that there's no way in a million years that I could go back to New York with you and be happy. Not now. Not after what I've done here. And that's wrong of me, because if you're willing to give up what you've built in New York, I should be willing to give up what I've built here, for the sake of our marriage."

"That doesn't make you a bad person."

"Yes, it does."

He sank onto the bed next to her and took her hand, closing both of his over it. She had big hands for a

woman, but she was tall and they didn't look out of proportion on her. Besides, they were long, slim hands, with long fingers that could curl around a lump of clay and shape it to perfection.

"What I built in New York I can build again here. But what you have here-I don't think you could do the same thing in New York. I mean, you could have a little boutique, maybe, and be successful at it, but it wouldn't be the same."

"Would being a corporate lawyer in Denver be the same as being a corporate lawyer in New York?"

"No, but being a lawyer is different from being an artist. Something here speaks to your soul. I can see it in your work. The stuff you did before you came out here was good, but this new work is exceptional. You belong here. I couldn't ask you to leave, knowing that. Besides, like I said before, I'm the one who screwed up. I'm the one who needs to make amends. Therefore, I'm the one who needs to make whatever sacrifices are necessary."

She nodded, but she didn't look convinced. "It just seems too good to be true. Too fast, too perfect."

Gently, he slid a hand over her hair. The short blonde strands were soft against his palm. "The month's not up yet. We won't decide on anything until it is."

"Okay. That's a deal."

He squeezed her hand. "How about some of that leftover pizza?"

They ate leftover pizza, then Rey had Joely stretch out on the couch while he ma.s.saged her feet. He knew they must be tired after the day at the shop, but he hadn't antic.i.p.ated the rest of her being tired, as well. He'd barely finished one foot when he realized she'd fallen asleep.

Well, so much for another night of pa.s.sionate s.e.x. He'd have to take a raincheck. Gently, he scooped her up from the couch and carried her into the bedroom. As he lowered her onto the bed, she opened her eyes and looked at him, smiled, and closed her eyes again. He doubted she'd been awake at all.

The covers were still mussed from last night-and this morning-which was fortunate because otherwise he would never have been able to get her under them. He tucked them around her, then undressed and slid in after her. Still without waking up, she rolled toward him, curling her warmth against him as he settled into the mattress.

Just like old times. He'd decided, over the last, long months of being alone, that he'd give up almost anything to have this back. Even New York. Even a possible partnership at his law firm.

Joely had pillowed her head against his shoulder and he traced his finger down her cheek, savoring the softness of her skin. He could lie like this all night, he thought, just watching her sleep.

Everything was going perfectly, he reflected as he drifted into sleep, himself. Exactly according to plan.

Chapter Ten.

He woke before she did, for a change. Faced with this novel situation, his first instinct was to nudge her, or caress her, or in some other way to gently awaken her so they could make love.

His hand was inches away from her breast when he hesitated. s.e.x was a pretty obvious route to take at this point. Maybe he should try something different. As he looked at her quietly sleeping face, the answer came to him. He could make breakfast.

As much as Joely liked to eat breakfast out, he knew she liked it even better when someone made it for her. So, resisting the temptation of her sleeping self, he rolled out of bed and got dressed. In the kitchen, he poked through her cabinets, found a bag of pancake mix, and got started.

The kitchen was full of the smells of coffee, bacon, and cooking pancakes when Joely meandered in, bleary-eyed and smiling.

"Wow," she said. "You're making breakfast?"

"Sure. Why not?"

He poured her a cup of coffee and she took it, letting the steam caress her face. It smelled wonderful. She liked a strong cup of coffee, and Rey had gotten it just right. "I always liked it when you made breakfast, but you never seemed to have time."

"I have plenty of time now." He deposited a plateful of pancakes on the table. Sitting down, she eyed them curiously.

"They aren't round."

He shrugged. "They were supposed to be shaped like hearts, but it didn't go so well." They looked more like stomachs, or livers, he thought. Not very romantic.

But her smile told him she was touched, anyway. "That's very sweet."

With his own loaded plate, Rey took a seat next to her at the table and picked up the bottle of syrup. "I've got an idea for tonight."

"What's that?" She sampled a forkful of pancakes and hummed, closing her eyes as if it were an erotic experience. "These are good."

Rey squirmed a little. He'd never gotten aroused over pancakes before. It took him a second to remember what he'd been talking about. A small drop of syrup on Joely's lower lip had captured his attention. He should lean over and lick it off...