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"Stay like that. Close. Don't go."
She stayed, pressing her face down tighter, rubbing her cheek against his rough tweed. He put his arm round her shoulder, holding her there; his fingers stroked, stroked the back of her neck, pushed up through the fine roots of her hair, giving her the caress she loved. Her nerves thrilled with a sudden secret bliss.
"Jerrold, it's heaven when you touch me."
"I know. It's h.e.l.l for me when I don't."
"I didn't know. I didn't know. If only I'd known."
"We know now."
There was a long silence. Now and again she felt him stirring uneasily.
Once he sighed and her heart tightened. At last he bent over her and lifted her up and set her on his knee. She lay back gathered in his arms, with her head on his breast, satisfied, like a child.
"Jerrold, do you remember how you used to hold me to keep me from falling in the goldfish pond?"
"Yes."
"I've loved you ever since then."
"Do you remember how I kissed you when I went to school?"
"Yes."
"And the night that Nicky died?"
"Yes."
"I've been sleeping in that room, because it was yours."
"Have you? Did you love me _then_, that night?"
"Yes. But I didn't know I did. And then Father's death came and stopped it."
"I know. I know."
"Anne, what a brute I was to you. Can you ever forgive me?"
"I forgave you long ago."
"Talk of punishments--"
"Don't talk of punishments."
Presently they left off talking, and he kissed her. He kissed her again and again, with light kisses brushing her face for its sweetness, with quick, hard kisses that hurt, with slow, deep kisses that stayed where they fell; kisses remembered and unremembered, longed for, imagined and unimaginable.
The church bell began ringing for service, short notes first, tinkling and tinkling; then a hurrying and scattering of sounds, sounds falling together, running into each other, covering each other; one long throbbing and clanging sound; and then hard, slow strokes, measuring out the seconds like a clock. They waited till the bell ceased.
The dusk gathered. It spread from the corners to the middle of the room.
The tall white arch of the chimney-piece jutted out through the dusk.
Anne stirred slightly.
"I say, how dark it's getting."
"Yes. I like it. Don't get the lamp."
They sat clinging together, waiting for the dark.
The window panes were a black glimmer in the grey. He got up and drew the curtains, shutting out the black glimmer of the panes. He came to her and lifted her in his arms and carried her to the couch and laid her on it.
She shut her eyes and waited.
XIV
MAISIE
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He didn't know what he was going to do about Maisie.
On a fine, warm day in April Maisie had come home. He had motored her up from the station, and now the door of the drawing-room had closed on them and they were alone together in there.
"Oh, Jerrold--it _is_ nice--to see you--again."
She panted a little, a way she had when she was excited.
"Awfully nice," he said, and wondered what on earth he was going to do next.
He had been all right on the station platform where their greetings had been public and perfunctory, but now he would have to do something intimate and, above all, spontaneous, not to stand there like a stick.
They looked at each other and he took again the impression she had always given him of delicate beauty and sweetness. She was tall and her neck bent slightly forward as she walked; this gave her the air of bowing prettily, of offering you something with a charming grace. Her shoulders and her hips had the same long, slenderly sloping curves. Her hair was mole brown on the top and turned back in an old-fashioned way that uncovered its hidden gold. Her face was white; the thin bluish whiteness of skim milk. Her mauve blue eyes looked larger than they were because of their dark brows and lashes, and the faint mauve smears about their lids. The line of her little slender nose went low and straight in the bridge, then curved under, delicately acquiline, its nostrils were close and clean cut. Her small, close upper lip had a flying droop; and her chin curved slightly, ever so slightly, away to her throat. When she talked Maisie's mouth and the tip of her nose kept up the same sensitive, quivering play. But Maisie's eyes were still; they had no sparkling speech; they listened, deeply attentive to the person who was there. They took up the smile her mouth began and was too small to finish.
And now, as they looked at him, he felt that he ought to take her in his arms, suddenly, at once. In another instant it would be too late, the action would have lost the grace of spontaneous impulse. He wondered how you simulated a spontaneous impulse.
But Maisie made it all right for him. As he stood waiting for his impulse she came to him and laid her hands on his shoulders and kissed him, gently, on each cheek. Her hands slid down; they pressed hard against his arms above the elbow, as if to keep back his too pa.s.sionate embrace. It was easy enough to return her kiss, to pa.s.s his arms under hers and press her slight body, gently, with his cramped hands. Did she know that his heart was not in it?
No. She knew nothing.
"What have you been doing with yourself?" she said. "You do look fit."
"Do I? Oh, nothing much."
He turned away from her sweet eyes that hurt him.