A Lion Among Men Part 17

She balanced a pen in her hands, musing.

She had been trying for years to write, but even when she managed a line or two, she couldn't or wouldn't use the personal p.r.o.noun. The habit of alibi prevented her. Anyway, she was no longer convinced that she possessed a character so resolved it could boast about itself: I, I, I! I, I, I! When she did write it, it was followed by a period. When she did write it, it was followed by a period. I I. It might as well be her initial, as in "I. sat alone in the way that the terminally ill, crowded into an inst.i.tution, sit alone."

Her reservations weren't rooted in aesthetics. She knew little about that branch of opinion, and cared less. Beauty and its refinements. Hah! If she had to consider her aversion to the unslakable I I in terms of theory, she supposed she would speak about the elegance of justice: Your in terms of theory, she supposed she would speak about the elegance of justice: Your I I and my and my I I are of equal weight. Or about the central paradox of equality: The are of equal weight. Or about the central paradox of equality: The I, I, the singular first-person p.r.o.noun, had to be eradicated in order to sustain the argument about justice's brash lack of interest in individual history-even as justice existed to champion the rights of such histories to exist. I and I and I and I, all the land over. the singular first-person p.r.o.noun, had to be eradicated in order to sustain the argument about justice's brash lack of interest in individual history-even as justice existed to champion the rights of such histories to exist. I and I and I and I, all the land over.

The dwarf barked at her. "Dizzy Lady Lollipalazy! We may have to break camp before our scout returns with news of those pesky troop movements! Skedaddle before we know whether we're making ourselves targets or skirting the skirmish! Put away your notepaper unless you prefer to be swallowed up in cannon smoke. Though whether it's the cannon of the EC professionals or the stumpy little guerrillas, we can't yet tell. Are you listening, Twit-Twit-of-the-Mountaintops?"

After a while she uncorked a bottle of dark red ink and wrote a few words.

The madder the battle, the saner the peace.

She didn't know if this was true. She wrote to ask herself questions. Was there any reason that peace should ever be sane? Perhaps war was too mad an endeavor for the world to survive intact; perhaps its aftermath was always corrupted. The I. who considered this was not without corruption, she knew.

She thought, but didn't write: The louder the cannon, the deafer the peacemakers.

This was nearer to what she wanted, but it was not right.

She sighed. Given how the writing impulse had first emerged, no wonder it was so hard to get the correct words.

Some years before signing on as a nurse to a dirty old coot, she had taken up a position as a gentleman's comfort in the squat industrial Gillikinese town of Red Sand. She learned her trade, mastered it, to useful effect. One evening she maneuvered herself from a shadowy nook in the Hall of Salt Fountains right onto the lap of a northern Gillikinese supplier of iron ore. He gave his name as Serbio, which she knew to be false. No matter; she used alibis in her line of work, too.

After a brief and teasing carriage ride, she ended up in his bed in a lodging house in one of Red Sand's seedier streets. The smell of hot refuse, brimstone, and tarnish entwined, issued from the drapes; the factories were working overtime.

Her client was drunk and handsome though tending to portliness, and he had a wife at home who wouldn't let him have his way with a riding crop. While I. could pretend abandon with a finesse verging on the uncanny.

Her client had left her there naked in the brownish lamplight while he answered the lodge keeper's knock at their door (the interruption seemed to stoke rather than quench his ardor). The lodge keeper complained. Would Master Serbio please see to the inconvenient visitor at the street door as the lodge keeper was retiring-again, and this time for good?

She had expected the interruption-it was why she was here-though she hadn't figured on the beating. But if she could deliver the goods, the unexpected welts on her naked skin might be seen as badges of honor.

As soon as Serbio left the room and trotted down the hall of the rented chambers, she rose flinching from the bed to accomplish her task.

Her backup team having worked out the scheme properly, she was ready. They'd had word that while Serbio was visiting from the western edge of the Glikkus, a munitions manufacturer in Red Sand was hoping to make a secret negotiation with him. The deal would need to be sealed before Serbio headed home to the slopes of the Scalps, site of the iron-ore mines. She needed to find out: How much blue iron ore was Serbio selling to the a.r.s.enal in Red Sand? And how often? Only certain kinds of firearms were prized in infantry maneuvers-the Pollinger redoubler, especially-and the iron ore used in the casting of Pollinger gun barrels was derived primarily from Glikkun sources. So figuring out which factory was producing the bulk of Pollinger artillery, and how frequently, would give a clue as to how the Emerald City generals planned to prosecute an invasion of Munchkinland.

If the bulk of the munitions were being manufactured here in Red Sand, then the invasion would likely start in the south, as (with a carefully planned overland water carry) artillery could be shipped from Red Sand to the Shale Shallows by way of the Gillikin River. The goals of the invasion most likely would be limited to wresting the great lake and its water supply from Munchkinland.

If, on the other hand, the iron ore was being reserved for the new munitions factory in Traum, the EC invasion strategy probably involved cutting across the Glikkus Ca.n.a.ls-braving those trolls-and dropping into Munchkinland from the undefended north. A march through the Nest Fallows-a summer holiday for foot soldiers!-then on into Center Munch and Colwen Grounds. Capture the capital first rather than its plum a.s.set, Rest.w.a.ter.

I. had planned the seduction; she had worn the red picandella with the lace reveal; she had done her hair in pearl rosettes. Into the recess scooped out of her abalone-clad toiletry kit she had fitted a slim notebook with curved pages (each cut to fit with a nail scissors) and a pencil shaved to an inch.

The birds in the cage on the landing, though, she hadn't planned on. At the sound of the knock on the street door at midnight, they had gone mad with song. (They hadn't uttered a word at the noise of the cudgel or at her bitten-off cries. Perhaps, like so many, they had tendencies of voyeurism.) Now they were shrieking alarums.

On tender and bruised soles she had hurried back to the chamber, praying that all other fly-by-night tenants, even if they'd awakened, would be cowering with their illicit bedmates, hoping to escape notice. Once past the age of twenty, few like a surprise midnight visitor. She had grabbed her skirt and returned with it, its wings wuffling, and she'd flung it over the cage. The birds fell silent at the unexpectedly immediate sunset.

She'd crouched at the top of the stairs, shivering in the cold. She'd listened and heard one, two vital words; and then a bonus, something about an increase in orders next spring. And a second bonus-another supplier was being brought on to help the Pollinger manufacturer-might Serbio consider a reduction in his bulk prices, and meet his compet.i.tor's prices? A lower figure per unit ton...

Her client began to haggle. She had to admire a businessman able to defend his turf while standing in a freezing hall in nothing but b.u.t.ton-bottomed pantlettes.

It was enough. Reclaiming her skirt, she stole back to the chamber and made three notes in pencil while the birds began to clamor again.

They covered the noise of Serbio's tiptoed return. He had wanted to find her cowering with her head under the pillow, her rump exposed; she was busy writing instead.

"A letter to Mama about what a naughty girl you've been?" he said, though his arched eyebrow defined his attention as keenly suspicious.

She gasped and managed not to fling the book away from her. She said the first thing that came into her head.

"Notes for a story." A long pause. "I write fancies; they only come to me when I am in distress."

She pulled her skirt over her lap, making a game of it, but Serbio grabbed her paper, saying "Whaddya fancy then, so I can provide it times three, heh-heh?"

Blessings on the team member who had insisted she learn code. "This looks like dragon drool," he said. "Words en't involved here."

"I was just starting," she said.

"Tell me what your big idea is, that you got to get up from your sweet bed of pain to write it down."

Maybe it was his mention of Mama. Just in time, she remembered a story from her childhood. She had no way of knowing whether it was a famous legend or an invention of her own mother. "It's about a Witch," she said, "a Witch who has a sudden yen for a dinner made out of fox babies. But the fox mother howls down the moon, which rolls like a grave door in front of the Witch's cave. And there the wicked old Witch stays, for ever so long."

He wasn't so drunk as not to be dubious; the unexpected business negotiation at midnight had corrected his thinking. "All that in this little sketch, these scratchy lines?"

"I was just beginning," she said.

"I'll sit and watch you write," said Serbio. "You can read it out loud as it occurs to you." He dropped on his knees by the side of the bed and pulled the skirt away from her lap. He dug his hand. "I don't know whether we should beat that old Witch out of her cave," he said, twisting. "What do you think? What do you think we ought to do?"

"Once there was a fox mother," she said, but where she had avoided weeping earlier, the memory of the story retold in this situation gave a greater grief.

The diversion had worked. She had escaped with the information required, which she supplied to the go-between the next morning over a market stall. "Did you get hurt?" asked the intermediary, pretending to examine potatoes as he slipped the written information into his vest.

"I'm not sure," she replied, "it wasn't covered in the story I told."

For a while after that, she'd survived the worst of the injuries brought on by her espionage by escaping into stories. They served as a kind of supple armor when she was naked, a place to which her mind could retreat. Over and over again she told herself the story of the Witch and the fox babies, like singing a song in her head to give herself bravery-the same thing those filthy noisy birds had done that evening. Later, sometimes both bruised and confused, she collected herself by trying to scribble things down. Not the notes in code-that system, amazingly, had remained undiscovered. But shreds of tales.

She became involved in the work. For a short time it became her salvation. She remembered how her aunts had read the same novel over and over again, for it was the only one they had, and how in their bleak spinsterhoods they had thrilled over false adventures in an invented world.

Then she gained some distance, and lost some momentum. She began to see that her stories were an argument through incident. What had seemed arbitrary, even magical-events unfolding out of her pencil as if it were her pencil doing the thinking-she now deduced as a reductive patterning, a false simplification of the world. Narrative shapeliness was a fiction in and of itself, a lie. The pencil was lying about how much meaning the world was capable of.

Any conclusion she could ever reach was false, because the validity of any conclusion could not be proved by any creature still imprisoned in the throes of life, and therefore still ill educated about myriad cause and final effect.

So after some years, she gave up the experiment of fiction. For a while or for good, she didn't know. When she was engaged as a helpmeet and a nurse by the elderly widower-the Ogre, she called him-only to be locked in a tower to watch from above as he died, words failed her yet again.

Now sitting just outside of the company of the Clock, her saviors, she watched her pencil trail the paper and, avoiding language, make a long arcing line, a tree trunk of sorts. She added odd hooping branches bent like geometrically accurate arches. A stylized willow, a perfect fountain of green.

Sometimes, when words began to raise welts in her skin and panic in her breast, a drawing would suffice. It came from nowhere, this pure tree on the page. Perhaps it was code of another sort, and she could not yet read it.

The sergeant-at-arms said, "Ilianora!" "Ilianora!" At the sound of her name, she had to stir; she had no choice. "The runners are back," he continued, "we've worked out our route. We're right in the crosshairs of the EC militia approaching from the west; we've got fifteen minutes to get out of their way. If you don't come now, we'll leave you here! And bye-bye, Baby Beauty!" At the sound of her name, she had to stir; she had no choice. "The runners are back," he continued, "we've worked out our route. We're right in the crosshairs of the EC militia approaching from the west; we've got fifteen minutes to get out of their way. If you don't come now, we'll leave you here! And bye-bye, Baby Beauty!"

The dwarf turned to the others. "North we go, boys, north to the edge of the woods but not out into the open, for we don't know precisely where the Munchkinlanders are, and in the evening light we don't want them to mistake us as their foe. We don't want to draw their fire. Haste, or we'll be collateral cost before midnight! If I haven't lost my touch, sanctuary should lie just ahead of us."

The boys to their harness, the dwarf to the seat up front. She tucked her pencil and her notebook into her ap.r.o.n pocket and pulled her veil back over her brow. Then she turned to join her family.

"I'm coming," she announced, for it was her history to do so, and she could no more avoid her future than she could escape her past. However often she sat quietly apart, fretting over it. "I'm coming," she called louder, so they could hear her over the sound of cannon.

A Question of Influence

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THE GLa.s.s cat made a sound of complaint; Brrr returned to the present. cat made a sound of complaint; Brrr returned to the present.

"Oooh, Shadowpuppet, supper will be coming soon. These poor servants of the Unnamed G.o.d won't let you go hungry. Their brief doesn't allow it."

The cat came to his lap and licked at some old crumbs caught in the pilling of Brrr's weskit. Brrr petted it, trying to provoke a purr. This was the only warmth Shadowpuppet could show, a tonal warmth: Its body was immune to changes of heat and cold, so far as Brrr could tell.

What an advantage. Maybe it came from old age. Something to antic.i.p.ate, a reprieve.

Even ancient Yackle seemed somewhat inert, emotionally: She was enduring her apparent immortality with stoicism. He'd be driven mad if he thought the blandishments of death were to be denied him forever.

He tried to escape those memories that had crowded upon him this past hour: his disastrous incompatibility with clans either Animal or human, like the Ghullim, like the Shiz banking circle; his mistakes with rogues like Dorothy or Elphaba. His humiliation at the bar of Miss Eldersdotter.

Collaborator. But to collaborate implied a betrayal of one's natural tribe, and if one didn't have a natural tribe...

Perhaps Yackle possessed a shred of mercy; perhaps she had taken herself away not to pray, but to get out of the room while the more heinous memories surged upon him. Perhaps she'd been able to guess that, between Traum and this off-center cloister, he had endured a lifetime of collapsing hopes and misadventures.

If so-if he could credit the old b.i.t.c.h with that much feeling-he had a little to thank her for. Though given his record, he was probably wrong. He was another p.a.w.n in another campaign, and hadn't sussed out yet what her angle was.

In any case, Yackle would be coming back from chapel soon, unless she'd died a death holier than the life she'd led. Meanwhile, the small stars showed up one by one, picking their way slowly, reluctantly, through the gloaming. (He'd preferred overcast nights ever since the creepy atmospherics of the Cloud Swamp.) The stars made a rash in a sky that glowed the color of those mythical seas painted by Dobbius and his followers. A serpent green wash overlaid with a smudge of blue-coal Conte crayon applied with forefinger. In another ten minutes the green of the heavens would drown under the black, and night would be fully and legally arrived. For now, the day played its last hand, the sky reveling in its fullest dimensionality, flaring up into all directions: height, breadth, depth, lastingness.

The noise of cannon, distant but not comfortably distant enough, corresponded with the sound of Yackle approaching down the hall, a sloughing and sighing presence.

She came into the room, hitting backward at the helpful hand of the novice who had been guiding her. "Enough, you crow; go pester some other poor wren. I'll break my hip if I've a mind to, and nothing you can do about it."

"Begging pardon, Mother Yackle, but Sister Doctor asks me to show the Lion to his evening chamber, and you to yours. I bring you here just to say your good evenings, and then I'll bring you on."

"I'll sit here in the dark. I don't need a bed."

"I'm not wasting time at sleep," said Brrr. "Can't you hear that gunfire? Whatever is happening is coming closer. Let's finish up here and I'll be on my way under cover of darkness, the way I came. I have no intention of spending a night here."

"I'll wait outside," said the novice. "I'll give you ten minutes. I am not at liberty to countermand Sister Doctor's orders."

The young woman retreated, and the door closed. Yackle b.u.mped her way to her chair; Brrr didn't offer to help her. She seemed more tired, though hardly an ounce more dead than before.

"Restored, I trust?" said Brrr bitterly.

"They haven't changed, those women," said Yackle. "For what seems like decades I sat among them, wondering how they did it, all that continence of emotion, all that rigor and fervor. I still wonder. I wasn't really made for this world." By her tone he knew she meant the world at large, not just the mauntery.

"Sentimental religiosity?" he asked. "It claws at one, doesn't it."

"I haven't the goods to define it. Not to defend it nor belittle it. It just gets the better of me, that's all. How can they sing those hymns to an Unnamed G.o.d? What is the point?"

Not for him to answer, not that one. "Why are you so sour? You are a maunt, after all. Or masqueraded as one all these years."

"I make as few claims for my spirituality as you make for your courage," she snapped. "The truth is, I wish I were deaf as well as blind. Relieved from listening to the biddies going at one another. Sister Doctor is in charge, more or less, but her aide-in-the-surgery, Sister Apothecaire, has never forgotten that Sister Doctor was elevated while she was pa.s.sed over. The rub of it hasn't mattered much for years, I imagine, but with an invasion of Munchkinland by the Emperor's forces about to happen, well, that stout little Munchkinlander Sister Bulldog-Apothecaire thinks Sister Doctor is proving too neutral a leader."

"Very psychologic of you."

"Don't mock me. The scorn on both sides is deafening. Toadying appeaser, Toadying appeaser, thinks Sister Apothecaire of Sister Doctor. thinks Sister Apothecaire of Sister Doctor. b.l.o.o.d.y hotblooded peasant, b.l.o.o.d.y hotblooded peasant, thinks Sister Doctor of Sister Apothecaire. You suppose I can't hear all this in how they intone their prayers?" thinks Sister Doctor of Sister Apothecaire. You suppose I can't hear all this in how they intone their prayers?"

"You do have good ears," said Brrr. "Quite a liability to your peace of mind, I can see that."

"Go to your rest," she said. "I'm not going to talk to you tonight, so you might as well sleep. Should you have to run mighty fast in the morning, a good night's sleep will benefit you."

"I haven't got what I need yet," he said.

"You're not going to get it now," she answered. "I'm going to sit here a while, in the dark. I am thinking about whether to say any more to you at all. It's possible I might. But I would like to grumble to myself a bit, and I don't want to be overheard."

"It's time, Sir Brrr," said the novice timidly.

She led him to the staircase, which dropped down a wide high stairwell. Above the polished wainscoting on the walls opened a large window with clear panes set in the center, colored borders on the sides. Brrr stood on the top step, waiting for Shadowpuppet to catch up. Brrr lengthened his spine, his neck, to look over the edge of the windowsill, over the curtain wall of the mauntery, to see if he could locate any sign of army divisions or sharpshooters. The sky came down almost to the ground-a flat geography in these parts. Nothing to see but a house or two with some lights on against the dark.

A house right in the way. Poor fools.

"Sir Brrr," said the novice, using an aggrieved tone to chivy the Lion. He picked up the gla.s.s cat, resisting an urge to heave it at the novice's skull, and followed her without speaking again.

The room to which the novice led the Lion was fitted with three clerestory windows. They were too high for him to leap through, should the place be attacked at night-the worries he carried with him!-and in any instance they were probably too small, too, since he'd put on something of a paunch despite the hard times.

Supper came, and it didn't sit well, so it went the way it came. Shadowpuppet kept a distance, wrinkling its gla.s.sine nose at the stench.

He found he couldn't sleep on the hard straw mattress, so he curled up on his coat. The stone floor was cold, and Brrr shivered enough to drive Shadowpuppet to the other side of the room, as if the small moony cat was afraid of shattering.

He tossed and twitched, avoiding the last yoke, the worst of it, but as he grew more tired his resistance thinned; and then it was upon him.

The men with their prods and harpoon guns, the net, the ignominious net. The surrender to capture, the terror in the cage, the shame. The accusations, the sentencing. The surgeon with his sedative, a needle and a plunger. Then the scissors of four or five barbers snipping around him, all at once. "Mortification is good for the maturing beast," said a voice, the surgeon's, someone's. "Strip him of his honors, shave his mane, prune him down to nothing, and if he survives he will grow up stronger."

A shorn head, the sign of a collaborationist.

He couldn't and wouldn't place the memory; he wouldn't give it credit for being true, even. He couldn't see himself either as a Lion cub or as a gentlebeast financier. The truth remained: He was a hollow in the midst of his own life. He'd never achieved a personal stature, a standard by which to guess the stature of others.

Perhaps it was a dread he had only imagined. If it really had happened, he didn't want to remember the details. Better that day should stay dead.

Relieved of that darkest recollection, Brrr slipped into sleep at last. He dreamt, and he knew he was dreaming as it happened, which was curious in and of itself, the more so because on the whole Cats rarely dream.